Body worries
I'm worried. I'm one of those people whose bodies develop way too fast. I'm 16 and I look like 20. I have broad shoulders, manly ribcage, all that bs. And it's worrying me. I hate that my shoulders are so wide. I hate that my ribcage is the way it is. I already regret that I didn't realize I was trans befire puberty, because then I would've had a real chance. Now I have to wait til 18 because my parents aren't okay with me getting hrt because of cancer chances. My mom also won't accept me fully because she says "she doesn't see me that way". She's some weird kind of doctor so I trust her on this, she said my shoulders will get even more broad. That scares me. Genuinely it scares me. I will never pass and i already know that but I'm not okay with it. I hate that my body does this. I hate this situation. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't even tell my therapist because she said "not to talk about huge things due to limited time". So what do I do? Genuinely. It is inevitable that my body will get so masculine i will never pass, there's no cure for it, and I missed the time before puberty when I had the chance to do everything right. And between all of it, mom doesn't want me getting hormone blockers. I don't know anymore. What should I do? Is there anything I *can* do? I don't think so.
Sorry if I repeated myself a lot, I tend to do that all the time.