Quitting for the millionth time
Day one of not smoking weed. The longest I've ever quit since 9 years old (now 20) is about two weeks long and chronic use. I also had a frontal lobectamy, so I'm missing a majority of my cb1 protein receptors. (Long story short, it makes me more dependent largely from inability to manage stress and my withdrawal worse). I've been 150lbs for the past 3-4 years or so. I've had an issue with appetite my entire life, even when smoking, and also managing chronic stress and nerve pain from retrograde scoliosis and multiple previously broken bones. I've been smoking weed for around a decade or over half my life for management of these problems.
But I just can't afford addictions anymore.
I quit alcohol last year, but it was much easier as I didn't drink daily or for functional tasks. Weed almost feels impossible because I feel like I'll immediately stop eating and lose the ability to handle stress and basically the ability to use the half of my frontal lobe I still have left..
I've done extensive research in almost everything that can physically or psychologically help. Ie. Supplements, libidal attachments, etc.
Every time in the past I stopped, I just became extremely overwhelmed and lost the ability to perform my daily responsibilities. But as a married foster kid who aged out of care, I can't keep spending money on stupid shit like weed.
If anyone has had any slightly similar experience and found some stuff that helped you stay in control? (mostly stress but also appetite and other symptoms)
I desperately need the ability to hold myself together until my brain upregulates cb1 receptors and returns dopamine to baseline and severes the libial attachments and creates new one. Given my physiologically and past use, this timeline of withdrawal and returning to a more "neurotypical" state will be prolonged compared to a moderate use user.
Estimates predict that someone in my circumstances can take up to 6 months to recover..
I've never even gone a small portion of that in my adult life without weed... also I turn 21 in a few weeks and live in a recreational state so any tips on howto stay out of the dispo on my birthday would be great.