u/kuroreaper25

Look at anime when I was coming up, you had to hide that shit you couldn’t let people know that you was into anime because like people would roast you, for it, nowadays, I see teens wearing Naruto headbands or akatsuki cloak, just vibing , I deadass seen a dude working construction fixing the the pavement with a attack on titan scouts sticker on his helmet,

And when it came to video games back in the day, you can only play “safe games” mainstream NPC shit like madden, NBA 2K, call of duty, GTA, and Fortnite towards the end of high school, being quirky was not cool back in the day you deadass kept that shit to yourself or risk becoming the verbal or worse physical punching bag of the friend group.

And when it came to dating forget about it, because all the nerd spaces where all male dominated, ratio was like 30 to 1 or something crazy like that and even then she most likely had a boyfriend who was not into the stuff you was into, she was like 17 bro was 22 and had his own apartment and car, and before y’all hit me with the oh “the nerds lacked charisma” how are you supposed to build confidence and charisma if you are constantly getting laughed and being used as a punchline for jokes at your expense

That’s like trying to grow a tall tree but it keeps getting cut down every time it grows , as im pushing 30 look at 2010-2019 as the dark ages.

Because I find that very prejudice and very hateful to do, you mean to tell me I have no agency over my life and I have to be at the victim and at the mercy of other people, I have a 11-year-old nephew. I never show my nephew black trauma porn and if I do show him things about the civil rights movement and bad things happen to minorities in America I balanced it out with positive images, black, billionaires, black entrepreneurship YES THEY EXIST,

I’ll never forget the day at a teacher tell me to my face that trying hard in life waking up early grinding, locking in wanting success, so I can have a better life than people in my family who came before me is trying to fit into white cis male patriarch forms of oppression, it was this white teacher she had blonde hair, since when is ambition in life internalized racism ?

, my uncle’s and my mentor never taught me to beg people for nothing. They taught me if you want some you gotta go out and work for it, and this is not me trying to sound like a centrist, but a lot of leftist in their rhetoric, sometimes feels as if they’re infantilizing minorities and I don’t like being viewed with pity like i’m beneath you, you can show empathy towards people who are less privileged than you without viewing like they can’t help themselves or they are not competent

It’s like it makes adulting 10 times harder you get labeled slow by your coworkers for not being able to pick up on things. People have less empathy and patience for you as you get older because they at the service level think nothing is wrong with you and you’re supposed to just get it by now. Therapy doesn’t work. Tell you some stupid shit like breathe like breathe out close your eyes.

There is no IEP in the real world for all the foreign folk IEP is an individualized education program, so while you see people, your age getting engaged or getting licenses or moving out, you just rot on discord or you focus more on your hobbies and if you’re not Caucasian or you come from immigrant household, they say you’re possessed by evil spirits like my mom says I have . Asperger is just a demonic spirit and my body caused me to act weird,

Dating forget about it don’t even bother because the humiliation and bullying that you experienced in high school cause you to shell up and not engage with people in fear of a repeat of your teen years, so self medicate with alcohol and drugs, going to bed on night, listening to music hoping you die in your sleep will wake up just to repeat the nightmare again.

I was wrongly accused of being rude/disrespectful because I didn’t wanna engage in a conversation with a woman at a bar because I was afraid of her making fun of my voice. It was in college bar, my friend’s a bartender, and this blonde girl brought me a drink. It was on Halloween night. I was dressed up like Jin from ghost of Tsushima, I had to take off my mask, I drink and then I put my mask back on,

Her friend accused me of being rude and ignoring her I always have the mindset of don’t put yourself out there and don’t give people a reason to laugh at you. Try not to be as cringe as much as you can. I kind of learned these behaviors in high school and carried it into my 20s, even in terms of the way I dress I wear a lot of black clothes because brighter colors are more visible to human eye and darker colors do the opposite so people are less likely to notice you because our brains are wired to notice bright colors first

If you grow up black or Hispanic mental health is not ever talked about like that and if it is just talked about real vaguely and not very politically correct oh that’s so and so he a little bit slow or that’s so and so so he a little bit off, it was sometimes it was looked at as “white people nonsense”, These are the words of some people I grew up around, not mine.

I remember when I got in trouble at school for having a meltdown and we had a meeting with the Teacher, the principal, the school counselor and my mom and myself, on the car ride back home, my mom said ain’t nothing wrong with you. What you need to do is go visit your father so you can get your ass whipped to get some act right, and my white teacher did not help at all by telling my classmates about it as a way of educating them. This one girl said ain’t no Black people with autism boy you just slow in reference to me.

My hispanic friend had a similar experience his dad would take off his belt if my friend did anything weird or acted off, that’s what he told me, and if you cry, the response was usually man up or I’ll give you something to cry for

Remember back in a 2000s and 2010s, you had all those like medium budget comedy movies like super bad those parody movies like superhero movie or scary movie don’t mess with the Zohan, Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, J and silent Bob, death of Stalin, undercover brother,the borat, soul plane white chicks ,the 40 year old virgin , 21 jump street

What did all those movies have in common? It was sit down. Turn your brain off and just watch the absurdity on the screen something that you and your friends or family can just sit down and watch and get a good laugh together nowadays, I feel like because of the smart phones, everyone has their own entertainment and it has become more decentralized. back in the 2000s and even the mid 2010s most people back then watched similar shit to a certain extent

And also another issue I have movies today is that things go to the streaming services way too fast like I remember when sinners came out which is a good movie that I recommend you wanna watch in less than a month and a half was already on Amazon Prime Video like what the fuck.

I’m orthodox and they have a really hard time throwing my kicks because my kicks come out looking like soccer kicks cause my hips are too stiff and even when I do hip exercises, my hips are so stiff. It’s hard to throw kicks without like hurting myself. the pain isn’t that bad but it’s like a slight discomfort cause I have to step out an angle a little bit with my left foot so I can get the torque and the and the power for my right leg.

I can sort of teep to the chest but my biggest challenge has been kicking and everyone who has started training with has already got kicking. Way better than me no matter what I just keep messing up the technique over and over and over again.

I can low kick and throw kicks to the calf. I just cannot body kick. It’s so hard any tips

My brain does not accept information like actively blocks it out. You can explain something to me 1000 times and I can do it and not get it right. It’ll take me longer than others to get it right and that causes a lot of people to get mad at me and frustrated at me. I’ve gotten written up and terminated from jobs because of it.

M 26 I never really had friends that were women growing up. I was bullied a lot in high school because I was smaller than the other students and I was thin and I wore glasses. Men have high functioning autism so I never got the chance to actually build my confidence always had the mindset that you have to be a ninja and keep your head down to avoid negative confrontation or negative experiences.

I like kickboxing/Muay Thai, but the gym I go to is vastly majority men in the woman that do show usually quit after the trial is done. We were inspiring last week, and I took a punch to my nose pretty hard. I got onto the subway and went home as I’m walking. I see a group of college girls. I did find one to be physically attractive, but I knew in my mind if I said something to her and her friends would’ve probably laughed at me so I kept my head down and kept the pushing.

When I went home, I felt like I could not breathe out my right nostril I went, and I grabbed some tissue and I sneeze in a large glob of blood come out of my nose from sparring earlier it’s crazy how I’m not afraid to take physical damage to my body, but I’m too afraid to go talk to a girl so I don’t think it’s a confidence issue. It’s something deeper inside my self-conscious.

The reason why I abandoned my old friend group, cause I got sick and tired of being the punching bag they would put me down and call me names and the little me lie makeup stories about me to make themselves look cool and make me look pathetic. Especially around a woman whenever we would go to an event, they would use me as entertainment and make fun of me and crack jokes at my expense to entertain the woman to make them laugh.

And it was always three against one and I would just sit there in my mind with a drink in my hand, wondering why,
I feel like for a lot of men with Asperger‘s. That’s usually which you’re relegated to when you do manage to get into a friend group so you’re usually use video games on the Internet as escapism and when you finally do process what happened to you if your high functioning enough it hurts even more because you have the self-awareness to know what’s happening to you but you have a hard time masking to make sure it doesn’t happen again.

It’s kind of crazy how rockstar games goes out of their way to avoid the Midwest ,would be a pretty cool game to play