One thing I never learnt enough is standing up for myself and asking them not to go overboard. It has to do with my upbringing because no one can go against my dad or he will use violence and hit no matter how old you are. I am really afraid of my dad and really afraid of confrontation. It is because I am traumatize by him.
It seems that I became a punching bag to everyone, including my siblings and even the cleaner in the office decided to shout at me while using my mug without my permission to clear something from the coffee machine and left it uncleaned when I wanted to use later on as it was filled with stain. I saw her doing it, shouting at me and I kept quiet. I always treated her with respect.
I really don't know how to reframe this situation via CBT when it happens right in front of my eyes. Maybe she might be having a bad day at work. No matter how she was clearly mocking with a high tone voice and I seemed to be targetted.
There are endless events which I just ended up keeping quiet despite this sometimes during work or family matters and even during past school experiences.
Here am I, because my religion preaches good deed, forgiveness so I just keep praying for an open heart and forgive these people.
I really needed to stand up for myself one day. My condition has make my reaction time slower and I ended up keeping quiet more than I should.