4 year on and off text dynamic
Me (21M) and this girl (20) have had an on-and-off thing since high school. Back then she actually pursued me first — sexting, trying to get me alone, offered to drive me home — and I was too scared to do anything. Recently when I brought it up she said “maybe” we would’ve dated and “but you were scared of me.”
Over the years there’s been a lot of sexual tension over text. She’s said sexual things, got jealous over another girl, called me and stayed on the phone 35 minutes, called me “daddy” then deleted it, said we’re like “Kim and Kanye.” The problem is it’s always been text/phone and never in person.
A few weeks ago she said she might come home soon and when I suggested hanging out she was enthusiastic about it. Then I ruined it — I got drunk and kept calling her while she was on spring break to the point where her friend’s boyfriend answered. She eventually said “leave me alone.” I didn’t push after that but sent one emotional text which she read and ignored. It’s been a week of silence. She didn’t block me and has blocked me before.
I’m transferring to her university in August and moving into the same apartment complex as her.
Is this recoverable? Do I reach out or wait?