u/Icy_Cartographer_712

Hes been wanting me to forever. He said hes shoved things up his butt since puberty and its a huge part of his sex life

Hes told me this many times before but I gave him a repeated no

I decided to just do it after he ordered a cheap strap on. It was basically a im gonna lay here and let him do what he has to do..

I started from behind watching tv and not even into it

He pulled it out and wanted ride it like missionary

I smelt something off but nothing major.. I was just trying not to laugh cause he was talking like a woman and saying I was his pimp

He finished but as he got off the strap on, shit was everywhere

It was covered in layers and layers over the whole dildo

It got on me, on him and I gagged

We cleaned up and he said he enjoyed so much he wants to do it again, but this time he will douche himself

I already told him that was a one time thing. Hes saying oh come on ill just ride it and look at your body

How can I break it to him that its not gonna happen? I already threw the dildo out yet hes ordering another one already

My grandfather until he died was so hateful you felt despair and drained being around him. I'm not even joking, every person that visited him, even ones who don't know him, said they felt exhausted and depressed walking out. we'd all get headaches and nausea almost all the time we left.

He beat my grandmother. This was after he lost his son/my uncle. She died from committing suicide.

Right after this, he started being completely evil.

He got involved with drugs and openly bragged of abusing prostitutes. He said he would shoot someone for fun

Before he died he looked at my mom. He said "whats been hurting me is coming to you now" then said she would rot from dementia and that he could see her​ face in the casket already

Fast forwarding

Since then, our family has been destroyed. Before my grandfathers dying words, we were all healthy, happy and in contact.

Ive lost my brother to addiction, my mom has actually developed dementia, and my dad has turned cold hearted through the years

Everything literally began to collapse after he died

I am wondering if this could be something demonic that was in him that released itself into our lives after he died?

The lie went on just for a month lol. I was strapped on cash and was looking for social media ways to get money. I thought of onlyfans but then thought nah I dont wanna get nude and have my pics spread around porn sites for dipshit perverts

I started immersing myself in the wicca and witch community in Facebook

I made a fake profile calling myself an enchantress reincarnated as a witch since the Salem witch trials

Obviously not everybody believed it, the real witches called me out. But u know what they say, theres a sucker born every minute lol

I came up with a fake name, bought tarot cards and a ouija board (I was gonna act like I could tell them about ghosts too, but then I remembered how everybody's scared of them)

I gave my first reading for a cheap amount to test the project

all i did was make up meanings for the cards, they bought it. I went on to more. I ended up making TONS by the end of the week

So I deleted the profile cause all the other witches were exposing me left and right and saying I was fake

One said she put me in a jar and cursed me

Another took a picture of a symbol and said you looked at it idiot now youre cursed

Basically I pissed off a bunch of witches, lied and then disappeared after​

Does it help to just focus on your physical body and view thoughts/feelings as just things happening in your skull?

I was watching old documentaries on rentboys. It made me wonder if its still a thing, now that grindr and other apps make it easy to get sex.

Like, I see fangirls of notorious killers. The columbine ones are the creepiest because they're fawned on by grown women. Otherwise these killers are just unattractive losers.

Gypsy rose is another example. Shes conventionally unattractive yet just because she killed her mom, shes got a huge fanbase with supporters.

I got a overweight guy on adam4adam. I politely told him i wasn't interested. He went on to say but I could change your mind if you try with a winking emote

I again told him I wasn't interested

He went off on me, said i should lick his toilet and that he knew "all the names" in town that he would warn people that IM crazy

I lost my temper and called him an overconfident fat bitch and that he needed to shove food in his mouth more than continue to talk

He responded with "wow k then". Then blocked

It was clear what I said got to him, cause he was originally typing in caps and with tons of spiteful emotes

I feel bad now. I know weight is one line you shouldn't cross/a low blow but he just pissed me off

In any other position especially lying down, its near impossible. I keep jerking and jerking and end up exhausted and covered in sweat after I finally do manage to cum

Does anyone have the same problem??

Im male btw

Many prominent scientists are saying its possible and could happen in our life time

If this were to actually happen, how would it effect your beliefs on god and the afterlife?

I've been (repeatedly) dx with schizophrenia by multiple doctors since 2016

They said I no longer have it because I am self aware that I am hearing voices

The symptoms have stayed the same. Still get daily psychosis. Still on antipsychotics

I am scared bc my disability benefits actually come from my schizophrenia dx. If they removed it, I am certain I will lose my benefits.

I feel this is bs. Consistent psychosis, not in episodes, can't be any other diagnosis. Usually non-schizo psychosis is episodic or related to something else

Should I seek another doctor? I also felt extremely dehumanized by being told that since I am self aware my condition is "mild"

These doctors clearly don't live in my body and experience what I do. Being self aware doesn't do anything to make anything better. If anything it makes it worse

I feel everyone hates me. I am suffocated with feelings of being ignored

My symptom is needing to be unwell to feel validated amd not alone. I walked around, I hit myself in front of my therapist. They didn't help

I had a plan last night, to you know what. I was serious. But I didn't do it. Now I am feeling worse than ever

My psychosis is horrible. I can't think straight. Its making my abandonment fears become paranoia, too.

I have a crisis daily​. The mental health ppl said I need to stop coming back again and again but its the only way i don't feel alone

Has anyone else wanted to purposely look ill or exaggerate your bpd issues to not feel alone and listened to? Am I a pos? I never considered myself manipulative but I feel like I am.

I wake up, I have to get shower over with ASAP. I want badly to start showering at night, but im anxious all day if I try

Its hell every morning. I rush, I can't relax, I can't be okay with showering later

Im not sure if its "waiting mode", where im scared i will forget to shower or possible ocd in addition to anxiety

how can i break this cycle? What are some things i can tell myself to calm me down over this ​​

Okay so this is definitely one of those "wtf did I just watch" atrocities

It was sooo bad but damn it had me cracking up so many times especially the end.

I have no idea what to even call this movie... so I just gave it a thriller flair

I don't usually point out hygeine.. actually this is likely the first time I have blatantly told someone they stunk

I was riding with them in the backseat I was right behind him, he was in the passenger

I instantly couldn't take the smell. He reeked of fish, sweat, ass and all other stenches that don't immediately come to mind

He had the window down, it made it worse and dandruff from his hair was blowing on me and I had a coffee without a lid

I instantly got more and more irritated and physically sick

I started giving non verbal cues to my sister, like covering my nose and looking the other way (as discreetly as I could)

She just giggled about it

I ended up just yelling out JESUS YOU STINK

This was while we still had 20 minutes more of driving, btw

Am I the asshole for flipping like that? He didn't react offended he just laughed about it and said my bad

I lost weight, gained weight, then lost again. My life has been a roller coaster of crash dieting

My boobs are hideous to me, they are covered in stretch marks, they have no shape

I shared nsfw pics with a woman I know in person whos bi. She responded with a laughing emote, made a horrible joke then I saw she screenshotted the picture after.

I see her all the time, she works at the coffee shop I frequent

I knew they weren't the best but now I feel like i look like a straight up mutant

Im scared to ever show them again. The problem is most lesbians/bi women here all know each other. I bet shes shown them around and now i feel even worse and humiliated about my body

In the psych ward a guy (another patient) had sex with me in private later I hear him on phone with his wife hes strict to. Has nerve to ask her where she is

Oh man I was furious. I know you dont go to those wards to meet bfs

But it sucks worse I can't even vent because what am I gonna do? Tell the therapist im upset bc i has sex with somebody here in this hospital

Now im home, feeling worse. I dont want help. I feel like I'm just a nasty bitch who didnt even want help. I wasted my time

Im too damaged even for fucking inpatient

I don't even know if this is the place to post, I posted it on the locals on Facebook

In mauldin area a very dangerous woman shares my morning commute

I am not going to be specific about her car because I dont know what the rules are with stalking or something

The first time I encountered her she swerved at me for fun, liked that I got scared, and licked in between her two fingers ​ (yes that gesture)

I almost called police but I let it go

She has very bright hair, either pink or purple and shes heavy seat

Every morning she does this, a woman at Starbucks said they don't serve her from past issues. They were unable to identify her

This woman needs to get off the road before she hurts someone

She does this for fun is the worse part.

Since her behavior is so obvious has anyone encountered her during the morning hours? I called police once but she had drove off before they could even get there (i wasn't able to take a pic of her tag)​