u/Cooter_ha

I am currently dating this guy and it’s been going good so far. But I can’t stop this feeling that I’m going to grow bored and it’s making my ocd go insane. I hate the feeling of a healthy relationship, and I know it should be the opposite but I can’t stop. I have been in the cycle of fp, to get bored to find a new fp ,to break up with the first and date the second. And was like that for years. I managed to stay “single” for a year and it felt good but i technically had the guy I’m dating rn so i never experienced that crippling loneliness. I don’t want to be this way I really don’t, I don’t want to hurt people anymore. But I’m so scared I’m going to end up falling for another person and hurt the guy I’m with. And I’ve told him before that I think I’m polyamorous and he’s not into that. But I just start thinking again, am I really poly or do I just need an excuse to cheat?

Has anyone gone through this? What should I do?

I’m really not looking for shame I already have enough:/

I’ve been stuck for hours now between choosing if I need gas or a haircut. I genuinely cannot make my mind up and it caused me to relapse. I feel like my brain is about to fry itself. How do you guys stop it?

I have genuinely the most impatient and annoying coworkers. I feel like every little mistake I make is such a big deal and one of them is such a bitch about it. I’m really struggling with even regulating at work with the amount of stress I am in. I’m not even getting paid at such job since it’s for school. I have to drive an hour everyday and thanks to dear old trump I can barely afford gas for the trip, and I’m not working since this “job” is already full time. The little money I have saved is running out and I want to relapse so bad.

I just want to smoke weed or cut so bad it’s driving me insane. I feel like I’m gonna snap at any point and I want to tell my bf so bad but he doesn’t even know I cut. And I just feel like I’m over reacting. I fucking hate the doctor I work under too, she’s so money hungry and I feel like such a shitty person all the time. I feel bad for the patients and I want to tell them so bad that healthcare is such a scam, and that half of the fucking labs she order are useless and orders them so she can keep them coming back.

UGHHHH. At least letting this out feels better.

I don’t think it’s talked about enough how harmful purity culture really is and religion overall. First of all, I think religion is and such a tangle with the patriarchy it’s insane. I don’t get how anybody with common sense or critical thinking skills can be religious.

I remember when I was younger, I I had a grandma, she’s still alive. And she would always tell me how I had to like keep myself a virgin over again for my future husband, and how I had to cook for him, and I had to clean for him. And this was all her belief because she was like a witness of Jehovah. And it messed me up so bad when I was younger. And when I came out as bisexual to myself, mainly, I struggled so bad because the Bible told me I was gonna burn in hell.

Overall, is this enforces such patriarchal standards in society. With the women belonging at the house and the men meant to be working. And this just harms men even further because it keeps men in a box and women in an even tighter box. And nobody wants to live in a society like this, even though some don’t wanna say it because of their situation. But men really do struggle with this, saying that they can’t cry, they can’t have personal relationships because it’s feminine, etc.

Also, this is not including the racial part of things. With the regular phrase that “they took Black people‘s rights and gave them God.” Which was very real in the south after the war.

Tell me about your experiences?!

Edit: sorry if spelling is a bit off dictation sucks.

I’ve been at this new externship for a while now and I’m really struggling reading social cues with my coworkers, just 2 of them and I’m the youngest. I asked the youngest one of both tdy (a) something about how to properly clean rooms at the end of the day. I asked if I cleaned over or under the exam paper and she was like “what do you think” gave me a look and I told her “under?” And ignored me. I also feel like I’m just asked random questions at times, I also get ignored or disregarded a lot. I think I told something to the oldest of both (s) and she smiled looked away to laugh at something her friend said and looked back at me.

I feel like I’m in a really awkward situation because I need this for school and I’m scared speaking up will get me kicked out the site. It’s not like I’m trying to ask stupid questions I just don’t know:/

Idk I’m really struggling and I’m having a hard time regulating and the lack of cleanliness in the place is driving me bonkers. Tips???

Edit: they don’t know I’m autistic

Im currently in my externship, only have a few weeks left, and about 6~7k in debt to student loans. I am 18 and I’m thinking about going into nursing. I’m looking for advice from any only MAs mainly on how long did you guys wait until going to nursing school? Does an MA background really help? Anyone who worked part time and did nursing, how hard was it for you? Studying tips???
Any help would be amazing please!

Im currently in my externship, only have a few weeks left, and about 6~7k in debt to student loans. I am 18 and I’m thinking about going into nursing. I’m looking for advice from any only MAs mainly on how long did you guys wait until going to nursing school? Does an MA background really help? Anyone who worked part time and did nursing, how hard was it for you? Studying tips???
Any help would be amazing please!

I’m currently doing my externship in a neurology place and I didn’t go today bc I was honestly just not having it today. I feel so useless half of the time, all I do is room patients and take their BP. It’s a private practice and we don’t do anything at all. I came out of school thinking I was going to be drawing blood and injecting and then I get put at a neurology place out of all the places. It genuinely drives me insane. I love back office I can’t stand sitting at a desk and just seeing words I love being busy. Now I have to sit there and try to sneak my phone while I was 30 minutes for the new patient to get there.

It genuinely has me thinking of how useless externship really is because how I’m getting trained here it’s going to be the same as a new job… right? Idk I feel like a glorified assistant, hate neurology.

For anyone that works in family med, pcp… how is it? Are all practices this boring?