u/ElectricalBad2973

I contacted a helpline for ppl concerned about their sexual behavior about my childhood behavior b/c I was worried it was abuse. ( >! self touch during play !<) the person on the other end said it wasn’t abuse if it could be considered problematic. then she said that she thinks the word inappropriate might fit better. then she said it was inappropriate and potentially problematic. now im so confused. is my behavior be problematic or not? she said inappropriate and problematic can be interchangble a lot of the time is this true?

I have a question about if something would be reassurance seeking or taking accountability or wrong I may have done.

I had ocd about some behavior from when I was around young. Ive been worried i committed a horrible crime !>cocsa!< in my childhood. (>! self touch during and to story games!<) I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse. one therapist who specializes in this stuff also told me it was developmentally normal behavior and common. one therapist agreed that it wasn’t harmful or abusive but said it crossed boundaries which made me worry it was problematic.

i found another therapy hotline and even though its owned by the same organization of I asked before I’m thinking of messaging them and asking if my behavior was problematic tho not abusive. a friend who knows a little bit about my condition though not the details thinks this would be reassurance seeking. I’ve already apologized to the person who the behavior was with and they told me it was fine and they weren’t harmed.

if I did hurt them I don’t want to ask again and re traumatize them so this feels like my last chance at accountability. I don’t want to feed into my ocd tho so I’m not sure if I should reach out to the hotline

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime >! CoCsa !< in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse. one therapist who specializes in this stuff also told me it was developmentally normal behavior and common. one therapist agreed that it wasn’t harmful or abusiev but said it crossed boundaries which made me worry it was problematic.

so although I’ve been told it wasn’t harmful by prof and the person involved but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. I’ve been trying to get an ocd therapist but it’s been very difficult. I have an appointment in may where I’m going to be reading out to my doctor about seeing an ocd therapist but I would love some advice on anything I can do to combat this reassurance seeking while I wait to get counseling because the guilt and shame is ruining my life to the point I’m throwing up out of guilt.

thank you so much!

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime CoCsa in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. all I want to do is sleep. I need this to be over please. I can’t get a real lasting therapist and I can’t tell anyone this anyway. I’m exhausted

ive been having real event ocd for the past ish years right now. I can’t stop reassurance seeking to be sure I didn’t commit a horrible crime >! CoCsa !< in my childhood. I keep checking in with hotlines and therapists and I’ve been told over and over it wasn’t abuse but Now I’ve decided it was problmatic instead. I just checked in again for the 2nd time in less than 24 hours and it was vague and didn’t even make me feel better and I’m so exhausted now. all I want to do is sleep. I need this to be over please. I can’t get a real lasting therapist and I can’t tell anyone this anyway. I’m exhausted