u/xcrumblingsoulx

Due to some unforeseen and pretty unfortunate circumstances I ended up with no funds to pay for my unexpected dentist visit

I think I got some kind of infection that crept under my gums due to my tooth breaking 😭

It hurts near my nose even

I can prove that I'm a real person of course

If you could help me out, you will become an official owner of my soul lol

Due to some unforeseen and pretty unfortunate circumstances I ended up with no funds to pay for my unexpected dentist visit

I think I got some kind of infection that crept under my gums due to my tooth breaking 😭

It hurts near my nose even

I can prove that I'm a real person of course

If you could help me out, you will become an official owner of my soul lol

Lookin for funny peeps to shoot some shit with 🐥

Each of those options is on the table: a casual chat, friendship, sumfin more) as I've unfortunately fallen into a mental hole of sadness and misery i can't seem to escape from figuratively speaking :T

Let's skip the boring small talk, instead please answer these questions in your dm:

1. what's something you did that was objectively bad, but you are/were proud of it?

2. what would be your minor superpower that doesn't help in anything?

3. what was the closest thing to a paranormal experience that you... experienced? ( •. H .• ) Share some boooos with me!

4. hypothetically you meet someone who can accurately tell you when you'll die- would you agree or not?

...I have quite a few more of these nonsensical questions if you're wondering 🤣 also feel free to ask me about whatever!

I'd love to see/hear about something that made you laugh the most in recent times 😎

About me:

Some basics: my name is Marta, I'm 29 and am Polish (a traditional, epic song about pierogis play in the background)

To get these more "formal" things out of the way so you know sumfin about my potato self:

I'm a total horrorhead, true crime junkie and a gamer at heart ❤️ (recently replaying RE4 remake) we can talk games as well!

What do I look like?

I have pretty long hair, some tattoos and piercings & stretched ears :3

Also I have like 200% chance of being:

1. shorter than you (I'm a certified hobbit due to being smol af 5ft PLUS like half of an inch, can't forget about that!)

2. paler than you (unless you're just straight up transparent which... hey, good for you!)

3. both

IMPORTANT: please don't be discouraged if I don't answer as quickly as I probably should, I'm doing mah best T_T

9/10 chance that I will respond to you, even it ends up taking a few eons

I can't believe it 🤡

For the longest time I was just casually at peace with the high likelihood of me being single forever (very scared of another heartbreak)- simple, right? Me, all of my personalities and inner demons were on the same page, yeah?

And despite that, I somehow let my guard down, I let someone in again (when I KNOW it never ends well for me & after agreeing to stick to the plan)

Chances of sharing the future were pretty obviously really low

But my hopeless romantic dumb lil brain did its thing again .\_\_\_.

I promised myself that I'll leave anything love-relatd alone... Got tempted again 💀 Will I ever learn?! Probably not ( •. H .• )

I am legit pissed off lmao

A veteran like me (not flexing or anything, just saying that I'm a part of the girl kissing community for years) somehow got disarmed and outplayed by getting fed some promises and pipe dreams

And got hurt, who would have expected that

Shame, shame, shame

I can't believe it 🤡

For the longest time I was just casually at peace with the high likelihood of me being single forever (very scared of another heartbreak)- simple, right? Me, all of my personalities and inner demons were on the same page, yeah?

And despite that, I somehow let my guard down, I let someone in again (when I KNOW it never ends well for me & after agreeing to stick to the plan)

Chances of sharing the future were pretty obviously really low

But my hopeless romantic dumb lil brain did its thing again .___.

I promised myself that I'll leave anything love-relatd alone... Got tempted again 💀 Will I ever learn?! Probably not ( •. H .• )

I am legit pissed off lmao

A veteran like me (not flexing or anything, just saying that I'm a part of the girl kissing community for years) somehow got disarmed and outplayed by getting fed some promises and pipe dreams

And got hurt, who would have expected that

Shame, shame, shame

Wandering stranger- if you have a second, please give my post a read and say... just anything really- I'll truly appreciate it. Maybe something will resonate with you.

It's my first time pouring my heart out in such agonizing details, so please bear with me- I'll probably proceed to add some more of the bullshit I need to kick out of this rotting brajn of mine- so I'll share it.

I'm a 29yo female. I live in Poland. I have been diagnosed with depression (which is the main problem), general anxiety and a personality disorder 15 years ago... I have to mention- I'm adopted. The agreed on conclusion is: my sickness is genetic- and that makes perfect sense.

Let's continue. 15 years.

That's right, half of my life is tainted with this horrendous, dehumanizing sickness. My brain had no chance to develop correctly or just in a way that wouldn't end up with me writing this. I don't have a job. I live with my parents. I don't have real life friends. I'm single. Not a glimpse of my forever person on the horizon. All I do is just rot in bed watching shit on my phone. That's the core of my existence and even this feels like it's too much. I frequently just give up on any kind of self care, even showers.

I tried everything, I really did. Talking to people. Self discipline. Meditation. Physical activity. Taking genuine care of myself, trying to step out of my comfort zone. I've been on every existing med under the sun- and every possible combination of 'em. I am absolutely terrified of the possibility that I am just the perfect combination of traits and characteristics to be someone you just can't help. Someone who won't get better.

I've been hospitalized 14 or 15 times (mind you I'm not ever 30 yet), kinda stopped keeping track of amount of times I ended up in the looney bin.

I have experienced the state of just... not being. Suicide attempt, 5 days in a coma. It was so... nothingy, you know? Absolute, incomprehensible peace.

Polish mental health care is absolutely atrocious. If you find yourself being locked up there, the only thing you can do is just slowly marinating in your suffering and fear. You're lucky if you manage to score a single, truly laughable "therapy session" just to try and circle through as many topics as you can mention.

I just begged to get electroshock therapy. It was approved by every doctor who had a say in it... except one. He never even talked to me. The reason I feel like was purely financial, which was just absurd. How can someone so callously deny another person a chance to stop their suffering.

Fuck, the concept of god just makes me laugh; cause if there was one, he would be the most sadistic, despicable asshole in existence if he allows such agony to take place in my head (and every person's who suffers alongside me).

I'm so sick of it. I hate the fact that I am aware of anything at all, that genuinely pissed me off. No place to run. No place to hide. I can feel any remnants of my soul dying.

Wandering stranger- if you have a second, please give my post a read and say... just anything really- I'll truly appreciate it. Maybe something will resonate with you.

It's my first time pouring my heart out in such agonizing details, so please bear with me- I'll probably proceed to add some more of the bullshit I need to kick out of this rotting brajn of mine- so I'll share it.

I'm a 29yo female. I live in Poland. I have been diagnosed with depression (which is the main problem), general anxiety and a personality disorder 15 years ago... I have to mention- I'm adopted. The agreed on conclusion is: my sickness is genetic- and that makes perfect sense.

Let's continue. 15 years.

That's right, half of my life is tainted with this horrendous, dehumanizing sickness. My brain had no chance to develop correctly or just in a way that wouldn't end up with me writing this. I don't have a job. I live with my parents. I don't have real life friends. I'm single. Not a glimpse of my forever person on the horizon. All I do is just rot in bed watching shit on my phone. That's the core of my existence and even this feels like it's too much. I frequently just give up on any kind of self care, even showers.

I tried everything, I really did. Talking to people. Self discipline. Meditation. Physical activity. Taking genuine care of myself, trying to step out of my comfort zone. I've been on every existing med under the sun- and every possible combination of 'em. I am absolutely terrified of the possibility that I am just the perfect combination of traits and characteristics to be someone you just can't help. Someone who won't get better.

I've been hospitalized 14 or 15 times (mind you I'm not ever 30 yet), kinda stopped keeping track of amount of times I ended up in the looney bin.

I have experienced the state of just... not being. Suicide attempt, 5 days in a coma. It was so... nothingy, you know? Absolute, incomprehensible peace.

Polish mental health care is absolutely atrocious. If you find yourself being locked up there, the only thing you can do is just slowly marinating in your suffering and fear. You're lucky if you manage to score a single, truly laughable "therapy session" just to try and circle through as many topics as you can mention.

I just begged to get electroshock therapy. It was approved by every doctor who had a say in it... except one. He never even talked to me. The reason I feel like was purely financial, which was just absurd. How can someone so callously deny another person a chance to stop their suffering.

Fuck, the concept of god just makes me laugh; cause if there was one, he would be the most sadistic, despicable asshole in existence if he allows such agony to take place in my head (and every person's who suffers alongside me).

I'm so sick of it. I hate the fact that I am aware of anything at all, that genuinely pissed me off. No place to run. No place to hide. I can feel any remnants of my soul dying.

Wandering stranger- if you have a second, please give my post a read and say... just anything really- I'll truly appreciate it. Maybe something will resonate with you.

It's my first time pouring my heart out in such agonizing details, so please bear with me- I'll probably proceed to add some more of the bullshit I need to kick out of this rotting brajn of mine- so I'll share it.

I'm a 29yo female. I live in Poland. I have been diagnosed with depression (which is the main problem), general anxiety and a personality disorder 15 years ago... I have to mention- I'm adopted. The agreed on conclusion is: my sickness is genetic- and that makes perfect sense. 

Let's continue. 15 years.

That's right, half of my life is tainted with this horrendous, dehumanizing sickness. My brain had no chance to develop correctly or just in a way that wouldn't end up with me writing this. I don't have a job. I live with my parents. I don't have real life friends. I'm single. Not a glimpse of my forever person on the horizon. All I do is just rot in bed watching shit on my phone. That's the core of my existence and even this feels like it's too much. I frequently just give up on any kind of self care, even showers.

I tried everything, I really did. Talking to people. Self discipline. Meditation. Physical activity. Taking genuine care of myself, trying to step out of my comfort zone. I've been on every existing med under the sun- and every possible combination of 'em. I am absolutely terrified of the possibility that I am just the perfect combination of traits and characteristics to be someone you just can't help. Someone who won't get better. 

I've been hospitalized 14 or 15 times (mind you I'm not ever 30 yet), kinda stopped keeping track of amount of times I ended up in the looney bin.

I have experienced the state of just... not being. Suicide attempt, 5 days in a coma. It was so... nothingy, you know? Absolute, incomprehensible peace.

Polish mental health care is absolutely atrocious. If you find yourself being locked up there, the only thing you can do is just slowly marinating in your suffering and fear. You're lucky if you manage to score a single,  truly laughable "therapy session" just to try and circle through as many topics as you can mention.

I just begged to get electroshock therapy. It was approved by every doctor who had a say in it... except one. He never even talked to me. The reason I feel like was purely financial, which was just absurd. How can someone so callously deny another person a chance to stop their suffering.

Fuck, the concept of god just makes me laugh; cause if there was one, he would be the most sadistic, despicable asshole in existence if he allows such agony to take place in my head (and every person's who suffers alongside me).

I'm so sick of it. I hate the fact that I am aware of anything at all, that genuinely pissed me off. No place to run. No place to hide. I can feel any remnants of my soul dying.

Lookin for funny peeps to shoot some shit with 🐥

Each of those options is on the table: a casual chat, friendship, sumfin more) as I've unfortunately fallen into a mental hole of sadness and misery i can't seem to escape from figuratively speaking :T

Let's skip the boring small talk, instead please answer these questions in your dm:

1. what's something you did that was objectively bad, but you are/were proud of it?

2. what would be your minor superpower that doesn't help in anything?

3. what was the closest thing to a paranormal experience that you... experienced? ( •. H .• ) Share some boooos with me!

4. hypothetically you meet someone who can accurately tell you when you'll die- would you agree or not?

...I have quite a few more of these nonsensical questions if you're wondering 🤣 also feel free to ask me about whatever!

I'd love to see/hear about something that made you laugh the most in recent times 😎

About me:

Some basics: my name is Marta, I'm 29 and am Polish (a traditional, epic song about pierogis play in the background)

To get these more "formal" things out of the way so you know sumfin about my potato self:

I'm a total horrorhead, true crime junkie and a gamer at heart ❤️ (recently replaying RE4 remake) we can talk games as well!

What do I look like?

I have pretty long hair, some tattoos and piercings & stretched ears :3

Lookin for funny peeps to shoot some shit with 🐥

Each of those options is on the table: a casual chat, friendship, sumfin more) as I've unfortunately fallen into a mental hole of sadness and misery i can't seem to escape from figuratively speaking :T

Let's skip the boring small talk, instead please answer these questions in your dm:

1. what's something you did that was objectively bad, but you are/were proud of it?

2. what would be your minor superpower that doesn't help in anything?

3. what was the closest thing to a paranormal experience that you... experienced? ( •. H .• ) Share some boooos with me!

4. hypothetically you meet someone who can accurately tell you when you'll die- would you agree or not?

...I have quite a few more of these nonsensical questions if you're wondering 🤣 also feel free to ask me about whatever!

I'd love to see/hear about something that made you laugh the most in recent times 😎

About me:

Some basics: my name is Marta, I'm 29 and am Polish (a traditional, epic song about pierogis play in the background)

To get these more "formal" things out of the way so you know sumfin about my potato self:

I'm a total horrorhead, true crime junkie and a gamer at heart ❤️ (recently replaying RE4 remake) we can talk games as well!

What do I look like?

I have pretty long hair, some tattoos and piercings & stretched ears :3

I would love to hear about some maybe lesser known titles (played Cultic recently and LOVED it)

I've played mainstream options like Dead Spaces of course