I'm feeling very depressed. I'm 19 years old. I'm currently in community college with a 1.6 GPA. I feel like such a fuck up. I destroyed my life with this substance. I could be playing on the school's basketball team right now if I didn't destroy my life with this substance. I'm lucky enough to have an amazing mother and girlfriend. But I feel like I fucked my life up so bad, I feel hopeless. Is there anyone out there going through something similar???

Are there any people out there with experience that could tell me what to do other than focus on school, stay sober, and trust God? I feel so lazy, and I know I am. I just want to be better. I feel like a fucking monster.

I started smoking around 2015, occasionally on Saturday nights. It was great! I'd laugh a lot, watch movies, feel creative, then eat a lot. I loved it.

As time passed I started doing it more and more. I became numb to the effects. It just kinda stopped being fun and became routine. I gradually limited myself to a few hits off a vape pen in the evenings but like, even then it was nothing like it used to be. Just something I did out of habit. I wasn't getting anything out of it.

I took quite a bit of time off to get my tolerance down and I had a puff last night, hoping to recapture some of the old magic. My head felt fuzzy and I spaced out. No giggles, no creativity, no fun...it was pretty unpleasant. I just don't think weed is for me anymore. I'm over this. I think I'm done, which is a bummer because I used to enjoy it so much.

Can anyone else relate?

day 1 I didn’t sleep a wink

day 2 I managed to sleep but mostly because I was so shattered from being awake for 36 hours plus I played football at 8:45pm so I was absolutely knackered when I got home, just hit the pillow and goodbye Tuesday

now it’s day 3, it’s 9:20am as I write this and I have this fear that I won’t sleep again tonight. I’ve been invited over my parents for a meal which means I can’t go to the gym so I can’t tire myself out ”manually”

what did you do to help with those initial sleepless nights?

So I was smoking for almost 5 years and am taking a break right now. Smoked everyday but still stayed disciplined and had hobby’s while smoking (college degree, body building, mma, gfs, ect) and tbh im not noticing anything that different. I had a rough week 1 but after about day 6 my mood is fine and I still kinda want to smoke. My job is pretty mentally challenging and I play chess everyday for like 3 hours and I haven’t noticed anything mental change, discipline kinda dipped but I’m back with the gym and activities. I don’t really know why I quit just thought it was time to grow up I guess, but are there really any benefits I’m going to see past 30 days?

Just kinda wondering what am I even fighting for cuz nothing is wrong with me, I’m doing well in life, and I don’t really have any other vices besides vape.

Hello,

I’ve been a chronic smoker for like 10+ years and with my last child I continued smoking throughout my pregnancy. This time I want to fully quit and try to be the healthiest I can be… I’m supeer nervous about withdrawals and going through the effects WHILE pregnant 😭

I’m not even a day sober and im so miserable, I have gerd, and the doctor stated that me smoking is the reason why I have episodes of morning nausea. I’m in school for healthcare. And I know I won’t be able to have that career if I want smoke, my boyfriend DOESNT know that I smoke and we’ve been dating for about eight months:/ the guilt is driving me insane and I’m worried about my health, whoever says weed is not addictive is lying. I know it’s a mindset, but your mindset is your body. I hate when people excuse by saying it’s different. I’ve just been trying to sleep all day and I have a console so I play video games I study when I can. I’m doing this secretively.

My parents have caught me having found out that I do weed. Unfortunately because of weed in the last few years my health has totally deteriorated. I’ve lost perspective and passion in things and have continued to indulge in it even after 2 years of quitting on and off. I’ve lied to my parents repeatedly and am continuing to do so. I’m still using altho I’m trying to cut back and hopefully will in some time.

However, because of having found out that I’m still doing it, I’m having to still live with them. Also now I can’t leave the house without telling them where I’m going and have to go with some chaperone. Further, dad has logged into my WhatsApp and sees all my texts to figure out if something is fishy. I’m 24. I’m fine with everything other than the WhatsApp reading. That makes my skin crawl. I know I’ve broken their trust time and again and am still doing it. But him reading my personal chats with friends is something I can’t get around. What do u guys think am I being irrational considering I’m also betraying their trust.

For my follow people who have been sober.What are some new healthy habits you have picked up in placement? What do you do on a daily basis that helped you on your journey?

So it’s official my doctor recommended me to get off the green . The problem is that was weeks ago …

I know in my heart it would be in my best interest it’s messing with my life and mental health . 36,F it’s time and I’m scared. When people tell you weed ain’t addictive that is BS .

Feeling a little defeated ☹️ I have a few pre rolls left once they are gone I’m going to try again . Wish me luck Reddit!

It’s time for change, I have become to dependent on the Mary Jane and that’s not cool .

I’m already a little spicy on a base level but, damn. I am a vicious bitch today (day one)☝🏼

I can’t stand being inside my own head.

I didn’t mean for my quit day to be 420. 15 year old me is thinking 40 year old me has a warped sense of humor.

I am enraged at being alive.

I am an American for reference so you can imagine how annoyed I am on a day-to-day basis with our politics.

I was literally screaming at RFK on my phone in the next room and my partner had to check in on me.

According to all you helpful folks, This does improve.

I am scared.

I’ve heard your dopamine could take several MONTHS to regulate.

I’ve been getting high daily, all day for like 7 years.

Can you drop the moment you realized you made the right choice in quitting? When all the withdrawal symptoms were worth it?

I’m struggling and upset I let myself get here

Waking up sober and realizing the state I let me house get into.

I've been so complacent with the mess, I just numbed it out and acted like it was fine.

Now, in my sober state it's all so overstimulating. I never invite anyone over because of how messy it is, and I never cleaned because no one ever came over.

I can't own and maintain a house and deal with the surprise repairs and issues while high all the time.

Anyone else get a blood pressure spike during withdrawal? Since I quit I have been tracking my BP at home, and it has been higher than normal consistently. Today’s day 5 sober for me, and today at my annual physical my BP was 141/101. I’m typically around 110/70. My (new) provider did agree that this can happen during withdrawal, and advised me to track my BP at home over the next 10 days until our follow up appt. I also have a headache and slight lightheaded feeling but I’m functioning fine. She didn’t seem too concerned otherwise. My anxiety is telling me that I should be worried even though my provider isn’t very worried, and I know this can happen. If you experienced this, how long did it take to come back down?

I’ve never posted on here before but just looking for advice. I’ve quit THC before and I’m doing it again as I type this. Are there any tips or tricks to make it easier? It’s just the lack of appetite and insomnia for me but it still sucks. I’ve also quit alcohol and nicotine in the past and that’s the real nightmare but just looking for any tips that could help this next week. I have my hydration and ate dinner and took vitamins etc. Thanks in advance to anyone that comments.

Finally feeling free from cannabis on this 4/20, and I do not miss it at all. Life isn’t all rosy, but I’d be making no progress if I were to pick it back up - plus those withdrawals were a nightmare this go around.

Hello ! As the title says I decided I wanna quit weed for no particular reason except I felt addicted.

Ive been smoking 4-5 joints a day every day for the last 5-6 years. I’m 22. Never really took a decent tolerance break in the time when I was smoking, maximum a day or two for the whole 5-6 years.

Today is my 3rd day of not smoking and I’m experiencing awful withdraws.

The main problem is eating. I haven’t ate a proper meal those 3 days. My stomach is sick because the lack of food, but even the thought about it makes me gag. I tried forcing myself to eat a bit, ate a single french fry and threw up liquids shortly after. I am currently eating apples, bananas and drinking lots of water.

Another thing I’m experiencing is the cold & hot waves. One moment I’m freezing, the next I’m super hot, but thats really not bothering me that much.

Sleeping has been kinda problematic - I can fall asleep with a bit of struggling, but I sleep for only around 5 hours. Can’t go for more - once I wake up my brain feels rested, even tho I know thats impossible with only 5 hours. Last night I went to sleep at 11:00PM and woke up at 4:00AM today.

I don’t have the “i am so bored i wanna smoke cuz i don’t have what to” thoughts and really haven’t had them at all..

I don’t feel nervous or depressed or easily annoyed at all.

My main worry is that I’m gonna fuck up something with my stomach and have problems. Anyone have any tips for me?

I really wanna fix the stomach problems and from what Ive read people are saying It’s gonna be like this for a while… 21-90 days, which really sounds impossible if I’m feeling like I currently am.

I just need to type my thoughts out and send them into the void.

I’m quitting smoking. I have to — I got diagnosed with RCVS and as a woman on antidepressants, I’m already at such a high risk for strokes and brain bleeds (fun!).

I’m currently on Day 3, and I feel like shit. I’m sweating, can’t eat, and don’t even ask about my digestive system. This sucks. I also just feel so . . . embarrassed almost? I always was one who said “Weed isn’t actually addictive” and I just can’t believe I let myself get like this.

Good news is, I have no desire to smoke. The fact that I’m so dependent on something that my body is literally breaking down without it is enough for me. That being said, I don’t think the cravings have actually set in yet, so looking forward to that. I’m trying to focus on how I’m starting to rediscover who I am without weed. Also trying to remind myself the only way out is through. I’m more alert, energetic, and experience emotions more strongly — good and bad. Still have plenty of the fog, but it’s not like being constantly high.

I’m also in therapy (not for this specifically, but it’s come up). Biggest worry is that I’m just gonna replace smoking with drinking. Current goal is to get to next session (this Monday) and proudly tell her that I’m 10 days weedless.

Today is the hardest day for me personally! Feels like a free pass to smoke weed but I won't be doing it. I'm currently on day 27. We can do this!!

I (35yr old female) quit weed about a month ago after 15 years of HEAVY everyday use. I was thinking that my SNRI would start working better if I quit weed, but I’ve been feeling increasingly more depressed. Does anyone else have experience with this? Did your depression get worse before it got better?

Just to clarify, my feelings of depression have nothing to do worth cravings, I surprisingly have not been craving weed at all.

Like almost everyone on here. This is not my first attempt at quitting. I have been smoking daily since around 2012. Stopped around 2016 because I was getting into school trouble. Lost a ton of weight and looked healthy for about a year even after going back to smoking. Then quit for maybe two weeks for a partner in 2021. Ive been fluctuating 40 pounds above my ideal weight for about 10 years now. Sick of not being confident when i know theres a handsome, capable, athletic man underneath the fat lazy shell that THC has molded me into as I became a man. I remember when i quit in 2021 feeling like I had reverted back to that 14 year old that started this whole thing. Not looking for much advice or attention. I know theres probably another guy like me out there who wants to hear this. Its time. THC is doing nothing for me. Im over it

Day one of not smoking weed. The longest I've ever quit since 9 years old (now 20) is about two weeks long and chronic use. I also had a frontal lobectamy, so I'm missing a majority of my cb1 protein receptors. (Long story short, it makes me more dependent largely from inability to manage stress and my withdrawal worse). I've been 150lbs for the past 3-4 years or so. I've had an issue with appetite my entire life, even when smoking, and also managing chronic stress and nerve pain from retrograde scoliosis and multiple previously broken bones. I've been smoking weed for around a decade or over half my life for management of these problems.

But I just can't afford addictions anymore.

I quit alcohol last year, but it was much easier as I didn't drink daily or for functional tasks. Weed almost feels impossible because I feel like I'll immediately stop eating and lose the ability to handle stress and basically the ability to use the half of my frontal lobe I still have left..

I've done extensive research in almost everything that can physically or psychologically help. Ie. Supplements, libidal attachments, etc.

Every time in the past I stopped, I just became extremely overwhelmed and lost the ability to perform my daily responsibilities. But as a married foster kid who aged out of care, I can't keep spending money on stupid shit like weed.

If anyone has had any slightly similar experience and found some stuff that helped you stay in control? (mostly stress but also appetite and other symptoms)

I desperately need the ability to hold myself together until my brain upregulates cb1 receptors and returns dopamine to baseline and severes the libial attachments and creates new one. Given my physiologically and past use, this timeline of withdrawal and returning to a more "neurotypical" state will be prolonged compared to a moderate use user.

Estimates predict that someone in my circumstances can take up to 6 months to recover..

I've never even gone a small portion of that in my adult life without weed... also I turn 21 in a few weeks and live in a recreational state so any tips on howto stay out of the dispo on my birthday would be great.