I’m already a little spicy on a base level but, damn. I am a vicious bitch today (day one)☝🏼

I can’t stand being inside my own head.

I didn’t mean for my quit day to be 420. 15 year old me is thinking 40 year old me has a warped sense of humor.

I am enraged at being alive.

I am an American for reference so you can imagine how annoyed I am on a day-to-day basis with our politics.

I was literally screaming at RFK on my phone in the next room and my partner had to check in on me.

According to all you helpful folks, This does improve.

I am scared.

I’ve heard your dopamine could take several MONTHS to regulate.

I’ve been getting high daily, all day for like 7 years.

Can you drop the moment you realized you made the right choice in quitting? When all the withdrawal symptoms were worth it?

I’m struggling and upset I let myself get here

I’m a writer working on a manuscript and Ive been a daily smoker/vaper of 🍃 for the last 6-7 years. I just quit today.

My partner is joining me, they’ve been a daily user for about 9 yrs.

I feel my habit is potentially a huge roadblock in my career and creativity.

I cut out booze back in October after realizing I’d been misusing it since I was 16. (Weekend/occasion binge drinker.) I think I’ve just been in it for so long I don’t know what normal feels like anymore.

I’m also quite a bit of a gym rat and in my early forties. I’m starting to feel the hinderance in my cardio performance.

I have some questions for those who have found success with changing their habit:

-if you could tell your day one self one thing you know now, what would it be?

-to those of you who who create art for fun or for a living. (Especially writers) How has your process changed or improved?

-how has this changed the way you experience things like anxiety/depression?

-can you measure a difference in the way you approach your ambitions?

Thanks so much for any thoughts.

-a newbie

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