u/Josiexposey

here's to 10 more

counting off time. trapped living a life as someone else. i hate being a man. i hate being a man. i just have to cope with it but it's too much sometimes. i wish i could escape myself. i want the bad dream to end

and she's trying to get me to start presenting femme and wants to go shopping. i like hanging out with her but i don't think im able to do that. i mean i wish i could, but i feel like my dysphoric feelings about my body just get amplified when i try to do anything feminine. i try never to engage with my body and what i look like as i find it easier to cope that way. anyway i have a hard time explaining this to people. they just assume that i would want to present in a way that affirms my gender. but i just hate feeling like a man in women's clothes.