Told off my mom on Mother’s Day
I’ve been NC with my mom for over a year now, except for one time I was so desperate that I asked for financial help with 5% interest, and she refused me.
I’m not sure what came over me, but drinking + poor impulse control played a big part.
I’m a bit scared to look at what I sent. Everything I said was true, and I sent one or two follow-up emails, in one of which I said “fuck you for…”
She’s blocked from contacting me, so no idea if there was any reply. I did get a text from my 25-year-old sister still living and working with my mom: Dude, what the fuck was that about?
My sister’s life trajectory is night and day from my own. She’s led an incredibly charmed life compared to mine, so she doesn’t get it, and likely never will.
When I woke up to that text and remembered what I’d done, I had a sense of panic and ‘oh, fuck, what did I do’, but then I remembered that I’m free! I’ve divorced myself entirely from her, and there will be no consequences that I care about. She can do nothing to me at this point. She’s not been my mother for decades, and if the truth hurts, then that’s her fucking problem.
I’m kinda proud of myself. That initial panic was old, a habit from the before times, and it feels amazing when I think about how I actually don’t care about her opinions or reactions or whatever.