u/rebeccasingsong

F 27, black looking to make friends

Hello, just as the title says looking for fellow friends based in Brooklyn (mostly crown heights, bed stuy, Bushwick). Interests are cooking, art, gaming, foodie culture, pop culture. Also open to any groups or clubs to join esp where creation is concerned!

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u/rebeccasingsong — 10 hours ago

Beauty of Joseon?

Anyone have any experience with this chemical sunscreen? I seem to be allergic to chemicals sunscreens but this great mineral one I have my eye on is expensive and in the mean time I wanna opt for something cheaper if it’s gentle. Anyone with sensitive skin have luck with beauty of joseon?

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u/rebeccasingsong — 21 hours ago

The manor

Sorry if this is silly but how do I leave the area? Like the manor AND flying waters? How do I progress past this point after opening the secret doors of the mansion and getting Maelle

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u/rebeccasingsong — 3 days ago

Severe health OCD

I suffer severe health anxiety/ocd and this condition triggers it a lot.

I have a fear of epilepsy/seizures so the derealization, Deja Vu (this is getting evaluated for the final time at neurology in 2 months) and other neurological events I have before getting the urge to go number 2 can be so scary.

Being out and about and feeling suddenly “out of it” until you sit down or use the bathroom is exhausting.

Anyone else constantly triggered having this condition?

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u/rebeccasingsong — 4 days ago

Elevating legs….

Was feeling bleh and put my left leg up and I felt nearly an immediate difference! I was feeling dissociated/derealization and just an off feeling but I felt “back to earth” upon doing it. Didn’t realize this is a thing until a google search

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u/rebeccasingsong — 4 days ago

Fear of seizures is terrible

Anyone else struggle with repeated Deja vu that doctors aren’t concerned about?

So for 6 years I’ve experienced repeated Deja vu episodes. I experience them in two ways: fleeting and super frequent episodes that are easily triggered and easily stopped by thoughts. Then there’s type two where it’s stronger and may present with a symptom alongside (twinge of nausea) and this can be stopped too if I catch it in time. However idk if it’s really me stopping it or it just stopping by itself but likely the former. One damning example is in 2022, my I was outside by myself and had to visit my bf later that day and was thinking of how I had to get his stepmom a perfume she liked. Then I randomly had a “vision” of me giving it to her already and her saying thanks so I called my bf confused, asking if I’d already given it to her and he said no. I figured I’d just confused the memory of her reacting to me wearing the perfume and asking for it for herself with actually buying it for her. But as you can see this is scarily convincing of something more.

I also have lately been getting derealization a lot that presents in the same manner as the DV- frequent and triggered by thoughts then episodes that can also can be controlled with thoughts. I’m terrified of epilepsy and have been for years. Also the DV returned yesterday after thinking about it so much lately so the whole past 2 days I’ve had DV and derealization. I’ve also seen neurology and regular medical doctors about this and they’re not concerned so I’ve never tested with EEG.

Update: derealization has stopped with taking old magnesium glycinate I had in my house.

Anyone relate?

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u/rebeccasingsong — 8 days ago
▲ 2 r/OCD

Health anxiety about s****res

My ocd about epilepsy/seizures is so crippling lately. Repeated Deja vu (been this way for 6 years, telling multiple doctors even outside of neuro) has me spiraling. I’m praying it’s somatic symptom ocd or migraine than epilepsy. I’m so scared and tired of being scared waiting for something even scarier to happen

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u/rebeccasingsong — 10 days ago

Struggling with cynicism among other things

I’ve started adopting afropessimism (tbf I have a lot to learn so excuse if I screw up the meaning) and it’s created such a negative outlook in humanity for me. Same with getting more into feminism.

The fact that blk ppl are hated across the world and we’ve done nothing wrong makes me feel like there’s something intrinsically wrong with humanity. It’s misinformation exists but for the most part, everyone acknowledges yt ppl are the ones who did the colonizing and killing and ppl know we were slaves. Even if they try to deny it to get a reaction out of us, it’s the standard reality. And YET. Here we are.

And the more I get into feminism and realize how much *** crave power over women, I notice this in other demographics. Non-blk ppl crave power over blk ppl, lightskin ppl crave power over dark skin ppl across race, lower-income ppl crave power over other low income ppl, and so on. Even in smaller ways, even “good” ppl have this ingrained in them from society. It makes me feel hopeless and misanthropic that marginalized ppl learn nothing from their marginalization. Just look at the Israel-Palestine situation. How are ppl who experienced the holocaust capable of doing that to someone else? I know this is all a matter of socialization and I don’t think humans are inherently Gotham city villains but I can’t help but feel like there’s something inherent to human nature that makes this pattern exist everywhere and so hard to defeat.

This world is so insanely bleak to me as a dsbw

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u/rebeccasingsong — 11 days ago
▲ 3 r/ocdwomen+1 crossposts

I was told I have OCD by 2 therapists but have yet to be confirmed by a psych evaluation, which is coming up next week.

So for 6 years I’ve experienced repeated Deja vu episodes. I experience them in two ways: fleeting and super frequent episodes that are easily triggered and easily stopped by thoughts. Then there’s type two where it’s stronger and may present with a symptom alongside (twinge of nausea) and this can be stopped too if I catch it in time. However idk if it’s really me stopping it or it just stopping by itself but likely the former. One damning example is in 2022, my I was outside by myself and had to visit my bf later that day and was thinking of how I had to get his stepmom a perfume she liked. Then I randomly had a “vision” of me giving it to her already and her saying thanks so I called my bf confused, asking if I’d already given it to her and he said no. I figured I’d just confused the memory of her reacting to me wearing the perfume and asking for it for herself with actually buying it for her. But as you can see this is scarily convincing of something more.

I also have lately been getting derealization a lot that presents in the same manner as the DV- frequent and triggered by thoughts then episodes that can also can be controlled with thoughts. I’m terrified of epilepsy and have been for years. Also the DV returned yesterday after thinking about it so much lately so the whole past 2 days I’ve had DV and derealization. I’ve also seen neurology and regular medical doctors about this and they’re not concerned so I’ve never tested with EEG.

I’m wondering If I just have somatic symptom ocd and quite frankly, PRAYING I do. Just needed to vent this somewhere cuz I’m going insane

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u/rebeccasingsong — 14 days ago

I think that’s what it’s called. I get that a lot lately where whenever I’m out, I get hit with “am I real” and my body feels out of it. My head does.

Now I was told I have dysautonomia some months ago so I get a number of strange symptoms when I have to do a Bowel movement, a lot of them have to do with my head. I noticed this was the cause bc some time after my stomach started hurting and I’d just eaten but despite efforts to bring myself back to reality and calm the impending anxiety, it stayed hardcore. Telling myself that I’m real and all of what I’m experiencing is legit helps usually but this was harder to shake. This was an hour ago and some. I’m now better but still feeling out of it. Like my head is foggy. It’s the worst to feel like I’m out of control.

I also conveniently have health OCD about seizures so I worry this is it but I am able to navigate it with thinking the correct thoughts also functioning remains the same. I feel like my reaction to the feeling makes it worse.

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u/rebeccasingsong — 18 days ago