im a coward.
all i can do is run away, tambay kung saan saan around the city, and be forced to go back home once midnight strikes or i get raped. i cant even cut myself anymore. too scared cause im used to using box cutters. bought a dorco blade and some bandages a month ago. still have them unused but it comforts me na i got my hands on them just in case. planning to buy a bag of sodium nitrite next. but still, im a coward. too lazy and depressed to actually go on my way to finally do it. lol procrastination. i keep running away from my problems at home. no real fix as long as im still underage kasi i dont have money on me and instead im focred to keep relying on my abusive parents and somehow im required to pay them back. who decided to have kids when theyre financially unstable? im tired. theyre threatening me na bumalik sa mental hospital and spend my summer there. i cant. i dont want my bf seeing me locked up in there going insane