r/MentalHealthPH

I have suspicions that my lack of mental clarity, memory loss, and “kabobohan” was caused by these breakdowns I’ve been having. Every time I breakdown kasi sumasakit ng sobra yung utak ko kaya feeling ko naaapektuhan na siya, lalo na kapag sobra-sobra yung iyak ko. Does anyone relate?

Funny how I ended up reading what my husband wrote about me on Reddit. He wrote that he’s not really physically attracted to me, and that he doesn’t feel much desire when we’re intimate. Honestly, I’m not even sure if it still feels like love anymore while being intimate.

For context, I’m 5’2” and weigh 63 kg, which is considered overweight for my height. I’ve been taking contraceptive pills for my adenomyosis, and they’ve caused me to gain weight.

I’m also on Valdoxan, an antidepressant prescribed by my psychiatrist as I am battling with severe depression and severe panic attack. One of its side effects is acne, so I’ve been struggling with breakouts as well.

I don’t think he truly understands what I’ve been going through. These medications can really affect a woman—weight gain, mood swings, and even low libido. It hasn’t been easy.

Right now, I feel lost and unhappy. It hurts to think that my husband isn’t happy with me either, and I don’t know what to do anymore. I don't really have couple friends to vent out or share these struggles of mine. I sometimes think to just leave and end myself.

Tangina ng nanay ko. Sana siya nalang namatay imbis na yung tatay ko. Putangina niya at ng religious beliefs niyang hindi ko na masikmura. Gusto ko nalang siyang patayin.

Patay na tatay ko, dalawang taon na. CKD. Simula non, nagtrabaho ako para lang hindi makadagdag sa gastusin niyang putangina siya. Sobrang self-aware naman ako na minsan hindi ko na naaasikaso yung sarili ko dahil pagod na pagod na ko sa trabaho. Nag-aaral din ako at the same time. Putangina niya. Lahat nalang isusumbat niya sakin. Kalat sa bahay. Kalat ng kapatid ko. Kalat niya. KALAT NG BUHAY NIYA. PUTANGINA TAPOS IPAPANGARAL PA SAKIN LAHAT NG RELIGIOUS BELIEFS NYA NA NATUTUTUNAN NIYA SA LINTEK NA RELIHIYON NA YAN. TANGINA MO GAGO SANA IKAW NALANG NAMATAY HINDI YUNG TATAY KO.

NGAYON, PUTANGINA GUSTONG GUSTO KO SYANG PATAYIN. EITHER PATAYIN SIYA O PATAYIN NALANG SARILI KO. TANGINA NIYA. GUSTO KO NANG LUMAYAS AT KALIMUTANG MAY NANAY PA AKO. PUTANGINA GANITO BA EPEKTO NG RELIHIYON SA TAO? GOD CENTERED KA NGA PUTANGINA KA NAMANG MAGULANG.

I never felt so seen in my life. I am not diagnosed pero yung mga posts rito, nagagawa ko rin. I really want to change badly at marami na rin akong gustong gawin na hindi ko man lang magawa. 

Napahagulgol ako especially nung nabasa ko rito about someone na nauwi sa self-harming. I can relate kasi awang awa na rin ako sa sarili ko, parang walang padadaluyan ang buhay ko, ayaw ko nang magpatuloy pa pero may gusto pa akong patunayan.

For how long na I've been diagnosed with PDD or dysthymia. Akala ko it was my parents strictness at environment growing up pero naalala ko how I break down just because I couldn't start doing something. Na ang root cause sa mga breakdown ko ay ako. 

Akala ko talaga tamad lang ako at overthinker as I was described throughout my life. Was also described as always late rin. Kahit anong start ko, hindi ko talaga kayang ma consistent. All those morning routines na I can only do for a day or two, mga libro na hindi ko matapos-tapos, mga assignments and projects na nagapa-pile up, interests like arts and music na hindi ko tinuloy i pursue. I've done self help books' techniques, meditation, exercise but I haven't been consistent with anything from it.  Maliliit nga lang na bagay kahit na susi, takip ng toothbrush o ballpen na madaling makalimutan, easily distracted pero kung ma hook up sa laro at porn ay grabe rin. When I get hooked up to an activity, nalilimutan at natitiis ko nga rin ang di kumain. I can focus on things like my phone and even to the point of getting addicted to porn (pmo) pero on stuffs that actually matter, hindi talaga 😭

Pandemic, ito yung naaalala ko na grabeng procrastination ko na idinadaan ko na lang sa iyak. Ang deadlines na yung motivation ko pero di ko pa rin magawa, nale-late pa rin ako palagi. I would spend the night focusing on starting to do things yet I don't finish it all in time. I remember one time na tinapos ko magbasa ng libro sa isang setting sa gabi than finishing an activity na deadline na the morning after. Need ko pa mapagalitan nila mama at papa para gawin ko na at magpasa pero sometimes, di pa rin mapasa on time. Grabeng katamaran at tardiness ko nun na nagspiral out to me being highly emotional coz bakit ba di ko magawa. 

It led to my mother taking me to a psychiatrist and ang mga sinabi ko nun ay ang experience ko with my parents regarding sa pressure sa school when in fact, I was the one pressuring myself to do things na hindi ko talaga magawa. Instead of looking inside myself, I've blamed my parents and told my psychiatrist about it and haven't highlighted kung bakit ganun parents ko sa akin. I was so sensitive rin kasi

Siguro when I was talking to the psychiatrist, I was focusing so much in the pain my parents caused me growing up. It was more on relationships, the pressure to do well, and a f\*cked-up ooverthinking brain causing my anxiety and depression but hindi ko nasabi about my behavior.

I attended therapy rin and had goals on what to do for a month, mga suggestions ng psychiatrist ko about what I can do, my journal, habits to build, routines na I personally suggested but everytime I come back, I still haven't done a thing about it.

Grabe, nasabihan na ako ng ate at mama ko na puro na lang ako plano. I also do things at the last minute especially my chores kasi baka parating na sila. I spent my day overthinking about my life, researching on how to imrove myself but haven't accomplished any.

I was so ashamed of myself and still am. Palagi na lang ganto. I know hindi pa ako diagnosed pero I will check back on my psychiatrist about this. I just felt so seen kaya I felt posting. 

Ganito ba talaga to? Has anyone ever changed and improved themselves for the better? Does it get better at the end? What if hindi pala to ADHD and I'm filtering out my experiences but really, this is what my life actually has been except that I never say this things to anyone and I second guess myself every time. I really don't know what to do, gusto ko lang namang ma change yung life ko.

Sorry for ranting 😭

Hello ! we're in need of a mental health professional, preferably a psychologist or a psychiatrist that can attend onsite to our university ^^ we are based in Metro Manila, we will send the details via PM if anybody is interested.

I have a father who is a minimum wage earner he is a tryc driver, and my mom is an OFW. My parents are separated. Since my mom is an OFW, ako nag aasikaso ng mga bills dito samin. Before maging OFW din mama ko (wala pa syang 1year as OFW) magkahati sa bill parents ko, si mama sa tubig, si papa sa ilaw, pero noong nag OFW na si mama, lahat ng bill naka asa kay mama. Hindi nag reklamo mama ko. Since I'm still a minor pa, wala pa akong masyadong alam sa mga bagay bagay, ang ginagawa ko lang ay binabudget ang sahod ni mama at ibibigay kay papa ang pambayad ng ganito ganyan. Si papa kahit wala pang bill ng ilaw o kuryente, kinukuha nya na agad saakin ang estimate budget for those. Lagi lagi ayaw kong ibigay, pero lagi nya akong pinipilit. Sobrang hot tempered ni papa, lalo na kapag wala talaga syang pera, lagi laging nasisira ang gamit namin dahil sakanya, at iniiwasan ko ng mangyari yon kasi nanghihinayang ako sa mga naipundar ni mama. Hindi biro ang mga ginagawa ni mama para samin. Si papa, sugarol, kaya nya laging kinukuha agad ang budget, ay para ipang sugal nya. Kapag bayaran na, wala na, mang hihingi nanaman saakin kung may natira pa daw. Lagi kong sinasabing wala na kasi wala naman talaga, lagi nya ding sinasabing andamot damot ko. Sinakripisyo ko ng teenage years ko sakanya, lagi syang umuutang saakin tas ilang months bago nya ibigay, hindi kona nagagawa ang ginagawa ng ibang ka edad ko, hindi ako maka gala kasi walang pera lagi, sa school hindi na ako kumakain minsan kasi kulang lagi ang baon ko pang pamasahe nalang. Sobrang pagod na pagod na ako dito. Ako lagi ang sinisisi sa tuwing walang pambayad sa ganito ganyan, kahit na nag bigay naman ako ng pambayad. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na ipinang sugal nya ang pera. Hindi ko ito sinasabi sa mama ko kasi ayoko syang ma stress, pagod na nga sya sa trabaho nya tapos dadagdag pa ito. Sinasarili ko nalang ito lagi, sobrang hirap na hirap na po ako dito. Naiingit ako sa mga pinsan ko, yung papa nila after maging OFW nag hahanap na ng trabaho ulit, si papa naging OFW din dati pero kauwi walang ginawa. Pagod na po ako, hindi ko na po alam ang gagawin ko. Natatakot na din po ako sa kalagayan namin ng kapatid ko, noong nag pasaway po ang kapatid ko, ni threaten po sya ni papa na papatayin daw po sya, takot na takot po ako sakanya, gusto kona pong umalis dito kasi hindi ko po alam ano pang magagawa nyang malala sa pagsisira nya ng gamit dito.

I guess I’ve made it. my career and status are far beyond where I started, and I’m a married man now with family. But despite the success, my habit of overthinking life hasn't left me, since I was 20 years old. There’s this persistent unhappiness inside, a feeling that life is just 'life' nothing more. I feel like we’re all just characters playing out assigned tasks in a repetitive cycle until we die. Nothing excites or impresses me anymore. I look at the world and feel a total void, constantly wondering Is this even real? are we just living in a simulation?

Last week, I started taking antidepressants as advised by my psychiatrist. i feel like the overthinking became worse. i have constant panic attacks, and couldnt sleep at night.

i am afraid it might really affect my work as i am a new hire and this month’s the busy season in accounting. shall i stop if for a while or just bear the side effects?

i couldnt enjoy my weekends as well cus i feel like i should be working rather than taking a break to ease the load next week. however, i am afraid i might get burnt out if i continue working this weekend. but real rest doesn’t happen cus i ended up overthinking instead.

My health anxiety has been bothering me really bad the last month. My stomach has been knotting, sharp pain, burning pain, acid reflux, tension from my back, hamstring, hips, glutes, and pelvis. My stool has been thin, I feel constipated and everything within my lower body has felt tight. I am okay one moment and the next I am not. My farts have been really smelly and I have been passing a ton of gas.

I recently had a blood test and the results came back that I am healthy as I can be. Am I alone within this battle? Is there anyone that relate to the constant battle within one self? The exhaustion, the what if?

Does anyone have advice and can relate to the issues that I am having?

Any luck po in finding these two in Manila? I called MD hotline and was told na yung department handling inquiries on s2 drugs is weekdays lang open.

Thanks in advance. 🤍

Hi, I really need help right now.

I’ve been having strong urges to hurt myself again, I don’t actually want to die I just want the pain and overwhelming feeling to stop. It feels so intense, like I’m being stabbed inside, and my mind keeps replaying the same thoughts over and over.

Its been affecting me for more than a week now. Sometimes it lasts up to a month. I can’t eat properly, I can’t focus, and I can’t even have normal conversations because my mind is stuck on it. It’s affecting my daily life and my relationship.

I just want to shut down and not feel anything anymore.

If anyone has experienced something similar, how do you cope? I really need advice

Ubusan ng stocks. Ang dami ko ng pinuntahan na branches ng Mercury. Can you please recommend baka may alam kayo around Manila, Laguna, Cavite. Thank you in advance! Tried calling their hotline kaso hindi daw sila makapag bigay ng exact branch ng controlled medication.

@emotionally unstable people, how do you bring yourself back when you fall into the rabbit hole of your emotions?

i, 35F, currently been working out for more than a year. At first, it is only motivation-based, and my goal is just to lose weight and look better. Recently, I have numerous failed talking stages for the past 4 months and my cope up is exertion to exhaustion, hence walking 10km per day, gym 3-5x a week, and/or running. I feel anxious and guilty every time i work out, my brain resorts to anxiety and overthinking. 99% percent of my talking stages are failed, I feel frustrated but I didn't act out or overmessage them. If they leave or ghost, I didn't ask anything, I will just process my grief and emotions on my own. I cope with this frustration with workout. After I workout, my anxiety creeps in again to the point it steals my sleeping hours. I have been sleeping like 3-4 hrs a day for the past two weeks.

I have been diagnosed MDD with Anxious Distress last 2022 and eventually cleared. Should I go back to therapy?

I have an issue. I just can’t let people go. I can’t block anyone and obsess over them returning if they stop talking to me. This problem is just with the romantic partners not with anyone else.

So it happened in the past to the people I have dated but recently I went out with someone. After the meeting I was sure it was not going to work out. I kind of mentioned that infront of him aswell and then the next day he came to convince me and I said yes. Somehow I found out something about him in the next 24 hours and I called it off. So we were just in contact for a week. And I didnt even want to be with him but ever since he left I am obsessing over the what if scenarios. I am obsessing over him returning. I dont know what is wrong with me.

I’m living alone and i don’t have anyone. I’m not even diagnosed but i’ve been dealing with mental health problems ever since. I have plans to take the board exam on January ngayon pa lang i’m trying to study pero everytime na mag start na ako ang daming pumapasok sa isip ko na mga worries and problems ang ending umiiyak na ako and di na maka focus. Tapos magkakaanxiety na naman ako na what if di ako makapass ng board exam kasi di ako makafocus. I can’t afford to fail. Wala akong back up plan. And ang hirap mag focus since ang dami ko iniisip. Di ko alam gagawin ko. Minsan iniisip ko na lang mawala. It’s hard to live like this.

Hi. I had my check up at PGH Psychiatry last wednesday. I had my initial screening and was diagnosed and prescribed meds right away by a Junior Intern. I wasn't introduced to any senior doctors and was only given the phone number. I tried reaching out sa doctor na nirefer sakin but no response until now. I'm getting anxious kasi hindi ako nasabihan na kumuha ng blue card, so basically the only paper I have was the diagnosis and medication prescribed. Anyone here who has the same experience? Ano po kaya next step?

all i can do is run away, tambay kung saan saan around the city, and be forced to go back home once midnight strikes or i get raped. i cant even cut myself anymore. too scared cause im used to using box cutters. bought a dorco blade and some bandages a month ago. still have them unused but it comforts me na i got my hands on them just in case. planning to buy a bag of sodium nitrite next. but still, im a coward. too lazy and depressed to actually go on my way to finally do it. lol procrastination. i keep running away from my problems at home. no real fix as long as im still underage kasi i dont have money on me and instead im focred to keep relying on my abusive parents and somehow im required to pay them back. who decided to have kids when theyre financially unstable? im tired. theyre threatening me na bumalik sa mental hospital and spend my summer there. i cant. i dont want my bf seeing me locked up in there going insane