r/kundalini

On 11/11/24 I had a profound awakening, met God, brought thru the cosmos, healed in ways I didn't know was possible, filled with such perfect pure love and compassion. I was free, I was HOME. I have always worshipped love and compassion but this was a different level, effortless and obvious. I can't even explain the overflowing love. It couldn't be contained and I tried to share it with my family and they attacked me repeatedly and sent me to a mental hospital over and over and it broke me inside at my core. Like literally my core turned to dust. I used to identify with love. It was what I lived for. Now I can't listen to any music I ever lived or read or watch anything. All my relationships dissolved.

I have a blind autistic brother that was being neglected and I was spending a lot of time with him and it was so beautiful and healing for both of us. It was divine. I received so much grace. And so did he.

But now I'm so broken. Time doesn't exist. I feel nothing for my family at all. I'm alone completely. My brain melted and heart shattered and my roots were cut off and I feel like a ghost just waiting for this body to die. Like I ruined my life purpose. I don't even feel anything for my brother and it kills me. I love loving him. But I can't fake it. As sincere as I was for the depth of my love for him, there's just nothing now. I used to be so creative and positive and I could see people's pain and empathize and help them because I could look at what they couldn't and I made them feel seen and safe. And now I have no one to do that for me. I sold my house and moved 7 hours away into the mountains to be with nature which I've always wanted but it's like I was supposed to be here healed but instead I'm here like watching a movie or something. I feel nothing. I'm so scared.

Is there somewhere I can go with people that have been thru something similar and can guide me out of darkness? I'm not evil or wish to harm anyone or myself. I'm just dead inside. What have I done. I was miserable seeing so many people not being loving and being too caught up in material stuff and prioritizing meaninglessness over eternal truths. And I suddenly awakened realizing I am the one to live those truths as an example. And they HATED me for it. And it was like a coordinated attack. And they gutted me. Head to toe. I saw the sun for like a week while being attacked and they took my crown, poked out my 3rd eye, stole my voice, shattered my heart, exploded my solar plexus into stars, and shredded my root.

I have been too good and kind and loving to end up like this. I stayed in a area I didn't align with for 16 years to protect my brother and to try to help keep my family afloat after my dad and 9 other people died. And it slowly rotted my root. Then one day I remembered I love me and it's like my root regreew and energy flowed unimpeded. But then like it was ALL taken. All my memories and my purpose and joy and connection. Just all gone. It feels so final.

I'm living alone in the woods and it's so confusing. I was hoping to heal here but it's been months and I'm just scared. I want to be part of a community. I need help being healed and to return to truth. All the wisdom and understanding I had fractured into 1000 pieces. I was betrayed by the very people I loved so deeply that I awakened. I'm 43 and single and I just don't want to die never having truly lived. I was a martyr, taking on others sins and transmuting them. Trying to lead by example. But I was alone in a war zone.

I need a medic of the soul. Someone with light to help relight my pilot light. It has been a year and a half since my awakening and I'm out of the deepest darkness but it's still so dark and lonely. I was born again and my family cut my head off instead of embracing a more mature and loving being that was being delivered. I fear I lost everything I worked for, all the meaning of my life, everything. Just gone. I need real help. Therapist that haven't been reborn can't possibly get it. Anyone that hasn't been truly awakened can't help me.

Is there a place where I can go for like a month to restabilize and reorient. God please help me. All the good I could have done. It feels so final. Like I'm lost in the abyss forever.

Please guide. I have been facing these issues in my nightly meditation ( sleeping pose) from past three/four months :

• head jolts lifting the upper body up as soon as relaxed and focus deeply. Occurs several times in one session.
• right hand tapping hard and fast on bed ( fingers to wrist area only)
• right hand slapping chest area several times
• right hand making the round of the head. i had to lift my head to let it pass underneath the head

these things feels like slowly continues to grow in intensity. not able to do meditation properly.

Are these any neurological disorder ? should i stop meditation ?

Has anyone experienced a constant energy field around their body that moves on its own 24/7 ?

I've had this for a while now and I'm trying to find others who've experienced something similar and learn more about it. The best way I can describe it:

• There's something around me that rotates and shifts shape on its own
• it responds to my intention — I can change its rotation or movement consciously -The speed of the rotation increases when I focus on it or when i relax/meditate
• Other times it moves completely independently
• It sometimes feels like light or energy tracing patterns in the air around my hands
• It's always present, regardless of my mental state
• i feel like my vibration is so high and socializing is often draining and people are magnetized towards me

I've looked into kundalini awakening, toroidal fields, Merkabah activation . some of it overlaps but nothing describes this exactly.

Are these symptoms of kundalini awakening or any thing else?

I am just trying to understand what I am experiencing. if anyone else experience same, please help

Hi everyone - I'm hitting a point in my research of kundalini where I'm struggling to understand the purpose of working with it and how it connects to practices / beliefs I currently have. Google is chalk full of people pushing their own self-help programs so I'm hoping there are some people here open to clarifying more for me. Please know that despite any ignorance, I am actively learning and just looking for some helpful clarity.

I originally got into manifestation, attracted to the idea of having agency my life. I eventually found a therapist who worked with manifestation and shifted me to nervous system regulation and other body-based modalities. I've had some changes in my baseline emotional behavior and self-awareness but did not have the meaningful shifts in my life I was looking for. I've generally had a pretty stable life so I thought either my baseline was already pretty okay to begin with or there was blockage deep within me that I'm not consciously aware of.

I came to believe that there is an "energy" within us that connects us all to each other and the universe. This concept spans across all religions and cultures but it's all essentially the same. Modern life has cut us off and suppressed us from accessing this energy but with healing/regulation we can have the capacity to reconnect and co-create with it to fulfill our desires which ultimately contributes to what's best in the world.

I then found kundalini energy which seemed to align to the type of "energy" I had been pursuing but then I also found how powerful and dangerous it can be and once it is awakened, good or bad, you must adapt and surrender to it and it's direction for you.

Is kundalini the same energy many of these spiritual/wellness practices are ultimately pursuing? If yes, why aren't the risks discussed more openly? I've engaged in practices such as breathwork, meditation, TRE, kundalini yoga (this was before I learned of its history) and enjoyed them so much so that I wanted to find ways to regularly commit to them in a weekly routine with the idea that regular engagement would lead me to my ideal state but it seems like these same practices may accidentally awaken it? Many people do breathwork/meditation/yoga in secular spaces so are there just tons of people unknowingly playing fast and loose with their mental health?

I started this journey to feel more empowered in my life. If kundalini has its own “operating system” that takes over and requires surrender, it feels I'm back to where I started and it's like damn... I just wanted "xyz", I didn't think it was this deep. My understanding was that the universe was neutral. Labels like "good", "bad", "selfish" are all human constructs and it was more important to desire in alignment with the universe. I'm not looking for crazy riches or fame, I don't want to hurt anyone, I'm just a regular person who just wants to enjoy this lifetime with a general sense of purpose and peace, to connect with and help others to best of how I can define it. I thought my routine was helping me reach this but is it just going to take me to a place where I still have no control but just in another form? What is all this for then? If these practices aren't bad how do people approach potentially discovering trauma safely given this "accidental" possibility?

Thanks in advance for anyone taking the time out to read!

Because of the intense releases of Kundalini, I started doing it once in a great while when starting it. When doing it, it usually resulted in kriyas such as intense sobbing, and random body "jerks". That once in a great while turned into once a week, and this in turn has become twice a week.

Over time, as I have done Kundalini practices, I have noticed the Sushumna seems "wider" or able to pass more energy. Along with this, I notice my Kundalini practices no longer produce the aforementioned kriyas when I perform them. I have also noticed that doing a 15-20 minute session, now produces a similar effect to a 1 hour session when performing my practices and doing more can become incredibly intense.

I want to approach these practices safely. I always perform grounding practices after doing my own practices, to ensure I never get "top heavy" so to speak.

However, I wanted to ask those who are more experienced:

• How often do you perform Kundalini? Is it daily, weekly, only a set number of practices a month?
• If you are doing it daily, how did you approach it safely so that you could go from whatever you were doing initially, to daily or multiple times a day?
• Finally, what signs have you noticed when doing Kundalini that you let you know you're "pushing too hard" or "pushing what you're capable of handling" so to speak?

I posted recently about pressure in the head and anxiety attacks at night. Well, the story was not complete. Whatever breathing exercises I was doing awoken a 13 year forgotten OCD which could be a sign that it was only buried inside and now is a good time to resolve it.

Why do I ask the title question:

1. At night, I felt a lot of head pressure and mind racing. I asked the energy to give me a break so I can sleep (as suggested in the Wiki or by Marc), and surprisingly it did. I do it often now when I need some rest.

2. In the morning I feel this energy in my body, either in the belly, or under the arms or between the eyes. After playing basketball in the evening, the next morning this energy was through the roof, and I constantly felt my throat and my right hand shaking uncontrollably. If I allowed it, my entire body would start shaking with pleasant sensations.

3. When I was trying to ground, by releasing energy from the head through the hands, my throat and hands would also shake uncontrollably.

4. Sometimes, if I allow my right hand to move on its own (powered by some invisible force) it would start doing moving along this path along my body, from the root area all the way to the shoulders, head and back down. It almost looks like what the energy healers are sometimes doing with their hands.

5. Often, with this shaking comes emotional release. I experienced more emotional release in a week than in an entire year (or more).

I'm still struggling with the OCD and intrusive thoughts, especially when the pressure in the head is intense or if I am very stressed. Grounding and deep breathing does seem to calm it down.

Any advice is most welcome.

I believe I had my first awakening. I am active in Yoga, meditation and its philosophies.
Essentially, I knew what it was when it was rising, and I was able to sit with it even though it was quite terrifying. It lasted for about an hour and a half and it’s cycled about 6 to 8 times. I really only stopped due to exhaustion. A few hours have passed and I’ve hydrated and eaten, but now I’m sitting in the aftermath like what the f*** was that? I could use some assistance processing what happened. Any resources or supportive words would be appreciated. Thank you.

Yesterday I was having a Kundalini experience. There was this subtle undercurrent of laughter moving through my body and soul, along with an intuitive sense that I was resisting something. When I sat with it and asked myself why, I realized I genuinely didn’t believe I was allowed to feel happy.
The moment I stopped resisting the Kundalini and truly let myself accept that I was allowed to feel happiness, and allowed to love myself, the energy flow intensified. I couldn’t stop laughing. It turned into deep, belly-shaking laughter, along with some very gentle kriyas. I felt incredibly light and joyful afterward, but also intense and powerful.

I’m curious if anyone else has experienced similar releases/healings/knowings during the Kundalini process, or had moments where releasing resistance changed the experience completely. I really enjoy reading about other people’s experiences and perspectives.

Much love everyone.

Hi everyone. Have been going through kundalini for many years now and reading posts here but this is my first post. Recently in a shamanism/buddhism class i was taking I was asked to meditate by focusing on the point few fingers above the navel daily. I've done so, and noticed that it keeps dropping my energy down, which then it has to come back up afterwards in a not very pleasant manner. Anyone has any thoughts or experience on this?

Thanks

Hey all,

I'm very new to Kundalini and am looking to learn more about it. I have heard of things like Chakras and have a basic understanding of the popular notion of it, but I wonder if there's anything that most people get wrong about Kundalini.