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i really like this guy and i wanna tell him everything but he acts like he hates me now. he’s made it clear he doesn’t wanna and will not be talking to me again.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked him. we were in his car, he was driving me home, and he was having the time of his life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. he kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when he wasn’t looking at me, i was looking at him. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing his face and appreciating how beautiful he was inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, i told him about my childhood bestfriend who went missing. that was our song too. he didn’t know this. me and her would play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time i spent with this guy actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but he made me realise that there are actually good people. he doesn’t think he’s a good person but i know one when i see one, and he’s better than most, i mean that.

i know he’s struggling, i can see it and i felt it. i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

he said he left cos he “got overwhelmed and isn’t good with his emotions”. then told himself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” well you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

this whole thing is just miscommunication. i was scared too. he asked me if we’re gonna talk in public and it took me aback because men usually keep me a secret and i responded basically saying no. so stupid. i regretted it right after because i realised he was actually saying, “i want to talk to you at uni aswell, not just outside of uni”. then the next day in lab class he saw me talking to guy who was literally honestly just a friend. so i can see how it looked.

why i said no? honestly because he’s so different to me physically and socially and people would not expect us to be together. i date outside of my race usually, not that that matters but i’ve been in situations like that and let’s just say, i’m traumatized lol. people can be really mean but he’s not a minority so he wouldn’t understand that.

damn. now i’m gonna see him today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

i really like this guy and i wanna tell him everything but he acts like he hates me now. he’s made it clear he doesn’t wanna and will not be talking to me again.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked him. we were in his car, he was driving me home, and he was having the time of his life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. he kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when he wasn’t looking at me, i was looking at him. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing his face and appreciating how beautiful he was inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, i told him about my childhood bestfriend who went missing. that was our song too. he didn’t know this. me and her would play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time i spent with this guy actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but he made me realise that there are actually good people. he doesn’t think he’s a good person but i know one when i see one, and he’s better than most, i mean that.

i know he’s struggling, i can see it and i felt it. i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

he said he left cos he “got overwhelmed and isn’t good with his emotions”. then told himself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” well you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

this whole thing is just miscommunication. i was scared too. he asked me if we’re gonna talk in public and it took me aback because men usually keep me a secret and i responded basically saying no. so stupid. i regretted it right after because i realised he was actually saying, “i want to talk to you at uni aswell, not just outside of uni”. then the next day in lab class he saw me talking to guy who was literally honestly just a friend. so i can see how it looked.

why i said no? honestly because he’s so different to me physically and socially and people would not expect us to be together. i date outside of my race usually, not that that matters but i’ve been in situations like that and let’s just say, i’m traumatized lol. people can be really mean but he’s not a minority so he wouldn’t understand that.

damn. now i’m gonna see him today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

i really like this guy and i wanna tell him everything but he acts like he hates me now. he’s made it clear he doesn’t wanna and will not be talking to me again.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked him. we were in his car, he was driving me home, and he was having the time of his life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. he kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when he wasn’t looking at me, i was looking at him. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing his face and appreciating how beautiful he was inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, i told him about my childhood bestfriend who went missing. that was our song too. he didn’t know this. me and her would play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time i spent with this guy actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but he made me realise that there are actually good people. he doesn’t think he’s a good person but i know one when i see one, and he’s better than most, i mean that.

i know he’s struggling, i can see it and i felt it. i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

he said he left cos he “got overwhelmed and isn’t good with his emotions”. then told himself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” well you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

this whole thing is just miscommunication. i was scared too. he asked me if we’re gonna talk in public and it took me aback because men usually keep me a secret and i responded basically saying no. so stupid. i regretted it right after because i realised he was actually saying, “i want to talk to you at uni aswell, not just outside of uni”. then the next day in lab class he saw me talking to guy who was literally honestly just a friend. so i can see how it looked.

why i said no? honestly because he’s so different to me physically and socially and people would not expect us to be together. i date outside of my race usually, not that that matters but i’ve been in situations like that and let’s just say, i’m traumatized lol. people can be really mean but he’s not a minority so he wouldn’t understand that.

damn. now i’m gonna see him today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

i really like this guy and i wanna tell him everything but he acts like he hates me now. he’s made it clear he doesn’t wanna and will not be talking to me again.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked him. we were in his car, he was driving me home, and he was having the time of his life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. he kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when he wasn’t looking at me, i was looking at him. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing his face and appreciating how beautiful he was inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, i told him about my childhood bestfriend who went missing. that was our song too. he didn’t know this. me and her would play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time i spent with this guy actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but he made me realise that there are actually good people. he doesn’t think he’s a good person but i know one when i see one, and he’s better than most, i mean that.

i know he’s struggling, i can see it and i felt it. i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

he said he left cos he “got overwhelmed and isn’t good with his emotions”. then told himself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” well you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

this whole thing is just miscommunication. i was scared too. he asked me if we’re gonna talk in public and it took me aback because men usually keep me a secret and i responded basically saying no. so stupid. i regretted it right after because i realised he was actually saying, “i want to talk to you at uni aswell, not just outside of uni”. then the next day in lab class he saw me talking to guy who was literally honestly just a friend. so i can see how it looked.

why i said no? honestly because he’s so different to me physically and socially and people would not expect us to be together. i date outside of my race usually, not that that matters but i’ve been in situations like that and let’s just say, i’m traumatized lol. people can be really mean but he’s not a minority so he wouldn’t understand that.

damn. now i’m gonna see him today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

i really like this guy and i wanna tell him everything but he acts like he hates me now. he’s made it clear he doesn’t wanna and will not be talking to me again.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked him. we were in his car, he was driving me home, and he was having the time of his life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. he kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when he wasn’t looking at me, i was looking at him. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing his face and appreciating how beautiful he was inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, i told him about my childhood bestfriend who went missing. that was our song too. he didn’t know this. me and her would play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time i spent with this guy actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but he made me realise that there are actually good people. he doesn’t think he’s a good person but i know one when i see one, and he’s better than most, i mean that.

i know he’s struggling, i can see it and i felt it. i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

he said he left cos he “got overwhelmed and isn’t good with his emotions”. then told himself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” well you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

this whole thing is just miscommunication. i was scared too. he asked me if we’re gonna talk in public and it took me aback because men usually keep me a secret and i responded basically saying no. so stupid. i regretted it right after because i realised he was actually saying, “i want to talk to you at uni aswell, not just outside of uni”. then the next day in lab class he saw me talking to guy who was literally honestly just a friend. so i can see how it looked.

why i said no? honestly because he’s so different to me physically and socially and people would not expect us to be together. i date outside of my race usually, not that that matters but i’ve been in situations like that and let’s just say, i’m traumatized lol. people can be really mean but he’s not a minority so he wouldn’t understand that.

damn. now i’m gonna see him today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked you. we were in your car, you were driving me home, and you were having the time of your life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. you kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when weren’t looking at me, i was looking at you. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing your face and appreciating how beautiful you looked. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, remember when i told you about my childhood bestfriend who went missing? that was our song too. we’d play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time we spent together actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but you made me realise that there are actually good people. i know you don’t think you’re a good person but i know one when i see one, and you’re better than most, i mean that.

i know you’re struggling, i can see it and i felt it. do you think it would’ve made you less loveable? really, what’s not to like about you? i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

you left because you “got overwhelmed and aren’t good with your emotions”. then told yourself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

but i need to admit something.

when you asked me if we can talk in public, i shut down and acted like it was a crazy thing to ask me but it wasn’t, all i want is for someone to be okay being seen with me. i was scared of what your friends would say, what the girls you talk to would say, which should’ve never mattered because i don’t even know them. but you’re right, we ARE so different and i was scared people would judge YOU for that, especially because of our difference. you’re popular, top of the class, everyone knows you. and im just…there.

and admittedly, because i usually date outside of my race, it’s happened to me before but to realise that that never mattered to you, that i wasn’t a secret, it shocked me. so yeah, after you asked, i responded like a bitch and i rushed out of your car and instantly regretted saying that. i could see that it hurt you, i’m sorry.

then the next day you saw me talking to someone else who was simply just a friend but i can see how it looked. and i saw how it made you feel.

damn. now i’m gonna see you today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

just take care of yourself, you’re not the monster you think you are.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked you. we were in your car, you were driving me home, and you were having the time of your life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. you kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when weren’t looking at me, i was looking at you. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing your face and appreciating how beautiful you looked. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, remember when i told you about my childhood bestfriend who went missing? that was our song too. we’d play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time we spent together actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but you made me realise that there are actually good people. i know you don’t think you’re a good person but i know one when i see one, and you’re better than most, i mean that.

i know you’re struggling, i can see it and i felt it. do you think it would’ve made you less loveable? really, what’s not to like about you? i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

you left because you “got overwhelmed and aren’t good with your emotions”. then told yourself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

but i need to admit something.

when you asked me if we can talk in public, i shut down and acted like it was a crazy thing to ask me but it wasn’t, all i want is for someone to be okay being seen with me. i was scared of what your friends would say, what the girls you talk to would say, which should’ve never mattered because i don’t even know them. but you’re right, we ARE so different and i was scared people would judge YOU for that, especially because of our difference. you’re popular, top of the class, everyone knows you. and im just…there.

and admittedly, because i usually date outside of my race, it’s happened to me before but to realise that that never mattered to you, that i wasn’t a secret, it shocked me. so yeah, after you asked, i responded like a bitch and i rushed out of your car and instantly regretted saying that. i could see that it hurt you, i’m sorry.

then the next day you saw me talking to someone else who was simply just a friend but i can see how it looked. and i saw how it made you feel.

damn. now i’m gonna see you today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

just take care of yourself, you’re not the monster you think you are.

i remember the exact moment i realised i really liked you. we were in your car, you were driving me home, and you were having the time of your life singing along to a song that i wish i could remember for the life of me. you kept looking over and singing it to me. but even when weren’t looking at me, i was looking at you. but it wasn’t just any look, i got lost. i started analyzing your face and appreciating how beautiful you looked. everything about you, inside and out. it took me a while to even snap back into reality and realise what i was doing. i remember now, the song was Perfect by Ed Sheeran.

it’s funny, remember when i told you about my childhood bestfriend who went missing? that was our song too. we’d play it out loud and sing along too, walking 2 miles through the local woods when we were just 14 years old, just kids.

the time we spent together actually meant a lot to me. i know it wasn’t long at all but you made me realise that there are actually good people. i know you don’t think you’re a good person but i know one when i see one, and you’re better than most, i mean that.

i know you’re struggling, i can see it and i felt it. do you think it would’ve made you less loveable? really, what’s not to like about you? i would’ve been there, i would still be there, im quite literally still here.

you left because you “got overwhelmed and aren’t good with your emotions”. then told yourself and me, “the only thing we have in common is being on the same course.” you don’t know that because you never even asked me questions about myself and you hated answering questions about yourself because you “were brought up not to talk about your emotions”!!!

but i need to admit something.

when you asked me if we can talk in public, i shut down and acted like it was a crazy thing to ask me but it wasn’t, all i want is for someone to be okay being seen with me. i was scared of what your friends would say, what the girls you talk to would say, which should’ve never mattered because i don’t even know them. but you’re right, we ARE so different and i was scared people would judge YOU for that, especially because of our difference. you’re popular, top of the class, everyone knows you. and im just…there.

and admittedly, because i usually date outside of my race, it’s happened to me before but to realise that that never mattered to you, that i wasn’t a secret, it shocked me. so yeah, after you asked, i responded like a bitch and i rushed out of your car and instantly regretted saying that. i could see that it hurt you, i’m sorry.

then the next day you saw me talking to someone else who was simply just a friend but i can see how it looked. and i saw how it made you feel.

damn. now i’m gonna see you today for our end of year exam…and we won’t even look at each other.

just take care of yourself, you’re not the monster you think you are.

okay so this might be tmi and the wrong sub to post on but whatever.

i met this guy at uni and he’s just a regular quiet smart rugby boy. nothing special about him. i had my eye on him all year and we’d make eye contact a lot. until this last month i finally built the courage to message him about an assignment and long story short, i ended up going over to his house within 2 days of talking and we had s3x. we did it a few times over the WEEK we spent together. yes, a week.

what happened was we had different political views and morals and he felt like i was judging him when i was only trying to educate him and it made him insecure. but he was literally laughing at those white house racist memes & anonymous university confession posts that make fun of random students and gossip about stupid & mean stuff like people carelessly giving people STDs. he said it’s not that deep and i went very woke talking about how deep it actually is and that i do not find it funny.

then he said that he has to think about things and i said okay. i really like him still, because i see him as more than that. i got drunk that night and spam messaged him a bunch of shit saying how i hope he doesn’t ghost me and i really really like him and how i know it’s early but i LOVE him😬.

he replied in the morning, quite harshly, saying “you’ve known me for 7 days chill” and how i don’t love him and how i can’t get to know him more because im “doing shit like this. sending him 20+ messages in the middle of the night”

i said “yeah you’re right, my bad”

then he messaged me at night saying: “i don’t think im gonna continue with this icl, no hard feelings, just not right for me”

i said “okay, i understand, thanks for letting me know”

now this is where it gets weird.

he’s now avoiding me at uni completely, zero eye contact, like i don’t exist.

now, the LAST day of uni he calls me asking how i am. then he says that he thinks he has an STD so i should probably get checked.

i was in complete shock. it doesn’t make any sense. i haven’t slept with anybody since September, when i was in a relationship and i’ve been tested after the relationship. (i don’t have any symptoms right now either).

he tries to pin it on me and say that im “probably asymptomatic”

then i told him that he has to be joking and that i hate him for this and he says sooo casually “yeahhh you can hate me, it’s only a 3 day course of antibiotics”

now im thinking, how the fuck do you know that and why are you so casual about it.

he tells me that he’s gonna update me in a few days and i said okay. i don’t even wanna talk to him.

i cried so much because ive never even had an STD and i feel so violated. i’m still waiting on that call & im getting tested in a few days.

but THE MAIN POINT: i think this was done on purpose. those posts he was laughing at became my exact situation. those posts are all about rugby guys giving girls the clap. coincidence? i don’t know man. because he waited till the evening of the last day of the semester to tell me. would never think it would be me this would happen to :( exams r next week and he’s just piled this on me which is so unfair. i am focusing on them but it’s hard knowing i might have the chance of getting ill and not performing my best. fucking sucks.

i actually do not sleep around, like i said, only with my partner at the time. so i only did it because he was my dream guy for MONTHS and yeah, ofc it was too good to be true.

okay so this might be tmi and the wrong sub to post on but whatever.

i met this guy at uni and he’s just a regular quiet smart rugby boy. nothing special about him. i had my eye on him all year and we’d make eye contact a lot.

until this last month i finally built the courage to message him about an assignment and long story short, i ended up going over to his house within 2 days of talking and we had s3x. we did it a few times over the WEEK we spent together. yes, a week.

what happened was we had different political views and morals and he felt like i was judging him when i was only trying to educate him and it made him insecure. but he was literally laughing at those white house racist memes & anonymous university confession posts that make fun of random students and gossip about stupid & mean stuff like people carelessly giving people STDs. he said it’s not that deep and i went very woke talking about how deep it actually is and that i do not find it funny.

then he said that he has to think about things and i said okay. i really like him still, because i see him as more than that.

i was upset & i was on a night out, got drunk and spam messaged him a bunch of shit saying how i hope he doesn’t ghost me, and i really really like him and how i know it’s early but i LOVE him😬.

he replied in the morning, quite harshly, saying “you’ve known me for 7 days chill” and how i don’t love him and how i can’t get to know him more because im “doing shit like this. sending him 20+ messages in the middle of the night”

i said “yeah you’re right, my bad”

then he messaged me at night saying: “i don’t think im gonna continue with this icl, no hard feelings, just not right for me”

i said “okay, i understand, thanks for letting me know”

now this is where it gets weird.

he’s now avoiding me at uni completely, zero eye contact, like i don’t exist.

now, the LAST day of uni he calls me asking how i am. then he says that he thinks he has an STD so i should probably get checked.

i was in complete shock. it doesn’t make any sense. i haven’t slept with anybody since September, when i was in a relationship and i’ve been tested after the relationship. (i don’t have any symptoms right now either).

he tries to pin it on me and say that im “probably asymptomatic”

then i told him that he has to be joking and that i hate him for this and he says sooo casually “yeahhh you can hate me, it’s only a 3 day course of antibiotics”

now im thinking, how the fuck do you know that and why are you so casual about it.

he tells me that he’s gonna update me in a few days and i said okay. i don’t even wanna talk to him.

i cried so much because ive never even had an STD and i feel so violated. i’m still waiting on that call & im getting tested in a few days.

but THE MAIN POINT: i think this was done on purpose. those posts he was laughing at became my exact situation. those posts are all about rugby guys giving girls the clap. coincidence? i don’t know man. would never think it would be me this would happen to.

okay so this might be tmi and the wrong sub to post on but whatever.

i met this guy at uni and he’s just a regular quiet smart rugby boy. nothing special about him. i had my eye on him all year and we’d make eye contact a lot. until this last month i finally built the courage to message him about an assignment and long story short, i ended up going over to his house within 2 days of talking and we had s3x. we did it a few times over the WEEK we spent together. yes, a week.

what happened was we had different political views and morals and he felt like i was judging him when i was only trying to educate him and it made him insecure. but he was literally laughing at those white house racist memes & anonymous university confession posts that make fun of random students and gossip about stupid & mean stuff like people carelessly giving people STDs. he said it’s not that deep and i went very woke talking about how deep it actually is and that i do not find it funny.

then he said that he has to think about things and i said okay. i really like him still, because i see him as more than that. i got drunk that night and spam messaged him a bunch of shit saying how i hope he doesn’t ghost me and i really really like him and how i know it’s early but i LOVE him😬.

he replied in the morning, quite harshly, saying “you’ve known me for 7 days chill” and how i don’t love him and how i can’t get to know him more because im “doing shit like this. sending him 20+ messages in the middle of the night”

i said “yeah you’re right, my bad”

then he messaged me at night saying: “i don’t think im gonna continue with this icl, no hard feelings, just not right for me”

i said “okay, i understand, thanks for letting me know”

now this is where it gets weird.

he’s now avoiding me at uni completely, zero eye contact, like i don’t exist.

now, the LAST day of uni he calls me asking how i am. then he says that he thinks he has an STD so i should probably get checked.

i was in complete shock. it doesn’t make any sense. i haven’t slept with anybody since September, when i was in a relationship and i’ve been tested after the relationship. (i don’t have any symptoms right now either).

he tries to pin it on me and say that im “probably asymptomatic”

then i told him that he has to be joking and that i hate him for this and he says sooo casually “yeahhh you can hate me, it’s only a 3 day course of antibiotics”

now im thinking, how the fuck do you know that and why are you so casual about it.

he tells me that he’s gonna update me in a few days and i said okay. i don’t even wanna talk to him.

i cried so much because ive never even had an STD and i feel so violated. i’m still waiting on that call & im getting tested in a few days.

but THE MAIN POINT: i think this was done on purpose. those posts he was laughing at became my exact situation. those posts are all about rugby guys giving girls the clap. coincidence? i don’t know man. because he waited till the evening of the last day of the semester to tell me. would never think it would be me this would happen to.