u/Fearless_Courage_790

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I feel so broken. Why am I seeking love from this person?

It feels awful and i need a friend.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I feel so broken. Why am I seeking love from this person?

It feels awful and i need a friend.

To preface this i only have online/long distance friends. Anywho, for some reason i have panic attacks every time i call one of them. And like i've known these people for close to a decade.

The part i really dont get is why can i send voice messages to my friends? But not call. And why do i have no issue making phone calls related to work? Sometimes i have to call professional contacts while im off the clock. So i don't understand.

Has anyone been through this before? Idk what to do. I just feel crazy.

Situationship (26) doesnt want me (27F) back. I told them i loved them. because of this, i dont think we're ever going to talk again. The reason I'm saying this is because this person doesn't want to be loved & has blocked people before for expressing their love for them.

But, i figured it's time to rip the band-aid off instead of waiting for them to come around. Making my love known to them was the easiest way to make them disappear.

Why won't this person let anyone love them? Why is it considered a felony in their heart & mind to be loved? It's not like they're a stranger; we've had this quasi-relationship for six months.

This is killing me, i feel so alone. I wish someone would understand how much it hurts.

LO (26) doesnt want me (27F) back. I told them i loved them. because of this, i dont think we're ever going to talk again. The reason I'm saying this is because this person doesn't want to be loved & has blocked people before for expressing their love for them.

But, i figured it's time to rip the band-aid off instead of waiting for them to come around. Making my love known to them was the easiest way to make them disappear.

Why won't this person let anyone love them? Why is it considered a felony in their heart & mind to be loved? It's not like they're a stranger; we've had this quasi-relationship for six months.

This is killing me, i feel so alone. I wish someone would understand how much it hurts.

Advice needed

For 6 months i've had this "situationship" that is extremely toxic. We never call each other names/insult each other, but we literally fight every other day over some communication issue or perceived slight.

We are both toxic but can't seem to quit each other. I definitely feel some type of way about them, i love them (not sure that im IN LOVE tho), they have romantic feelings and want a relationship with me 🤷🏼‍♀️ Which i do not, and was upfront about the start.

Anyway. I cannot TELL you how many times my friend has blocked me, told me we need to stop talking, or some other ultimatum. If i had to guess, it was probably 30 times within the last 6 months we've known each other

We cannot quit each other because i genuinely think we love each other (although i never said it). I see the other human for what they are, which is a beautiful, flawed, passionate, and messy person. I am very patient with them.

On the other hand, i think they might have limerence with me or something, as they take everything i say offensively and have a meltdown 3x a week because i said something innocuous that upset them

Y'all...I'm tired. But damn it, i love this flawed person & i don't know what to do.

I'm mad as hell

For 6 months i've had this "situationship" that is extremely toxic. We never call each other names/insult each other, but we literally fight every other day over some communication issue or perceived slight.

We are both toxic but can't seem to quit each other. I definitely feel some type of way about them, i love them (not sure that im IN LOVE tho), they have romantic feelings and want a relationship with me 🤷🏼‍♀️ Which i do not, and was upfront about the start.

Anyway. I cannot TELL you how many times my friend has blocked me, told me we need to stop talking, or some other ultimatum. If i had to guess, it was probably 30 times within the last 6 months we've known each other

We cannot quit each other because i genuinely think we love each other (although i never said it). I see the other human for what they are, which is a beautiful, flawed, passionate, and messy person. I am very patient with them.

On the other hand, i think they might have limerence with me or something, as they take everything i say offensively and have a meltdown 3x a week because i said something innocuous that upset them

Y'all...I'm tired. But damn it, i love this flawed person & i don't know what to do.

Not an excuse but i was extremely depressed and cancelled like 4 lessons within a few hours of each other. I'm unsure if this will affect my ability to book lessons in the future (which i wont be doing anytime soon)