Am noticing a looming if not already here epidemic of this crap. Markets flooded with isomers and its getting further from real K year by year. Effects are lowered and physical harm is much higher. Has anyone else thought the same? This shits going to ruin a generation.
Hello everyone,
I started using ketamine in 2019 in New York City. Like many of you, it was introduced to me by a close friend. I had experimented with plenty of substances before, but nothing ever truly stuck. Ketamine was different. The first time I tried it, something in my brain just clicked. It gave me exactly what I didn’t even know I had been searching for.
At first, it felt manageable, something reserved for parties or intimate gatherings with friends. It seemed contained. But when Covid hit in 2020, everything changed. Isolation stripped away the illusion of control. My use escalated from occasional to daily, then to constant. I began using alone. I lied. I hid it. I stole. I sold much of my record collection just to sustain the habit.
I knew I had a problem. I tried to stop many times. I even opened up to my family in the summer of 2023 and admitted I was addicted, but even that wasn’t enough to make me quit.
In February 2024, I moved to Paris. At the time, it felt like moving saved my life. I removed myself from the environment where I was using and from easy access. I managed to stay sober for three months. But then I went to Berlin to visit a friend and convinced myself I could “dabble” responsibly. Within days, I was using daily again. I even brought ketamine back with me on the plane. As soon as I landed in France, I contacted everyone I knew to find a dealer. Within an hour, I was back in full-blown addiction.
I began using it everywhere, at home, at work, constantly. I lost my girlfriend. I lost my apartment. I lost friendships. I ended up back at my mother’s house, cycling between brief attempts at sobriety and deeper relapses.
On December 1st, 2024, after months of daily use, something finally shifted. I understood that I couldn’t get sober for anyone else. Not for my family. Not for my partner. Not for the people who loved me. I had to do it for myself. No one could carry me through it.
That day, I committed fully. I did 90 meetings in 90 days at Narcotics Anonymous here in Paris. I rebuilt my life piece by piece. I found an apartment. I got a good job. I stabilized. Life wasn’t perfect; in fact, learning to feel again was uncomfortable and raw, but it was infinitely more livable than the hell of daily use.
I stayed clean for 18 months.
And then I made the mistake I swore I wouldn’t make.
After completing 30 meetings in 30 days, I grew confident. I convinced myself I didn’t need the structure anymore. That I could handle it alone.
Two months ago, while my girlfriend was away on a work trip, I had an incredibly stressful day. An old dealer had texted me weeks earlier out of nowhere, a door I should have closed immediately. Instead, I reached out. I told myself I could control it. Just a little. Just occasionally.
Within days, I was back to daily use.
At work. At home. Pretending to have the flu so my girlfriend wouldn’t question why I seemed distant and strange. Living a double life again.
I finally told her a month ago. It devastated her. And still, I struggled to stop.
Today, I am choosing again.
Because I know where this ends. If I continue, I will lose her. I will lose my job. I will lose the stable life I worked so hard to rebuild. And beyond that, I will lose myself again.
Right now, I feel ashamed. I feel lonely. I feel like I’ve betrayed the people who believed in me. I know addiction is a disease, but I also know recovery is my responsibility.
If you are reading this and thinking about going back “just a little,” please believe me: there is no such thing. For me, one decision opened the door to two months of chaos. The slope is not gradual. It’s immediate.
If you’re struggling, you’re not alone. If you’ve relapsed, you’re not broken beyond repair. But we cannot underestimate this drug. I certainly can’t.
If anyone wants to talk, share experiences, or just not feel alone in this, my inbox is open.
One love.
posting this for harm reduction. i have a batch of k that really doesn’t feel quite fully k-like— i have my balance completely, im able to type and read just fine, i’m up late when usually i sleep early/early riser. took anti anxiety med im prescribed, weed, neither helped.
i know that im harming myself just by using, i appreciate the concern from anyone in the community but i just want to know, or maybe hear stories: how did you find out your k was laced with c? (i don’t have a tester kit on me and my dealer is off the clock so they won’t get back to me for another 10 hours or so)
Hey there, I’m a 44 year old male and would like to describe my situation to better understand how serious I should be considering my K use.
I’m 6ft, 190, exercise 3 or 4 times a week. Mountain biking, hiking, resistance. I’m an executive at a successful growth company that I founded. I have a healthy social life and love life, find a lot of time for positive and blissful times with others.
I’ve been on self-administered ketamine for the last 6 years. It went from snorting one gram a week, using on a Friday or Saturday, to now snorting 4 grams a week with almost daily use. Most days I’m in the .25 range, with spikes into .75 on a Friday or Saturday.
There have been so many positives. First, I don’t drink. K definitely eliminated alcohol from my life. I also have built an incredibly positive relationship with myself, the usage has assisted in diminished trauma and emotional responses to things. Issues that would have sent me obsessing or spiraling or struggling to find peace no longer impact me.
My use is always coupled with intentional, binaural sound. I have found that certain music, especially when positioned for balanced stereo listening, contributes to a very pleasant and often mystical deep experience without needing much k to get there. This is all amplified by a growing ability to shut down my mind through meditation tactics, surrendering my analytical mind and allowing myself to slip more quickly into a theta state.
Other psychedelics have contributed to this overall work — psilocybin, lsd, but most significantly a few Bufo sessions for the last few years. Access to this “other realm” has been made easier, and k is an active nudge towards that realm.
I only use with others, never alone. I only use at night. My times with others are connected, we are not on headphones, and there is a lot of talk therapy and love and positive processing through the experience.
Everything for the most part is going well. I am doing well at work, social life, and with my physical health. Most days feel positively impacted by the previous night’s usage, I feel clear and connected to my agency and choosing positive things in my life.
Okay, this all sounds good. And yes, I think for the most part it is all good. But I’m on here for a reason…
The use has become daily and I’m dependent on it. I don’t know how else to hang with people. There’s nothing more interesting or pleasant or fulfilling than doing k with others. This fundamentally feels like a problem.
Though bladder/urinary/kidney doesn’t seem to have any issues, I am starting to have concerning sensations in the brain when on it. Heat, tingling, pressure, what feels like an over activity or something. I don’t know. In the moment, this tingling feels mystical and maybe even healing, but I start to panic because the sensation is so overwhelming and abnormal.
I’m starting to have days that I wake up feeling sluggish, lacking motivation, going through motions. It’s maybe a day or two a week.
Tolerance has surprisingly not been building dramatically, but in the last few weeks I’ve started to notice that it takes .5 or maybe a little more to really “get me there” — this is an increase.
I’ve never really been addicted to anything before, I am very anxious and panicky about this all resulting badly for me. This anxiety comes up occasionally in the midst of a session, but by the next night I usually feel great and ready to use again. So sometimes I feel like the anxiety is an overreaction, maybe I’m fine? Maybe this is more good than bad and I shouldn’t worry yet?
I don’t want to push this to a point where I now actually have to worry though.
So I dunno… I’d say this drug is having 75% positive results in my life. And the other 25% is somewhat certainly negative, but also somewhat speculative.
I’d love any thoughts here. Primarily, 1. If I keep my usage below .25-.50 a night, is this within a healthy range? 2. Is there anything to be concerned about the sensations I end up feeling in my brain? 3. (And I think I know the answer) should I just listen to this instinct of anxiety around it and quit before it gets worse?
Thanks yall. Waking up today and finding this sub has been really helpful already
I want to share what happened to me recently because it could genuinely save someone’s life.
I’ve been using ketamine for several years and know what it feels like. Over the past couple of weeks something changed dramatically in the supply I was getting from street dealers in my area (West Yorkshire, UK).
The first sign was that effects felt completely different — profound sedation way beyond what ketamine produces, extreme dry mouth that water couldn’t touch, a sensation like my throat was collapsing while trying to breathe, muscle weakness, and a feeling of pushing to stay conscious. I ended up calling 999 and spent time in A&E genuinely scared. The throat/breathing symptoms fit xylazine adulteration closely — and unlike opioid overdose, naloxone won’t help with xylazine.
I later sourced from a different supplier described as “better” — but noticed the same persistent dry mouth even though the experience was less dangerous. After research I believe this supply contains 2-FDCK rather than actual ketamine. It feels similar but the dry mouth is a distinguishing feature — it doesn’t resolve with water.
So in my experience the UK street supply right now contains:
• Xylazine in some supplies — genuinely dangerous, caused breathing difficulties and A&E visit
• 2-FDCK in other supplies — passes as ketamine but isn’t
Neither is actual ketamine. Please be careful. Start with tiny amounts from any new supply. If you get extreme sedation, throat symptoms, or feel like you can’t stay conscious — call 999 immediately and tell them you may have taken xylazine. If you have access to drug checking services like WEDINOS or The Loop, please use them.
Stay safe out there.
Hey guys, I’m looking for anyone who might have a list of supplements they take/how much to prevent/lessen damage from ketamine use. For context I’m someone that has used ketamine on and off since 2024 but through 2025 and especially 2026 my use has escalated pretty significantly. I use just about every day now with use ranging from 250mg to maybe 2.5 grams a day but I honestly don’t count how much I’m doing anymore. I’m starting to get some symptoms of bladder damage and honestly have been for a bit, especially after long binges. But recently it’s just gotten worse. I’m doing my best to take a break and the idea of even taking a couple days off is fucking with me more than I would like to admit. Much love and if anyone has any advice feel free to comment or PM me.
Basically the title. I counted my baggies and calculated against that since I started, adding a little extra for lines or bumps I’ve bummed off other people.
I’ve started going to NA meetings, have a timed lockbox for my shit, started taking green tea supplements multiple times a day (but only within the last week).
I haven’t noticed any bladder issues or pain so far, aside from the most minuscule leakage starting about a week and a half ago.
If anyone has any advice or recommendations it’d be much appreciated. I had 4 years sober from alcohol that I gave up about 6 months ago, but that’s been all fine. Drinking hasn’t been even a minute problem so far. It’s really since I first tried ket that things have spiraled a bit. I’m still mostly functional, barring some decrease in performance in my school work, and making my flatmate a little concerned. Really lucky to be surrounded by supportive friends who let me vent and talk about how frustrating it is to go back to meetings.
But if anyone’s gotten clean/been able to achieve a level of control with this shit I’d love to hear your experience!
Thanks guys much love ❤️
Hey everybody.
I‘m addicted to k, trying to stop using daily but it’s not going great - although the cravings are hard I’m fighting the psychological part urge to use…however somehow it’s physically hard…I have no energy when I’m sober…can’t keep myself awake during the day so I just wake up, stay in bed then fall asleep again in again the whole entire day. Coffee doesn’t help. Sport doesn’t help. Only k helps.
Anybody dealt with this before? How did you get out of this vicious cycle?
ideas & advice needed on how i deal with these stupid k cravings. mostly i just feel bored and extremely irritated ((:
i want to get up and be doing things but i can’t stop thinking about it, and the more i do, the more pissed off i get.
send help pls
I have been using for years now, but this year it has become worse and worse. Left my partner now I live alone and it’s so weird. I’m not used to it anymore lost my job. I have been jobless for so long. I have been diagnosed with BPD five years ago but none of the treatments I use really help.
Anyways, I’ve been using so much and started to suffer health wise, lost friends to my addiction too. Unfortunately it is the only thing that calms me down when I’m feeling suicidal or just extremely tensed
Recently my plug started to sell a new ketamine. I hate it. I’m not even sure it is ket, I kept using it even though it made me feel awful and it sent me to the hospital twice. I don’t know what to do. I can’t keep using this product. It’s very dangerous for me. It makes my symptoms worse but I really want to use, despite the horrible side effects, it calms my brain a little bit, and the simple act of using feels so good.
For a while, I thought it was a good thing because it would force me to stop using but I’m losing my mind. I need to use. I want to buy again because I just can’t stand being sober for too long, to cope I also started abusing Xanax again but it makes me so depressed. I try going out and see my Friends but I keep thinking about how much I want to use. And I lost the strength to leave my house, I can’t even eat or do anything.
This is such a weird situation no matter what I do I cannot keep my mind of drugs. I actually managed to reduce the amount I use. Little by little, but to stop using straight away is a nightmare.
What can I even do? I feel so empty. I’m sorry for the venting post.
I DID IT!!! After over a decade of addiction. More than TEN YEARS of obsession over this drug. Yes it helped me but it started hurting me way more than it helped me and I had to stop. I can’t even express how grateful I am right now.
To all of you who think there’s no way out. If you think you can’t do it. YOU CAN. I never thought I was going to be able to stop and here I am. Thank you thank you thank you universe!!!!!!
Hello guys,
I’m really struggling at the minute and have zero social life my life is just stuck and I’m just sat at home. Has anyone else been through this and what helped you?
So I recently reused after a few months off, and after 18 months ish of heavy use. Soentimes going through an oz in 4-5 days. With my wife not on my own. My tolerance is through the roof now. And after my recent binge of going through 4z in a month (please don’t judge we are going through a shitty what I think break up after half our life) the pain it in my gallbladder area doen my side.
I am waiting for an ultrasound but mentioning anything k related gets shitted upon as our local drs are all stuck up dicks imo. We are in the uk. They said it could be gallstones as it’s definitely not like any cramps I have previously. It’s not easing either.
I’m trying to eat healthy as I can but is there any vitamins I can use to try help my body heal in a way?
Edit: it’s been 3 days that it’s been worse but was there for about a week before. I have stopped using so I’m hoping it heals but I’m also going through the dr regarding it.
Hi. i never had any problems with Ket but the stuff i hear online about the bladder issues or K cramps worries me. How long does it actually take to develop any of these issues. I mostly just buy 2-4g and finish it within a week or so taking it nearly everyday till it’s gone then stop for 6+ months maybe a year maybe more just whenever. I never do lines or anything only Keys. A good sized key can put me in a k hole sometimes. So my use is binge style but on and off
I remember doing it once and I couldn’t really move, and felt claustrophobic. I’m sure if I did it more I would’ve probably liked it more, but never really got the chance to again.
recently, I felt curious again, what is it supposed to feel like?
I went from daily use (long term) to 5 days clean like nothing ever happened.
I ran out of supply, started taking prescription stimulants (ADHD Meds) and gaming on my PC.
I went from waking up, absolutely fucking craving Ketamine to not even thinking about it. Craving my video game instead.
I'll take the trade of 20-40mg of prescription grade stimulant to 1000+mg of tranquilizer.
There is a lot I want to vent about. The significant amount of money I lost, the relationships I've damaged, my reputation, my body.
To be honest, I feel fine and healthy. But I am disgusted with myself.
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I'm looking for supportive stories from Users who have gone multiple years, daily use 1gram+.
But for those users:
How is your body? Bloodwork, scans, doctor, Is it okay?
How is your nose? Visit an ENT and did they say everything was okay like a non-user nose?
Brain and Function: Compare your Intelligence to before using.
Life: Were you able to get back to working good jobs and living productive life?
I have been having incontinence and pain since October. I kept using ketamine for the pain. I now have to stop and he referred me to a pain management doctor. I am so happy I could cry. If you have having bladder issues stop using!!! Just wanted to share this with anyone using frequently. I was using basically every day. At my worst sometime 10 or more grams a day.
This is not a thought out post, but one I feel I want to make before leaving the sub.
I’ve struggled with multiple addictions throughout my adolescence and young adulthood, ketamine being my worst and lowest point.
Even when I was one year clean, I could honestly say I eventually had no cravings or desires to go back.
Addiction ruins every part of your life, whether you’re aware of it / it’s rolled into that part yet.
I am so happy to be sober. I find joy in the everyday I never thought I could feel again when I was addicted. Yes, there are hard days, but the feeling of waking up and not being so sluggish and foggy from sniffing until I ran out is something I am still grateful for every day.
Yes, it’s hard, and breaking out of the cycle feels almost impossible until you’ve reached your breaking point, but I want you to know, as you will from this subreddit, you are not alone. And there is an ‘afterwards’. And you will feel so much better afterwards. Even if it’s not today, I want you, reader, to take note of every time you feel negative feelings and think negative thoughts when you are using, and in the days after.
Essentially, I journalled my way out of addiction.
I wrote letters to myself, begging me to stop and listing every reason why I should. Eventually, I listened. For the people I love, but most importantly for myself.
Although I am leaving this subreddit, I’d love for anyone reading to shoot me a message, I would be so happy to open a conversation, whether it’s listening to your experiences, offering specific advice, talking about strategies if you would like to get out.
Again, you are not alone, you are not a disappointment (addiction is scary, I know, and hard to face up to), and I see you.
Good luck, I have faith in you all. I once had no faith in myself, or anything. Bye y’all. My inbox is always open.
I've recently started using ketamine a few months ago and have probably done 2 or 3 grams over the course of that time.
I'm aware this isn't a horrible amount that will hurt my health severely given the amount and time, but have come to notice that I feel drawn to this substance much more than others.
I used some last night and felt a little disappointed in the fact that I feel like I am forming a habit. I want to use some more today but the knowledge of where this habit can go is putting me on a fence.
What do you do to stop a craving? any advice for someone who is forming a new yet destructive habit?