u/BulkySquirrel305

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I suddenly started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything because of ocd

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake this happened nothing was in my control not even 1 % ?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I suddenly started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything because of ocd

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake this happened nothing was in my control not even 1 % ?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I suddenly started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything because of ocd

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake ?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake this happened with me?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake this happened with me?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I suddenly started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything because of ocd

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake ?

Hi everyone,

​I’m 22 (M) and I feel like I’m stuck in a mental loop.

​Here is how it affected me:

​I got bullied a lot in school or family side relations because I couldn't do basic things.

At 16: I started washing my hands constantly and re-checking everything

​At 17: I started blaming my parents because of frustation. I was angry that they didn't teach me how to survive or defend me from bullies.

​At 19: I finally learned how to tie my own shoelaces. It felt so late and shameful.

​Now at 22, I’ve finally learned these skills (laundry, hygiene, laces), but my brain won't stop. I have these obsessive thoughts every day: "Was it really my parents' fault , or am I just overthinking? Am I just fundamentally defective?"

​I can't stop replaying my past failures in my head.

​Has anyone else experienced this? Is my OCD just making me crazy? I feel so alone in this. How do I stop blaming the past and move on?​"

One thing I’m really struggling with is the Doubt. My mind keeps obsessing over this: Did the parenting gap and the bullying actually cause my OCD? Sometimes I feel it’s 100% the reason why I became so anxious and developed hand-washing and re-checking habits. Again and again thinking what was the actual point and in real what was my mistake this happened with me?