r/transteens

i read the whole thing in 1 day sry it is too good im forcing you sry

Like I genuinely get nauseated looking at myself and I have thrown up more than a few times. It usually comes with headaches and feeling really hot as well, even though my temperature isn't high at all. Is this normal?

What the title says basically or just any trans friends tbf

So I, mtf 16(since april) was dating ftm 15 and he just left me cause "he thought I was joking about being trans and isn't comfortable with me being a girl" I'm just on my bed crying and shaking with no idea what to do

As the title says im a trans mtf kid (16) -fuck off creeps- im having a terrible time with body dysmorphia. I was openly trans in middle school had a really rough time got really depressed and anxious. Had a therapist for a while and got diagnosed with depression and anxiety and after about a year of being openly trans i got raped 3 times. Not like he touched me i got raped 3 times. After that i never stopped feeling disgusting and still havent. My therapist also broke confendialtality quite a few times so i just pretended i was better until i didnt have to see him. Fast forward about 3 years of never feeling right and out of place i meet ace. My current best friend and probably my favorite person on earth honestly. Hes also trans and figured me out pretty quick without me even telling him anything. Sorry this is getting really long. The past couple months he has honestly helped a ton.
A couple of the problems
I forced myself to be really (masculine) after middle school because i wanted to get as far away as possible from everything and in that process lost myself pretty badly i have no idea who i am i have no idea what clothes i like or even what music i like i just cant find anything thats really me i dont even know what my favorite food is.
I want to stay muscular but i dont know if thats a result of what ive just said or if i genuinely do im trying to grow my hair out but its going pretty shit.
I also feel like such a freak all the time like a hare in rabbits ya know i feel bad every time i hang out with my girl-friends because i still look really masculine and i have zero control over my voice still. But they all use she/her wich i love and get overjoyed every time i hear it but i cant help but feel bad about it because i know im nowhere near passing. I mean 6 foot 160 and around 10% bodyfat isnt exactly a womans body
A mix of everything has lead me down a pretty deep hole of drugs the past few years and i honestly dont have anyone to talk to about it i live with my dad but we barely know echother and i dont even want to get started on my mom shes a horrible person and i genuinely resent her.
Both of my parents refuse to get me a therapist to talk about anything and the only person ive been able to see is my school counselor but that only goes so far. Ive managed to keep my grades up 90’s and 80’s but im floating through life i dont know anything about myself except that i dont like it and i want to be a girl.
Im honestly so lost
I just wanted to talk like the title says so there it is i dont need any help really just some support maybe a you got this you know what i mean.
Sincerely,
A kid tryna get through life.

I really need a honest opinion; is there anything wrong with the name I chose for myself? I chose the name Lennon, mainly because I'm a big fan of John Lennon, but also because it just feels right for me.

The thing is, my mom told me it's a "ridiculous" name and that people are going to make fun of me if I introduce myself like that. Ever since she said that, I've started feeling really insecure about it.

When my boyfriend calls me Lennon, it genuinely makes me feel good and more like myself but now I’m really scared to use it with other people.

I also don’t pass as male at all right now, so I feel like the name might make things “worse” or make people take me even less seriously.

So, is Lennon actually a ridiculous name?

For context, i’m mtf trans and there’s one thing that makes me dread showering, and that is my lower half. I try to look away whenever i’m showering but it’s a pain because i have to look down and wash areas down there and i sometimes shave my legs and stuff in the shower. I feel like using swimming shorts would be good but i don’t know how to bring that up to my mom (im out to my family so talking to them is no issue), is there there anything else i can do to try or is this the most i can do.

I have this kid in my class and he asked if Im trans and I was honest and said yea, and next thing I know he starts laughing and calling me "a transgender" and thats all hes calling me now and hes saying stuff like "omg you just touched a transgender" and he was also going around telling people in my class. I dont know what to do I told one teacher Im out to but its not like I can tell my parents cause Im not out to them. What do I do?

Okay, so today, i decided that at school i would present as feminine, secretly though(i wore a bra and girly underwear under my uniform) just to give myself some sort of happiness and development in my journey. It was really nice and i really felt like myself and i felt really comfortable, however i had really bad dysphoria today and i dont know if thats a coincidence or just because of what i was doing it made me more sort of self-aware. This dysphoria was balanced out by alot of happiness that i felt though. I did feel quite self-conscious and i was really worried that someone would notice i was wearing a bra but thankfully my uniform kind of made it not much noticeable. Also, do bra's normally feel like theres constantly something there or is that just something to do with me being super self-conscious?

I also started making a little journal today to measure different things each day, like my mood and how i felt and stuff, and i really think it will help because i already feel a bit like theres less of a weight on me.

:3 🩷🩷

Im so happy

As the title says I need advice on this. Bit of background I have known for at least the past 2 years that I have 100% felt uncomfortable in my body and as I envy all the mtfs I always see and just wished I could do that but now I am almost away to college or university and just don’t know what to do because I know that my family and friends would probably support me but the thought of doing it absolutely terrifies me. Is there anyway to slowly become a bit more feminine to gradually build up the courage to fully come out and and help me fully transition

would've posted on ANY OTHER SUB REDDIT that is actually somewhat related to pregnancy but it'd be hard to explain that i'm a trans guy and i wanna avoid all of the "my poor sweet girly pop queen princess" comments so do me a favor and be my diary.

so i keep getting TONS of pregnancy dreams and they're very vivid and realistic and now they're trying soooo hard to get me into it but there's so much i hate about it. lord help me and i just needed to take this off my chest, thank you sweethearts.

I'm worried. I'm one of those people whose bodies develop way too fast. I'm 16 and I look like 20. I have broad shoulders, manly ribcage, all that bs. And it's worrying me. I hate that my shoulders are so wide. I hate that my ribcage is the way it is. I already regret that I didn't realize I was trans befire puberty, because then I would've had a real chance. Now I have to wait til 18 because my parents aren't okay with me getting hrt because of cancer chances. My mom also won't accept me fully because she says "she doesn't see me that way". She's some weird kind of doctor so I trust her on this, she said my shoulders will get even more broad. That scares me. Genuinely it scares me. I will never pass and i already know that but I'm not okay with it. I hate that my body does this. I hate this situation. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't even tell my therapist because she said "not to talk about huge things due to limited time". So what do I do? Genuinely. It is inevitable that my body will get so masculine i will never pass, there's no cure for it, and I missed the time before puberty when I had the chance to do everything right. And between all of it, mom doesn't want me getting hormone blockers. I don't know anymore. What should I do? Is there anything I *can* do? I don't think so.

Sorry if I repeated myself a lot, I tend to do that all the time.

Like just tell me I'm a girl instead of avoiding the subject at any cost, it's painfully obvious and it hurts my soul sm-

Just a silly little question because I know when I get sick my voice gets kinda scratchy/deeper. It makes me sound like a guy and that makes me very happy. Anyone else?

ughhh I already know I can wear one to school if I change in the bathroom so my parents don’t see, but I don’t know how to get my hands on one in the first place 💔💔 or maybe you guys know other ways I can bind that won’t make my parents suspicious??

why was i born to have tatas bro 🫩

so, hi im Hayley (15GF but i go by She/Her) and ive been feeling a lot of dysphoria lately (Since im biologically male)

the only tipes of euphoria i feel are: 1. my friends calling me by my chosen name, 2. having minimal curves (i had a femboy era, so i do have pretty femme legs) and 3. having a non-masc face, since im a chubby girlie

the parts i feel more insecure about are my voice and my hair, also being 6'4" does NOT help

how can i lower this dysphoria, help

(obs: coming out to my family is NOT an option, sinc3 theyre all catholic bigots)

So I'm 14 M to F, came out around a couple weeks ago to one of my teachers at school, my parents have been openly >!transphobic !<in the past, and I want to come out to them but I don't know how, does anyone have any advice?

So i’m 18 and ive been out for quite some time now (mtf) and im going into college soon but i want to be able to appear more passing so i dont feel like im asking people to adapt to me you know? so to do this i want to have a more feminine voice and fashion sense!

my first question is like, how do i go about changing my voice without it being awkward with my friends and girlfriend. don’t get me wrong they’re als SO supportive and im so grateful but i dont want to feel awkward about it

i also gotta learn how to like dress feminine (which im asking friends and also in the mtf fashion subreddit) but when i do i dont want it to be strange or like idk if i ever want to wear a bra (im not on hrt yet but im hoping soon!!) but would that be weird ?? i dont really know and thag feels like a stupid question sometimes

anywho any advice would help!!