r/myhappypill

I just want someone to talk to. Even though sometimes I feel like all I do is talk talk talk and it doesn't help anyways

I've been trying but stuff just keeps happening to me and I'm so easily overwhelmed by even the smallest thing that I feel like I can't fucking breath. The urge to hurt myself is coming back again. My fingers are itching with the urge to scratch my skin until I bleed. I just had a panic attack over this situation I'm having with a lecturer.

I want to take a semester off so fucking bad. But I don't think just taking a break is gonna fix me. I have a fuckton of underlying issues that make me all fucked up. Besides, technically I have it easy this semester because some of the classes are conducted online...but I'm still struggling. I know that if I just put my mind to it, I can catch up. I'm just so burnt out at this point and I don't want to feel like this anymore but it's so hard to actually put in the effort to get better

I'm already going to the psychiatric hospital and taking antidepressants. I'm already going to counselling. I'm already trying to help myself because that's what I'm supposed to do right? No one can help me until I help myself right? Cuz I have to do everything by my fucking self around here. But I feel like I'm walking around in the same maddening circles no matter what I do. I'm told all the things I already know over and over again by well-meaning people that are trying to help. I know I need to put in the effort but it feels like to do what I'm supposed to do I have to relearn how to be an entirely new human being because I don't know how to live any other way. Even though the way I've been living is destroying me from the inside out. I know I'm not supposed to hurt myself but it's so tempting and at this point it feels like I have to do something extreme to myself for everyone to give me a fucking break

Fuck everything

Wow very pleasing to hear “there is no such thing as mental health “

Autism ? You’re just delusional and not focused.

You do not get any compassion or acknowledgement even though your mind and body you know yourself is severely depleted.

It is because there is more pain in the world, I cannot feel this kind of pain . Dude I just wish to solve problem can u please stop gaslighting

No matter how much information or books u provide. As long as falls to deaf ears it is null effect.

Sorry if this is a rant. It is

Adult male

Yes I’ll pretend like I don’t have any issues operating normally at first. Put up your best face as they say.

But then I think if I really want to go deep. My partner will need to know. “Hey I take meds and I have PTSD, anxiety , depression. I struggle in certain situations and have panic attacks on probably normal situations”.

I have no idea if my partner will just throw me away there and then. Given the country’s mental health perception and knowledge.

Yes I feel doomed to find a partner

Do people know what is a prefrontal cortex ? Amygdala ?

What does your nervous system do?

People with mental health illnesses literally have a different brain structure, therefore their responses to daily scenarios are different.

ADHD or autism literally isn’t your choice .its in built genetic.

Generally do people even know these things ?

Instead of “I’m just finding excuses “

One thing is certain. Ignorance is powerful, or better yet, convenient

Hi everyone may i know pharmacies that sell Concerta in Selangor, especially Shah alam area?

i missed my appointment two months ago in GH, so my next appointment is in August to change my meds.

Ritalin gives me crazy headaches, palpitations, jittery and i cant even function properly, worse than without taking med. So i need to find other viable options :)

Life sucks, i wish to be gone

I've been feeling more depressed, and thinking of death. I watched some videos talking about it.. and one of the video says to just reach out to anyone.. but i dont really have reliable support system..

So instead days ago just to cope with the feelings I update my whatsapp status and upload a photo of rope. Which got me msg from old acquaintance.. telling me not to keep it in yet at same time telling me not to upload that kind pic again.. and think about God.. i didnt call them because i have feeling i'd get religious lecture. I dont like it.

I feel hopeless with people, life and myself..

Sucks so much.

I'm not looking forward to today's caregiving duty.. i have to send mom to dialysis center.. the nurse there kept calling me lazy.

These days ive been feeling apathetic about death.. whether its fantasy of my own or other people's..

I see that my home is decaying..

My room is cluttered..

The living room has shit and smells so bad.

The kitchen has maggots.. to the point theyre climbing up the handsoap and dish soap bottles...

My dad has been having bad temper... Well.. that's who he has always been.. but nowaday it feels constant... Insults...yelling..

My brothers...another story...

Therapy dont work..

What's the point of therapy if you dont wanna live life..

I hate cbt..

I hate the way therapists and doctors treated/talked to me. I feel so bitter.

Im so let down by life.

Dealing with cptsd sucks..

I feel like i wanna die..

Just be gone..

For a person with mental health conditions whether it is autism, ADHD, MDD, schizo, bipolar etc, what has your experience with jobs and careers been like?

If you are comfortable sharing, what kind of work do you do (have done), and what has helped or made things extremely difficult and harder for you to sustain?

I just wanted to learn some perspectives as hearing from person with similar conditions navigating things can be helpful at times

I know that ADHD meds are generally stimulants, right? Maybe coffee actually really helps in a way and I'm not just imagining it? Anybody feel the same way? I'm not medicated for ADHD for context.