u/TaciturnNorse

Idk how to explain it, but it is an internal shaking feeling, but I am not actually shaking, it just has tbat feeling that shaking gives...almost like my insides, arms, legs, body, are tense and trembling but theyre not actually shaking...just that feeling..if that makes sense?

Edit. Theyre called internal tremors apparently and they're scaring me bad and today is already a very bad health anxiety day

I have had air hunger since I was a child. I have anxiety. Ptsd. I cant even sit down at dinner without rocking nonstop back and forth from nerves and built up tension from years of stress and trauma. I do not smoke and never have. Never drank. I dont do drugs. I dont take any meds aside from Tylenol. I have a family history of high BP and heart failure, my mom had it. All my siblings on high BP meds. I am 5'7, 136lbs, active, lift weights. My only symptoms are air hunger that makes me yawn and gasp for air until I get a satisfying breath, I get one, the the cycle starts again. It can last hours or days, then stops. I often feel off balace and a faux sense of dizziness. No chest pains. Pulse usually 70-90, but more in the 100s when active or walking. My last BP reading at urgent care was 139/89, but last year when I checked my BP a ton at home, it always ranged around 117/84 or so. My pulse ox at home is always 99%/100%, but at urgent care it was 96%. I am a major hypocondriac And cant afford to see a doctor so im paranoid I'm dying despite having air hunger since I was just a kid (I remember being 12 having it, nobody ever took it seriously), I have panic attacks a lot. Im worried i have heart failure bc I had covid twice and people say that gives you it :(

I have bpd. I control it the best I can without meds/therapy, but it is hard. I NEVER split openly on anyone, but if it is over text, I will, to myself out loud when alone, say cruel things. Things like "I fucking hate you. I wish we never met" etc to handle the split when it happens, but i never voice these things to anyone I split on at all. But the fact I even say it at all out loud (alone. Nobody ever hears it), makes me feel so bad. It doesn't help that I have paranoia and worry this is somehow bring recorded or somehow proves im a bad person. Anyone else? Help. Basically I feel bad for saying mean things about ppl I love behind their back in frustration bc I do this instead of doing it to their face. I never mean it. I feel bad even though they never even hear it. My mind thinks the universe is somehow keeping track of it and ugh...

I am going into this job soon and very excited. I am in sc. Curious what you get paid in your state per day/hour

I wanna have bloodwork done eventually just to calm my nerves, but I am terrified it is going to show I have some deadly or serious issue. Or that I am low or high in something. I am geuineinly terrified and it makes me avoid it even more. I am scared something will be wrong with me in the results

I know all the sig codes. Do well w the meds. I can do it all, but not the math. I have the math learning disability. I cannot even grasp the basic math on the questions. I failed every single one even with a calculator. I am fucking upset.

April 15th my female, indoor, spayed cat began to puke. She did it daily up until today. We took her to the vet over and over. Bloodwork was perfect. Dental stuff fine. No kidney issues. Nothing wrong. She had an abcess on her belly from biting herself (no fleas but she was on flea meds to be safe anyway), the abcess got golf ball sized so she vet began to treat it. But the vomitting issue did not stop and it was unrelated to the abcess. She then last week started to lose weight. From 10lbs to 7lbs . Refused to eat yesterday so she went 24hrs without food. Took her back to the vet today to be put down. We tried nausea meds. They did not help. We tried everything we could and it didn't help. She was suffering. Wouldn't eat. The vet couldn't find what was wrong but cancer or bowel obstruction was suspected. Im sad. Was this the right choice. We tried for weeks, going to the vet over and over. She was puking nonstop daily. Then she stopped pooping and peeing/didn't eat..so we knew it was time for her own sake. Im worried we didn't try hard enough. I lost a cat to cancer in March. She was 17 :( she had a history of pica too

April 15th my female, indoor, spayed cat began to puke. She did it daily up until today. We took her to the vet over and over. Bloodwork was perfect. Dental stuff fine. No kidney issues. Nothing wrong. She had an abcess on her belly from biting herself (no fleas but she was on flea meds to be safe anyway), the abcess got golf ball sized so she vet began to treat it. But the vomitting issue did not stop and it was unrelated to the abcess. She then last week started to lose weight. From 10lbs to 7lbs . Refused to eat yesterday so she went 24hrs without food. Took her back to the vet today to be put down. We tried nausea meds. They did not help. We tried everything we could and it didn't help. She was suffering. Wouldn't eat. The vet couldn't find what was wrong but cancer or bowel obstruction was suspected. Im sad. Was this the right choice. We tried for weeks, going to the vet over and over. She was puking nonstop daily. Then she stopped pooping and peeing/didn't eat..so we knew it was time for her own sake. Im worried we didn't try hard enough. I lost a cat to cancer in March. She was 17 :( my cat had a history of pica...

My cat is spayed, female, indoor, 11. She has slowly been declining despite good bloodwork. It started with a bump on her belly due to her biting herself (she has no fleas. On flea meds too. She has pica..eats her fur..fake plants..etc), the bump ended up becoming a nasty golf ball abcess and we got her on meds for it. Vet gave convenia. Did not lance it. Its been a week. It is less red but still big. Vet said they may do surgery. Cat has been vomitting daily since April 15th. Vets say nothing is wrong. Gave her cernia..it does nothing. She is now losing weight rapidly, won't eat at all today. Im so lost. Its my dad's cat, we are trying to decide what to do. Her bloodwork is good but clearly somethings very wrong. She is stressed very easily and taking her back to the vet seems to stress her even more but im gonna try and take her asap tomorrow. Is it time or..? She went from 10lbs to 7lbs in a week, she feels so boney. She sits hunched up a lot. Her teeth are ok.

Afab, living as a trans man, stealth, cis passing, binary, for 7yrs now. I am now starting to question stuff. I am definitely NOT a woman at all, or feminine. I want a male body, so t, top surgery, bottom surgery if I get lucky. But the thing is..my mind..soul..I do not feel..a gender lately anymore. I am seriously wondering if im NB...idk how it works really or what im feeling even counts. I dont fit in w men, and especially not women. I feel out cast from both sides for various reasons. But I desire a male body, with male traits, but I want to be seen as..gender less if it makes sense??? Idk.. just need advice.

Afab, living as a trans man, stealth, cis passing, binary, for 7yrs now. I am now starting to question stuff. I am definitely NOT a woman at all, or feminine. I want a male body, so t, top surgery, bottom surgery if I get lucky. But the thing is..my mind..soul..I do not feel..a gender lately anymore. I am seriously wondering if im NB...idk how it works really or what im feeling even counts. I dont fit in w men, and especially not women. I feel out cast from both sides for various reasons. But I desire a male body, with male traits, but I want to be seen as..gender less if it makes sense??? Idk.. just need advice.

Mine doesn't and im worried its a fake. It has the tags but I've owned two of these so far and neither had the tots logo on the inside of the mask, yet my tots ends one has it??

Female cat, spayed, indoor, 10. She bit herself while cleaning a week ago. It left a wound like a pimple that bled and grew. Took her to the vet, they did barely anything. I notice today that the lump on her, which is on her belly, is now larger than a gold ball, warm, red, so painful and red shes struggling to walk, won't eat, lost a pound in a week and feels very thin. She was 10lbs. Now 9lbs. A pic below is the lump. Took her in today and they gave her convenia and thats it. Said to come back in 2wks if it isn't gone and they'd surgery remove it. Im pissed. I wanted this drained. Why didn't they drain it!? Is she yonna be ok!? She sits hunched over and wont move for hours.

https://www.reddit.com/u/TaciturnNorse/s/a5rEWX6hyW

Male, 27, healthy aside from major hypocondria, no known issues, i do not smoke or drink. Three days ago,, I had a hang nail, used my teeth to pull it out. No bleeding happened. But it hurt after it a few hours later. Throbbed a lot. Forgot about it. Yesterday night I noticed the area was very red (as shown in the last photo in the slide here https://www.reddit.com/u/TaciturnNorse/s/txLm7CqFFi ) and it was very warm to touch. Today is is less red, as shown in the photos above as well, each as labeled when they were taken, and it was a lot less warm today, albeit, still warm. Very little pain. I have major hypocondria and im terrified I am going to die. I am not worrying that I am seeing a "line"/purple vein coming from the infected area. I have no idea if this vein has always been there or if it is a blood infection type of red line thing meaning it is spreading. I am terrified. Everyone on certain subreddits keep reassuring me I am fine and this is not spreading or hurting me but I'd really appreciate help from a professional...does it look serious? I feel fine otherwise but my anxiety is horrid. I didnt even sleep last night because of this. Please reassure me there's no line spreading from the red area. I am so worried. I am 27.

https://www.reddit.com/u/TaciturnNorse/s/txLm7CqFFi

I feel totally fine otherwise. Little to no pain anymore. Only a bit of warmth

all pics there above. I circled the area im worried is a blood infection line

UPDATE. Lastest pic here https://www.reddit.com/u/TaciturnNorse/s/I9314FOtze