u/kozanostraaaa

I’m struggling and I don’t know where to turn. People often tell me I’m handsome and intelligent, but inside, I’m filled with self-doubt. I’ve always dreamed of being "big" at something, but my lack of discipline and constant procrastination are ruining me. I feel like I’m always choosing the wrong path and sabotaging my own potential before I even start.
Here is my situation:
• The "Jack of all trades, master of none" trap: I get overwhelmed picking a niche. I’ll think of 100 different ideas, get burnt out, and then do nothing. When I do pick something up—like the bass guitar—I focus on learning the hardest songs just to impress others, rather than enjoying the process. Once I realize how much work it takes to be an expert, I get depressed and lose interest.
• Social Anxiety & Past Trauma: I’m socially anxious and struggle with being "unpleasant" in my own head. People used to be mean to me and treat me like a joke, which makes me afraid that others are just using me for mockery. I’m constantly overthinking what people from my own country would think if they found me online.
• The "Accidental" Funny Guy: People say I’m strange but funny—I make them laugh without even trying. But I have no idea how to "sell" myself or what kind of content to record because I’m so disorganized (likely ADHD).
• Comparison is killing me: I see people my age becoming famous YouTubers or experts in Cyber Security, and it makes me feel like I’m falling behind.
I have hundreds of ideas, but I procrastinate because I’m afraid of failing or picking the "wrong" one. I sabotage myself before I even begin.
Am I a bad person for having these dreams but being unable to act on them? How do I stop overthinking and just start without getting burnt out or bored after a week? I feel like a tool for mockery and I just want to find my way.

Everyone has digferent thought abt me like Im high egoist but inside From nonchalant dude im soc anxious deoressed for validation lack of skills,Thinking Of im not somebody yo will stay nobody

I need advice on how to handle my brother. He’s essentially a selfish, mean "grown baby" who always gets his way by controlling the mood of the entire house.
The pattern is always the same: if things don't go his way, or if someone calls him out on his behavior, he gets incredibly loud and aggressive. He is a master at twisting your words and turning the argument around until you are somehow the bad guy. He acts like he’s untouchable, but the second he's held accountable, he throws a tantrum or plays the victim.
I’m tired of him slipping through every situation without consequences while everyone else has to walk on eggshells around him. How do you deal with someone who refuses to grow up and uses emotional volatility to control you?

I need advice on how to handle my brother. He’s essentially a selfish, mean "grown baby" who always gets his way by controlling the mood of the entire house.
The pattern is always the same: if things don't go his way, or if someone calls him out on his behavior, he gets incredibly loud and aggressive. He is a master at twisting your words and turning the argument around until you are somehow the bad guy. He acts like he’s untouchable, but the second he's held accountable, he throws a tantrum or plays the victim.
I’m tired of him slipping through every situation without consequences while everyone else has to walk on eggshells around him. How do you deal with someone who refuses to grow up and uses emotional volatility to control you?

I need advice on how to handle my brother. He’s essentially a selfish, mean "grown baby" who always gets his way by controlling the mood of the entire house.
The pattern is always the same: if things don't go his way, or if someone calls him out on his behavior, he gets incredibly loud and aggressive. He is a master at twisting your words and turning the argument around until you are somehow the bad guy. He acts like he’s untouchable, but the second he's held accountable, he throws a tantrum or plays the victim.
I’m tired of him slipping through every situation without consequences while everyone else has to walk on eggshells around him. How do you deal with someone who refuses to grow up and uses emotional volatility to control you?

I need advice on how to handle my brother. He’s essentially a selfish, mean "grown baby" who always gets his way by controlling the mood of the entire house.
The pattern is always the same: if things don't go his way, or if someone calls him out on his behavior, he gets incredibly loud and aggressive. He is a master at twisting your words and turning the argument around until you are somehow the bad guy. He acts like he’s untouchable, but the second he's held accountable, he throws a tantrum or plays the victim.
I’m tired of him slipping through every situation without consequences while everyone else has to walk on eggshells around him. How do you deal with someone who refuses to grow up and uses emotional volatility to control you?

I’ve reached a breaking point. I’ve always struggled with standing up for myself. When people disrespect me or attack me in the street, my brain just goes blank. I want to have those quick comebacks, but instead, I just freeze. My body starts shaking, I can’t breathe properly, and my stomach ties itself in knots. I feel like younger generations and people in general can "read" me—they see my suppressed emotions and use them to push my buttons with nicknames and teasing just to watch me react.
It’s even worse at home. My brother is a textbook narcissist. He crosses every boundary, throws tantrums, and treats me like a housemaid, yet the second I raise my voice or defend myself, I’m the "rude" one. He charms everyone instantly, while I’m labeled as "weird" or "odd" despite trying my best to be nice and empathetic.
I’m also dealing with a massive burnout. I’ve jumped between so many skills and side hustles that I don’t even know what I’m good at anymore. My ADHD makes simple tasks feel like a giant block in my head, leading to panic. I’m stuck in a small apartment, struggling to gain weight at the gym because of high stress, and failing at job interviews because my anxiety makes me look incompetent even in things I actually know how to do.
I feel like a "screw-up" while everyone else my age is moving forward. I’m tired of being the "nice guy" who gets walked over by bullies, family, and even in the dating world. How do I break out of this "freeze" mode and stop letting people’s disrespect ruin my physical and mental health?

I need to vent because I feel like I'm drowning in a town full of "crab mentality" and a family that treats me like a slave. I’m a 6'2", skinny guy with severe social anxiety. I have a natural resting face that makes me look "psycho" or "angry" to others, even when I'm just sad or anxious, which only makes things worse.
At home, my older brother is a spoiled "grown baby" who controls my parents with fake charisma and guilt-tripping. He never does anything for anyone, yet he is respected. I’m the one doing the chores and the dirty work, yet I’m labeled as "lazy." He constantly tests my boundaries—he even kicked me in the balls once, and when I finally snapped and slapped him, I was the one labeled as the problem. My parents treat me like a maid; they demand my help instantly, but then talk trash about how I’m "not good enough." My mom can throw tantrums and destroy objects, but if I react, I’m the one causing problems.
It’s the same at work and in public. I’m a polite, quiet guy, yet my boss once threatened to slap me. An intern—a rich kid with daddy issues—tried to get under my skin and threw a tantrum because I wouldn't buy him cigarettes, even claiming "no wonder the boss wanted to slap you."
I feel like a magnet for nasty people. Because of my anxiety, I freeze up or my stomach gets nervous during confrontations. My comebacks are weak, and I take everything personally because the stress is overwhelming. I was controlled by my parents for so long that I never developed real-world social skills or independence. Now, I’m stuck in this town with no job prospects because my anxiety and ADHD-like symptoms make it hard to focus or make decisions without panicking.
I’m tired of being everyone’s emotional trash bin. I’m tired of fake friends who only call me to brag or act superior. I feel defeated, clumsy, and completely alone. Has anyone else been the scapegoat for their entire community? How do you stop the panic and start building a life when everyone around you is actively trying to keep you down?

I don’t think I’m dumb, but I often feel foolish because I’m constantly living in my own head, struggling with imposter syndrome. I’m surrounded by sneaky, devilish people who know exactly how to get under my skin and control the mood of everyone around them. They are like information vacuums—they want to know every detail about your life, but they share nothing about themselves.
You can’t outsmart them because they are always two steps ahead, playing mind games while I’m just trying to breathe through my anxiety. My anxiety has turned me into an emotionally dull version of myself, making me look like a 'dumbass' who constantly gets into trouble. Meanwhile, they slip away from every problem, they are never held accountable, and they always have a perfect argument to justify their toxic behavior. They never get caught, while I’m the one left holding the burden.There was One Guy was in intern he acts sneakly like osmone will make him dirty constantly following anyone reading like sombody would betray him hahha but yet he knows how to say when and what he never takes no gor answer mor taking respoibility for everyone while im punvhimgbag of everything one i say no he trowed tamtrum like its my fault
He never takes responsibility for anything. Even when we played card games, he would cheat just to beat me, smirking the whole time while blowing cigarette smoke in my face just to piss me off. He is constantly trying to pry into my life and testing my boundaries. Eventually, I got so sick of his BS that I snapped and told him to cut the crap. He immediately used that to make me look like the bad guy, acting hurt and saying, "Why would you say that? Aren't we supposed to be friends?"
It was the same with my new boss. She was so full of herself and saw me as a weak target because I’m a quiet listener. She actually wanted to slap me just to prove she was right. But after I reported her, she flipped the script and played the victim, crying and trying to make me feel remorse for her getting in trouble.
Then there was this guy—a rich kid with daddy issues—who accused me of being the problem just because I refused to go buy his cigarettes. He told me, "No wonder the boss wanted to slap you." My boss constantly tried to act tough, making a huge deal out of nothing, like claiming I didn't give her info that I had actually told her just a minute prior.
I know he will never admit he’s wrong about anything. He always has to act dominant and stay steps ahead of me by gatekeeping information while trying to control everything I do.He always thinks hes oppinion is better even I said i have headache for ac he says its not for that like how he knows

I just need to vent because I feel like I'm going crazy. I’m a 6'2", skinny guy with a naturally serious, almost sad resting face. Because I’m shy and struggle with severe social anxiety, people seem to sense that I’m an easy target. It feels like everyone disrespects me. Younger guys try to provoke me with childish nicknames, and girls often ignore me or just use me for an ego boost.
What hurts the most is my family, especially my narcissistic older brother and my mother. The hypocrisy in my house is mind-blowing. They only acknowledge my existence when they need something. They call me instantly, expecting me to drop everything to help, but the moment I do, they start talking trash about me. They tell me I'm "useless" even though they were the ones begging for help two minutes ago. If I don't help, I'm the villain; if I do, I'm still useless in their eyes.
Whenever I finally blow up because I can't take the disrespect anymore, suddenly I am the problem. My brother acts like the victim and a "grown baby," and my mom gaslights me, telling me I’m just "imagining things" and that my problems aren't real. Being treated like an emotional trash bin has made me feel completely numb.
I also struggle with what I suspect is ADHD and high anxiety. It makes it nearly impossible to take a "normal" job. I feel like I have a short memory, I'm bad at quick math, and the adrenaline from constant anxiety makes it so I can't think straight. Even though people tell me I'm smart and handsome, I feel paralyzed. I’m clumsy, I procrastinate, and I have a history of quitting everything because I don't know what I'm good at.
When nasty people target me, my anxiety skyrockets and I just freeze. My comebacks suck, and when I try to defend myself, I just end up looking impulsive or "bad" while they shut me down. It kills me to watch my friends and even my childhood bullies succeed, get jobs, and drive nice cars while I’m stuck in this toxic environment, unable to afford to move out.
I mind my own business and try to respect everyone, but I feel completely lost, defeated, and used. Has anyone else been through this? How do you stop being a target when your own family is the one leading the attack?