Yesterday morning I got up from my couch and my vision went black and I fell. I woke up on the floor really dazed confused and strangely was like "I'll just go back to sleep." I slept all day when I thought I would've awaken to go school. I had a terrible headache when I woke up. I have noise/light sensitivity and still a persistent but no cut or bump on my head where I fell.
Not intended as hate btw!
Mine is Young & Dumb. Patron saint of sucking cock makes me wither a little bit more every time I hear it despite it being one of my favorite songs
Found out I was silent celiac a week ago, have been on a GF diet since and wow! I know I still have a long way to go in terms of healing my body, but who knew years after being embarrassed on how fat my hands were it was due to swelling and edema from celiac (as least I suspect since it is the only thing I have changed!) I am hoping once I start losing weight and get this inflammation under control more it will go down and look like normal hands!
I was 120 lbs/54 kgs in the first photo and 150 lbs/68 kgs (stress eating these past few months) so I was a lot skinnier in my "before". Is it in my head or does anyone else see it?
So here are my DNA results: https://www.reddit.com/r/23andme/comments/1t6hro0/results_as_a_russian_adoptee_in_the_usa/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button
I was a Russian adoptee born in 2006. I know my father attended university in Kazakhstan in the early 2000s. Would it have been common for a Russian man to do this, or do you think it's likely that he was Kazakh? I am trying to pinpoint as much info as possible in order to maybe find him. I don't know if it's common for Kazakh people to mainly be European? Thank you!
I am an international adoptee from Russia. My parents adopted me when I was 3. All I know is that my birth mother was 19, in university, and had her mother take care of me for two years before deciding that adoption was the best option. My father may have possibly been Kazhakistani (he went to university in Kazakhstan). I do not know if my parents are still together. The only things that I was allowed to take were my mother's baby blanket, my father's sweatshirt with his university on it, and apparently a letter my mother wrote for me when I was 18.
I was always told this was a closed adoption, that my APs had no information about my BPs but I am starting to doubt it. Would a closed adoption really allow me to keep memorabilia that could potentially be traced back to them (hence the sweatshirt). They also didn't inform me of this letter's existence until around a month ago when we had a falling out, just a piece of leverage they could over my head. I did a DNA test with not a lot of luck.
I am not sure what I can do at this point. I have thought about contacting the university, but idk if that's a long shot since I don't know what he looked like or his name. I also know my APs will not be compliant with me digging for information through them.
Everything about modern technology is hindering the human existence. Cellphones are designed to be as addictive as possible, and most people spend hours a day scrolling. The only reason a phone should exist is for calling and texting. Adding everything under the sun imaginable to a phone has made the majority of people lazier.
I was riding the subway today and 90% of people were glued to their phone. It's apocalyptic that people can't seem go on a walk without music or podcasts, or every single second of your existence you need to be entertained. It's made us lonelier too, hence the loneliness epidemic. Wish it would be socially acceptable to have a Nokia brick.
I recently did a dna test: https://www.reddit.com/r/23andme/comments/1t6hro0/results_as_a_russian_adoptee_in_the_usa/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button (side note is this eye shape common in Russian people or is it just me lol?)
Growing up I was teased for my eyes shape (I am Russian adoptee in the USA). My mom adopted me hoping I would look similar to her (she mainly as English and Dutch ancestry), as we both have light hair and eyes. I look nothing like her. I have tight almond eyes and high cheekbones with a straight nose, she has big round eyes, longer face, and button nose. She has warm toned light skin, I am cool toned with very fair skin.
I grew up in Oregon, so I am not sure what are the most popular european ethnicity is here, but none of them looked like me. It was kind of alienating because I kinda looked like them in terms of coloring, but facial features were so different. I don't know if this is just my experience or if it's actually true?
I have been deliberating on why my parents adopted me. They already had three previous biological children, all of which were healthy. I always asked them why they chose me, and they said "Your story just spoke to us" which is funny because I didn't really have that much of a tragic back story. My mother was 19 and got pregnant when she was in university and didn't want to keep it. Why did they take the time, money, and resources, to make multiple trips to Russia in order to adopt me? I am not sure how much the adoption fees were, but it would have been so much cheaper to adopt a child back the USA. They didn't even try to search for an American adoptee.
I truly think they adopted me in order fulfill an image. Another checkbox of their list of good deeds. My parents, especially mother, were ultra-religious and they may have been facing pressure from their church to adopt to prove they were righteous catholics. My biological mother had written me a letter to give to me when I was 18, but I just found about now (just turned 20). Due to a severe falling out I had with them, they're now holding it over my head. They are not and will never be good people, my saviors, or any bullshit that a lot of adoptive parents like to claim.
I hate how they deliberately adopted me to look like my mom, damn well knowing their kids are mixed and that was going to lead to confusion and racism on both sides. I was always an addition to the family, not a member. They let their son sexually harass me to save face and embarrassment from actually dealing with the consequences of their actions. Who would actually do that to a child they loved?
And despite the anger and resentment I hold, I still feel indebted to them. Intense religious upbringing should be considered abuse idc what anyone else says. I am trying to unlearn all the stuff they drilled into my head, but will need years of therapy. I am so mad. I hate adoption, especially international adoption, so so much.
Financial means /= the true ability to raise a child.
I always took it as kissing off his heartbreak, which he knows he will officially feel with the listener, but still wants her anyways. Does anyone else have any other interpretations?
Did a DNA test a few years ago, but just realized they updated (many months ago lol). Don't know a lot about my biological parents. It's funny though because people always asked me what I was. I didn't look like a lot of white kids in my area. People always commented on my eye shape and I was teased for it which is why I included it! I wonder if it's from the Siberian, or if something that distant would even affect it?
So for some reason I was teased growing up for my eye shape. Obviously I am white but other white kids would pull back their eyes to mimic my eye shape. I don't have a lot of lid space to do cool eye looks. Is there any technique I could incorporate to make my eyes look bigger. I am new to makeup, my parents never let me wear it so any tips would be welcome. I feel so insecure and want to become a better version of myself. Thanks ❤️
Disclaimer I am not saying it's hard to be pale/white, just something I have noticed.
My mother would always tell me go lay out in the sun, she even bought me fake tan and told me to put it on for prom. I have never been able to tan, just burn so when I was 14 and in quarantine, I decided to just start wearing sunscreen consistently to prevent aging and getting freckled.
Ironically the only other people who comment on my skin tone are other white people. Some girls say they couldn't imagine being pale, that being pale is ugly, and I should spray tan. I tell them no and they really cannot fathom that I don't want to be orange instead of my natural skin tone. I feel like it's crazy that society brainwashes girls into changing their natural features in order to fit a certain ideal at the expense of their health (skin cancer) and money. I also think it's crazy to think it's acceptable to tell someone to change their features like this.
Now that summer is coming up, girls have already used my arm to show how tan they are? Like what are we doing....
I have gotten into Kombucha in the last month. I am now addicted to it. I drink 32 oz a day and haven't had issues, and feel healthier. However I am worried if it's bad for me to drink this much?
I used to drink like 4L of water a day and it's gone down dramatically lol.
My thoughts going into this were neutral, as it just popped up on my Tappytoon home page. The synoposis was interesting enough. Huge TW for rape and disturbing themes in general. I was not prepared when going into this. This was an awful manwha in my opinion.
She starts off as a maid at the king's palace (of course she does), and he is the prince. She endures years of abuse from maids, and is helplessly stupid and follows his orders. One day she was told to go clean a room, and this guy from another kingdom comes in and tries to rape her, and the ML tells him to? (He later says he stopped it from happening by sending the priest in later but still wtf).
The king dies, and the ML proceeds to the throne. He forces her to become his lover, never letting her leave. He destroys everything and everyone she loves, her paintings, her teacher, and kills her first love. He then proceeds to rape her throughout the manwha. I don't think any of it was consensual. She takes a tonic that makes her infertile supposedly, but he's like "My seed is stronger than that." or some shit.
I stopped reading after that because I was so horrified but apparently she somehow reverts to the mentality of a 9 year old and becomes pregnant with his child? Genuinely who is writing these trash stories and who is enjoying them.
I love male yanderes as much as the next person, but wtaf.
https://youtu.be/Ivi8qN95meQ?si=IVmCh_IsyfgHGH2i
This whole album is phenomenal, completely different than their current sound but just as beautiful in my opinion. I don't know how I didn't find out about this until now.
I think it was an unreleased album produced in 2011/2012 from what I could find. It's only on youtube (no spotify), but it's so worth it.
Obviously music taste is subjective and all that
All my friends say this, and while I think it's true in some regards, I also think they all sound so unique and beautiful. I think my favorite feature of them is that they're all melodic and follow a similar pattern. However I hate when people say all their songs sound the same as criticism because that doesn't make their songs any less good?
Also of course if you're not familiar with the band they're going to sound similar, but the more you listen to their discography they start to sound a lot more different.
I haven't been able to focus for months. I scroll on my phone all the time. I have gained 20 lbs. I feel like I have lost coherent thought. I care about things I shouldn't. I wish I had a time machine and I could go back to a time without phones. Social media makes me miserable. I am stuck in a loop I don't know how to get out of.