u/MelodicConfusion7029

I'm 15M. Not only does she entirely ignore any mental problems i present, but when i ask for food she buys 0 calorie 0 sugar 0 fat everything and gets mad when i ask for more. I told her that with my meds i NEED a high fat/protein breakfast or it basically puts me to sleep. The most I get is 2 eggs. I cook for myself and my little brother 2/3 meals of the day but theres only so much i can do with 2 eggs. Im really pissed. My entire childhood I was probably only getting 800 calories a day. We arent even poor. She COULD buy more, but she only thinks about her dinners. I work out and do sport so I need like 2400 calories a day. I dont think ive hit that once in my life.

This morning theres literally nothing that fits my diet requirements for my meds IVE TOLD HER so many times that i cant just eat dry cereal and juice for breakfast because it seriously fucks with my adhd and medication. Its just in one ear and out the other with her. Im so tired of being treated like a stupid child who knows nothing while i take care of myself and my brother infinitely more than her.

I'm 15M and since puberty is doing its thing im usually pretty angry at everything. I dont let it affect others though, unlike what my mom does. The second shes slightly peeved she starts baiting me into arguing with her which is SUPER hard to not give in to with my usual anger level. She has recently taken to saying generally untrue and stupid things like "You left your plate out because you wanted me to suffer!!!" and then when i calmly explain why thats not true she amps it up and says some variant of DO NOT TALK BACK TO A SUPERIOR HUMAN!!!

Its really hard to grey rock here. I feel like if I do stay neutral and quiet she takes it as a win and gets to see me defeated. If I do even dare to give a response its automatically an insult to her entire life and I should be punished. She feeds on beating me down and I cant figure out how to stop giving her that without arguments getting worse or physical.

I never raise my voice even though she does, I dont make "always/never" statements. I dont give personal details. Not responding to the blatant ragebait makes me feel like im gonna have an aneurysm.

Im 16M, I work out with weights at home a lot. I have pretty insane shoulders so far but lower than that it gets rough. My rib and waist area is pretty small, but I'm still somewhat underweight so that makes sense. What DOESNT make sense and pisses me off is my thighs and butt. I do shoulders to offset it but it doesnt help since my torso is teeny tiny and my hips are huge. I look like I got a bbl. Its not even just thick thighs, all my fat is in the thighs and all my thigh fat is right at the top. i have the lower half of a curvy woman.

Im wondering if doing legs is a good idea? If my thighs get any wider I dont think pants would fit me. Or should i do everything in my power to make my torso wider?

Curious about how you guys feel about your deadnames. Me personally seeing my deadname makes me physically ill. I even cringe when i hear other peoples deadnames that i know. Meanwhile my friend whos also a trans man is cool with writing it, seeing it, talking about it even though hes pretty dysphoric about everything else.

I'm 15, doing this in the most reckless stupid way you can imagine genuinely i think im the only guy whos got it this way. ANYWAY Im surprised i havent had any issues yet, but just asking here. I cant get blood tests for lots of reasons. I already had pretty fucked circulation, so I'm wondering if anyone has info on bad signs. I have fragile blood vessels and my limbs get mottled in any slight chill. Would too much hemoglobin or whatever make that change? I also take 2 adhd medications which raise my heart rate further. Honestly I cant believe im alive after 4 months now lol

My mom has it bad. I was dealing with the worst mental break of my life and when i came to her about being suicidal, she got mad and told me to stop "threatening suicide to manipulate her". This was over me being transsexual male and her not believing it. She never allowed me to transition, which pushed me to attempts multiple times. She doesn't let me transition because she projects everything on me, i cant straighten my hair because she wants curly hair, i cant like video games because she hates video games. I cant like rollercoasters because "WE" hate rollercoasters.

If i am not her perfect vision of a mini-me daughter, she has nobody to puppet as a try two of her life.

Its probably not too bad but i wanna make sure. I was doing subq for the first time and the pocket under the skin where i was pushing the meds in felt too full (i do little less than .3ml) so i, being impulsive and stupid, pulled the needle back a bit and changed the angle to basically dig around in the fat layer for another pocket to push T into. I did this a few times before it all went in and i put on a bandaid. I guess once adrenaline wore off it burned BAD. Woke up this morning to tons of swelling and warmth. Is this gonna give me sepsis or something?

Also I dont wanna post twice today so does anyone know how to combat face flushing on T (i have rosacea and take adhd meds as well so my blood vessels are constricted like crazy)

Im way more into just using my dick but for the life of me i cant just grab it and go. It doesnt work, i always have to add something else. I get pretty antsy and i can feel my heartbeat there but once i start actually trying to do it i get bored and my wrist hurts. Theres not a lot to grab, like 1 inch, but cmon! It gets frustrating, i keep shuffling around and either give up and sit with the hornyness or have to do some evil dysphoria inducing shit to get off and move on.

I cant really buy anything since im broke and spending more than 5 dollars on something makes me take psychic damage. If i have to craft some bullshit with sponges or whatever ill take it. plz help bruh

Moving to a place with customs too strict to even try, ive been on hrt for 4 months soon. Once i stop, how bad is it gonna get? My voice is 100~ htz and my adams apple is pretty huge. My face is indistinguishable from cis as well. Will 3 years of horrible estrogen poisoned growing up undo any of that??