Kind of presented as feminine for the first time in public today i feel so happy
Okay, so today, i decided that at school i would present as feminine, secretly though(i wore a bra and girly underwear under my uniform) just to give myself some sort of happiness and development in my journey. It was really nice and i really felt like myself and i felt really comfortable, however i had really bad dysphoria today and i dont know if thats a coincidence or just because of what i was doing it made me more sort of self-aware. This dysphoria was balanced out by alot of happiness that i felt though. I did feel quite self-conscious and i was really worried that someone would notice i was wearing a bra but thankfully my uniform kind of made it not much noticeable. Also, do bra's normally feel like theres constantly something there or is that just something to do with me being super self-conscious?
I also started making a little journal today to measure different things each day, like my mood and how i felt and stuff, and i really think it will help because i already feel a bit like theres less of a weight on me.
:3 🩷🩷