r/DysphoriaPosting

Troonselfies is honestly a good sub to go to if you need some positivity ngl. Yall look great!

All cause of some fuck ups with hormones and shit during the prenatal period, I’m permanently afab, permanently retarded, and permanently defunct. I hate my life. I could’ve been a neurotypical cis guy. I SHOULD’VE been a neurotypical cis guy. It’s not fair. To taunt me with all I could ever ask for, then rip it all away. Haunt me daily with this body, leave me wondering why I should even keep living. Show me the people who have all I could ever want, fill me with raw jealousy, remind me daily of the life I will never live. The life I was supposed to live. It’s not fair. I just want to die.

Sorry for my stupid thoughts, but I will never forgive myself for being born a woman. I seriously don't see anything good in femininity and girlhood. I hate that everything that is considered an achievement for a woman is natural for the average man. I hate how weak I am. Even boys from elementary school are taller than me. I hate my wide hips, I hate that even despite all my efforts, I can't gain muscle. I hate periods. I don't know why, but I feel like sex is humiliation for a woman. Nature doesn't even allow women to enjoy sex without humiliation and pain. I hate the way society perceives women. I hate how women are sexualized everywhere, it just makes me feel ashamed of my body even more. I just want to die. I can't even look at pictures of men. I keep looking at their broad shoulders and I want to cry. I WANT BROAD SHOULDERS. It's such agony.

(Random ahh picture sorry)

First pic is from 3 months ago, second is recent…
My face was already bad, but how the fuck did it got worse??
It looks like my chin got larger and my face more angular…

be me, a 24 year old perma manmoder

I go outside to get things for mother's day

I see cis women in dresses and stuff wishing I could dress feminine too...

day ruined

no seriously though I WISH I COULD WEAR A DRESS OR SOMETHING WITHOUT LOOKING LIKE A HONBEAST MONSTER AGHHH

My cis girlfriend is very similar to me in so many ways. We have a lot of the same or similar life experiences and went through similar things. We both like helping people. The list goes on. In so many ways, she's almost like another me, we're so similar but different in some ways too

The thing that sucks though is that she's basically me, but a waaaaaay better version of me in every way there is.

She's infinitely prettier than me. She's way more fembrained than me. She's much stronger of a person than I could ever be as the amount of things she's gone through makes my life look like a garden in comparison. She's smarter than me, funnier, more talented etc the list goes on!!!

And she's better at helping people... And she does more for her family than I do for mine...

She is literally just a better version of me. She doesn't just physically and spiritually mog me, but she life mogs me too...

She's a reminder of what I am not. What I fail to be. I can never be even a quarter of the woman she is. I aspire to be like her one day but she's so far out of my league it's not even funny ☠️☠️☠️

I can’t take it anymore. My chromosomes doomed me, estrogen destroyed me, and now there’s nothing left to look forward to. The simple knowledge that I’ll always have this body is enough to taint any possible joy I could extract from life. I don’t fucking care about hrt or all the surgeries I don’t care I don’t want to have to fucking pay to be a man I don’t want to have to be extremely buff just to account for my shoulders, hips, and height, I just wanna be a real guy. I never will be. I will never have gotten the real man’s adolescence never gonna experience a real man’s puberty I’ll never be welcome in real men’s spaces. I was on a sub for short guys yesterday and immediately left because not even 5 min into scrolling was a comment section full of hate towards a trans guy who did literally nothing wrong besides exist. I hate this life. Every guy I see is pure ropefuel, even my own family even my friends fucking every single one of them.

Just wanna pull a “Hey guys! I guess that’s it.” I don’t truly want to die, I know, but it all just seems so pointless. I’ll never be a real guy I’ll never be happy, why do I even bother?

not every ally, but ENOUGH allies to be a problem.

they do not gaf about us or what we think, lol. most support I've seen from the majority have been telling aidens that it's valid that they want to have their titties out, telling lilliths that they should get over their dysphoria bcs it's reinforcing gender norms and "we love masculine women", 😍 and sweep it under the rug when we express dysphoria, the way cis ppl treat us, or even when we're not perfect and end up being mean or snappy.

they want us to fit their boxes of perfect, positive, non-dysphoric subhumans who r ok with being talked down to and overshadowed. dont even try to have a voice they will shame u 😭

i think this type of ally just wants us all to be cis and gnc. no i don't want to be a cutesy anime femboy. no i don't want to do drag make up and have a beard. i just want to be a cis woman and im not a misogynistic man for that. that's not my job and u don't hold cis ppl to those standards 😒

Basically, for class, I was planning to wear a dress that I had worn before, but this time it felt off. I felt like an abomination, so I decided not to wear it.

When I arrived at the classroom, my friend asked me if I was doing okay. I just started crying for half an hour, and eventually I ran off to my home.

One hour later, my friends arrived at my house with a giant esquite, flowers, and cookies. Then we made arepas.

They don’t know what gender dysphoria is, however, I still felt extremely supported by them. I feel less like an abomination, or at least loved.

Thanks for your attention.

i am ALWAYS slouching back, you will NEVER catch me with my shoulders relaxed. i am suprised i dont have back injuries from how much i push my shoulders back in every fucking photo

Nobody irl has ever or will ever see me as a man. It’s never been so over fml fml. Can’t get T until I’m 18 in my state I just want to die

I’ll never have the true body of a man. I’ll never have the chromosomes of a man. I’ll never get the experience of being a neurotypical cis man, always gonna live the life of a retarded tranny fag. The only cure for me is suicide but I just can never really do it. I try to cut my wrist but I can never get deep enough, I never have enough pills, I never have enough means, or I just straight up chicken out, I forget, plans change. Everyday I hope I get hit by a truck and I’m dead on impact.