u/Minimum_Ad4771

I drink alcohol purely for hedonistic and selfish reasons. I love being drunk. I know that I have a higher chance of getting cancer and having my liver damaged. I don;t care that much. It's one of my only joys in life. Some may say I don't care about my future life and I don't know what I think of that.

Alcohol brings nothing to your life except for temporary joy. I accept it, but am I a bad person for doing so? Am I weak?

While I've been a metalhead since 12, I usually venture into other genres. Recently I've been into rock classics binge. Some of my favourites are Smashing Pumpkins, The Cure, Interpol, Turnover, Bloc Party, Pink Floyd, Radiohead, Have A Nice Life, Pearl Jam, Led Zeppelin, mbv, DIIV and Sonic Youth. Also going through most of David Bowie's discography rn.

Give me some great rock records!

I'm a 21M uni student and living in a dorm in the big city. While the first few years were awesome, as friends progressed into their careers and relatonships, things got lonely and depressing. I turned to hate everything about it and isolated myself.

Just returned to my hometown (of ~40k residents) for a longer break. I used to visit my family often, because it's just a 2 hour train, but for shorter periods of time. Therefore I barely scraped what being home felt like. But damn... did I miss it.

I love the nature. Hiking and cycling through forests is my shit. I love that it got calmer and I don't have to listen to cars 24/7 outside my window. I love actually doing stuff instead of isolating myself. Also spending time with my family, even though not ideal always, it's still so much better than being alone in the dorm.

Yesterday I've been to a sand mine/ meadow area where I used to chill at during my teens. There is a beautiful view to the neighbouring town and the highway. I sat at one of the hills, drinking my NA beer, without the phone, just experiencing the moment. I felt alive for the first time in months.

I actually dread returning to the big city. Yes, there is much more to do hypothetically, there are people my age and it's still sunny there. But I'll miss this feeling of bliss. Damn.

Goddamn! Is it all? Is it just sitting in my room playing games, listening to music and drinking beer till death? Noo it can't be. Please tell me it gets better! (college unfinished yet)

I'm a sucker for anything morbid. Suggest me something dark, but not just edgy slop, preferably something good.

Some that I've already gotten through: Gone To See The River Man, Blood Meridian, The Road, Lolita, The Wasp Factory, The Girl Next Door, The Ruins, Exquisite Corpse, Tender Is The Flesh, House Of Leaves, Perfume.

Also not a book, but I've been getting through Berserk recently lol.