Even though I have been tracking my calories recently, I've been eating loads of snacks and unhealthy foods. I need to be better. I've been consistently eating 1,000+ calories over my suggested calorie intake. Although I'm pretty active, that shouldn't serve as an excuse to binge eat.
I'm feeling very depressed. I'm 19 years old. I'm currently in community college with a 1.6 GPA. I feel like such a fuck up. I destroyed my life with this substance. I could be playing on the school's basketball team right now if I didn't destroy my life with this substance. I'm lucky enough to have an amazing mother and girlfriend. But I feel like I fucked my life up so bad, I feel hopeless. Is there anyone out there going through something similar???
Are there any people out there with experience that could tell me what to do other than focus on school, stay sober, and trust God? I feel so lazy, and I know I am. I just want to be better. I feel like a fucking monster.