I own:
15 lip tints (some of them being duplicates of each other)
5 eyeshadow palettes, 3 mini ones
5 sheer red lipsticks (some are duplicates)
7 lip glosses
3 mascaras
4 black eyeliners
At least 15 lipsticks (some are duplicates)
A few colorful eyeliners
4 glitter eyeliners
1 liquid eyeshadow
1 blush
2 concealers
I didn't even buy that much. Sephora is expensive, ulta can be too! I have Bipolar 1 which also causes me to overspend, whether I'm manic or not. How do I control my impulsiveness?
As someone with Bipolar 1, I think I'd prefer a non bipolar partner. I'm hesitant to be with someone with bipolar 1.. I don't want my life to be ruined or make someone's life harder. I'd rather stay single tbh..
Sexually I mean. He's not my type. When we first met, he asked to makeout with me. Days later, he asked for a physical relationship. I'm not opposed to sex in a qpr but he's not my type. I'm graysexual btw, most people are not sexually attractive to me.
I don't currently experience romantic attraction, I technically can but it's like a 0.0000001 chance. Even then, I have no interest in a relationship. I had someone in the single and happy subreddit tell me I'm not aromantic because their idea of aromantic is zero romantic attraction and never ever having romantic feelings in their entire life. And then I had someone say "I'm not sure you're aromantic". I don't need to experience zero romantic attraction to be aromantic, it's an umbrella term. Aro fits me better than gray or demi.
I realized I was aromantic last year. I only had feelings for two people within over 3 years and it's been roughly two years since I had feelings for someone. I'm 22 and only loved 2-3 people. I have no interest in a partner and a big part of it is trauma, but me being aromantic is almost as much of a reason why I prefer being single. Love can be beautiful and to those that want love, I hope you find true love. And to those that don't, I hope you do well in life and are at peace with your decision about staying single. Romance makes me uneasy but I do think it's cute in theory.
And I'm happy for those in healthy relationships. I'm so glad I'm aromantic, I don't have to worry about falling in love with an asshole. Well, there is a 0.000000001 percent chance I would fall for soneone, but it's close enough to zero that I don't have to worry about it!
I occasionally wish I had (mild to moderate) schizophrenia instead. I'm not saying I want either but if I had to choose, I would choose moderate schizophrenia over severe bipolar. Both illnesses are terrible in different ways. I have experienced psychosis before, and while it is more terrifying, bipolar manic episodes have ruined my life even more. I have hurt people I love, blew thousands of dollars, slept around, broke laws, tried to kill myself multiple times, and I constantly had violent urges. Schizophrenia is definitely more serious on average, but I will say is that I'd rather deal with psychosis sometimes versus ruining my life with manic episodes. I almost had the police called on me. On top of that, I also have borderline personality disorder. Bipolar has ruined my life more but bpd has caused more heart break and pain. I never have had a healthy relationship either and I have to live with the guilt of hurting people physically and emotionally
I used to be lovely dovey and all about love until I got my heart broken multiple times. I can't or won't love again. There is a 0.000001 chance I would have feelings for someone. Am I aromantic enough?
Normally I don't mention my preferences, but my therapist said I'm more likely to attract what I want if I'm honest about my type. She wanted me to put "if you look like Garrett Hedlund from Tron Legacy or are nearly as handsome, hit me up". I definitely like guys that look different from that look, that's just an example of my type. She said I would get angry/resent people that hit me up if they aren't my preference if they message me.
I have had Instacart shoppers ask me to find every item for them and it's expected at my current job. Me telling you the aisles should be enough.
I felt like crap physically and emotionally the day after my tooth got removed