r/depression_help

I feel as if no matter what I accomplish in life my life will be meaningless. Even if I break all the records of life I still won’t amount to anything. One day I’ll be replaced, forgotten. I remember almost everything people tell me yet I can’t think of anything positive. Reaching for the stars is impossible when the universe is constantly expanding faster than we could ever go. I don’t even feel real anymore. It’s a constant cycle. I ruin every single opportunity. I’m an unlikable piece of shit. I keep thinking someone will one day love me but I know that’s not true. Every new person I meet no matter how hard I try they always end up leaving.

Hi all 👋

Curious if any of you benefit from psychedelics and if you do—how often do you do them to maintain good mental health and stave off the depression? I’m trying to stay off medication due to the side effects it’s given me in the past and I already have hobbies and meditate..

Thank you

Hi. So, I don’t really have anyone in my life to ask this, so I’m posting here.

I guess what I’m asking is: what options do I have if what I really need is something closer to a consistent friend-type support person? Like someone I can actually talk to regularly outside of therapy, not just once a week sessions. I struggle a lot with functioning and being alone, and I feel like I need more ongoing contact and accountability.

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I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for 11 years, and it’s gotten really bad recently.

I don’t take care of myself. I barely eat, don’t sleep right, don’t go out, and I don’t really do anything anymore.

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I have AVPD and I don’t really have friends. Even with family I still feel alone. I work a customer-facing job and just get through it.

I feel like a husk. No connection, no hobbies, no real life outside of work.

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I’ve tried therapy, a dietitian, and a doctor. It doesn’t feel like enough. Therapy is one hour a week and then I’m alone again.

What I feel like I need is something closer to a consistent friend-type support person I can check in with regularly, because I shut down a lot and struggle to function on my own.

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I can’t afford IOP and don’t have insurance right now. I don’t really know what else exists that actually provides that kind of ongoing support.

I’ve looked at peer groups, coaching, and apps like WEConnect but I don’t know if any of it is actually what I’m looking for.

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I just feel like I’m out of options. I’m so fucking tired.

If anyone has ideas, I’d really appreciate it. Thanks for reading.

I can’t tell you how much I wish I was someone else. Every single day it’s like I’m afraid of my own reflection. I get worked up when I see my body. I stare all these pictures of these perfect model women. Celebrities, actresses, performers, athletes. I want to be like them so badly. I cry every single morning. My wails feel like prayers. There are literal astronauts falling back to earth as I type this and I’m just…like even is the point of my own life. I used to be so smart. I used to be talented and full of life, and now I just I don’t know. I feel like I’m mourning myself. I genuinely feel like I’m not even here anymore. I don’t recognize myself. I’m so ashamed of who I am all the time. I just wish I didn’t feel so worthless all the time. All the damn time. I just can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to be me. I hate being me.

Hello, I want to start this by saying English is not my first language so I'm sorry if I get any terms wrong.

I've been neglecting my teeth for about 3 years.

I know I have cavities, my teeth are stained, one of my front teeth has shifted a bit, all in all I know my dental hygiene is absolute shit.

I know my dentist has been angry at me, I've been going to him since I was 12 I think? And I've never been great at taking care of my mouth, but I've been straight up not doing anything lately.

Well, I have this metal string behind my teeth. Recently it has snapped, and it's extremely sharp. It's been fucking up my lip for a week now, it hurts a lot I can't stand it.

I know I should call the dentist and tell him, but I also know he'll see the state of my mouth and be extremely disappointed. I don't think I can handle another person being disappointed in me because of how much I've been neglecting my health.

But speaking hurts, my lower lip is constantly bleeding because it keeps catching on the bar. I keep telling myself that if my mouth gets any worse I'll just kill myself, but I don't want to die yet.

I don't know what to do, I don't know for how much longer I can handle this.

I haven't been to school in nearly a month because of my anxiety of going. I keep telling myself last year was so much worse because of my attendance but If I keep this up it’ll be much worse, and I know it. I know what I’m doing is wrong, I try to find ways to care or things to care about to help me go but it doesn’t work. Of course I have things I care about, things I want to do later in life, things I’ll have to do in order to have a decent life, but I feel I can’t do that if I don’t go to school. Yet I still don’t go. Everything’s about money and having a job, I don’t think I can do that without a diploma. Wanna know what’s even better? My schools closing, the year before I graduate. Mine along with serval others that are closing, so I won’t really have anywhere else to go. So I thought “hey, maybe I can try to graduate early” Can’t do that without going to school. I’m lucky to even get promoted to the next grade. They had a meeting about me last week, but I didn’t know about it so I wasn’t there. My mom said that they said if I come back I still have a chance at getting promoted.(she doesn’t know about me wanting to graduate early, but some teachers do) She told them I’d be back Monday, it’s Friday, still not back. Sunday night was absolutely horrible, I couldn’t sleep and eventually I just started crying. Monday night wasn’t so great either I got this weird feeling in my chest, I can’t really explain it tho. In my delusional mind I still think I might be able to graduate early. I know everyones on here searching for help, but please if anyone can help me I’d appreciate it very much.