u/themanbytaylorswift

Hi, I really need help right now.

I’ve been having strong urges to hurt myself again, I don’t actually want to die I just want the pain and overwhelming feeling to stop. It feels so intense, like I’m being stabbed inside, and my mind keeps replaying the same thoughts over and over.

Its been affecting me for more than a week now. Sometimes it lasts up to a month. I can’t eat properly, I can’t focus, and I can’t even have normal conversations because my mind is stuck on it. It’s affecting my daily life and my relationship.

I just want to shut down and not feel anything anymore.

If anyone has experienced something similar, how do you cope? I really need advice

hi, does anyone here deal with rsd?

for me it usually starts when I think I did something wrong (kahit hindi naman). even small things or mild criticism can trigger it, especially if I feel like someone thinks i’m not good enough.

when it hits, it hits really hard. I get overwhelmed fast and start feeling suicidal in that moment, like I just want everything to stop. it also feels physical, like there’s a tight grip on my chest ansakit sakit nya sa pakiramdam.

i can’t focus my head feels full and I get stuck in guilt, self loathing, and overthinking. it turns into rumination and can last for weeks or even a month. even after it passes, it still hurts when I remember it. and mag eend up with lashing out or blaming people for not understanding me, even if I never said anything sobrang bilis ko mairita and di ako nakakausap ng maayos for weeks or even a month.

just wanted to ask how do you deal with this? what actually helps you calm down or stop the spiral?