How many of you that had good, loving parents were eventually cut off by them? My son has been an addict for 11 years with 3 1/2 years clean during that time period. He has been back in active addiction almost 2 years. We don’t enable him in any way other than to continue to have a relationship with him. I feel like we need to stop until he decides to change. Is that the wrong thing to do?
Hey everyone, new here so please let me know if I’m breaking any rules here.
I used to use just about everything, my main thing was meth coz it’s the cheapest but my all time favourite is coke.
I had a full relapse in December of last year but been clean since then.
For the last month I’ve had the biggest craving for meth, every time I’ve fallen into meth addiction it’s just sort of happened. This time though I’m properly planning it out though and I’ve figured out that with my job I can support a meth addiction.
I already know I will regret it and I have no idea if it’ll make my job way easier or way harder, (I work in sales over the phone) coz when I’m with people who are doing it it’ll be great, but then I’ll have to go home and work, then what do I do, just stay home with my thoughts, that’s not gonna be good at all, or do I go out till it’s time to work again only to have to lug it back home.
Not sure if it’s important but I know that I’m one of those people who if I won 5 million dollars I’d be using everyday for the rest of my life.
I don’t know what to do or if anyone can help, but this is like an itch I haven’t been able to scratch for over a month now.
Today is day 730 of not putting a drink in me. It’s been a long road, had some detours the first time around, however made it another day and I know that as long as I don’t drink today, I will be fine.
To all that aren’t sure if you will make it, you will. Just giving as much love and putting positivity out there for you.
to start at the facility im going to i cant have any electronic that connects to internet or has a camera. mp3/ipod, kindle, alarmclock, gameboy, etc. is allowed
tell me what im missing
i have all the clothing i need, a blanket/pillow, mp3 player with music and earbudsand and charger, kindle with books on it and charger, fidget toy, i have my meds, my nicotine, notebook and pens, sketch book and pencils, numbers of sober people i can talk to, phone charger assuming my phone is dead when i get it back, i have some cash and some moeny on a card, my wallet with id and insurence card, waterbottle, a couple pictures from loved ones, stuffed animal when i sleep for comfort.
i know im missing something but i cant figure out what it is
I had used fentanyl from 25 to 34.
I got clean with the help of a methadone clinic.
Last street drug use was Aug 27th 2024.
I was in that clinic from June 2018 to Dec 2025. Tapered down the methadone to subs.
To sublacade shots. My last shot was Dec 23rd 2025.
4 months later completely off, I feel like I get moments of watery eyes, yawning, anxiety is crazy at times.
Anyone else who would like to comment. Please share anything.
i have been made homeless, struggled more with suicidality, my family disowned me and kicked me out, every php and iop I've tried has always kicked me out because of ASD, and more things.
im almost 3 years sober from heroin fentanyl and everything else and all life has done has gotten worse
Hey, this is my first and hopefully only time doing something like this, I have a friend that’s going through a very bad situation with drug abuse heroin and crack along with a mental health issue. They are hearing and seeing things that’s not there, talking compete nonsense, very bad confusion about normal task like opening a door or anything, paranoia such as thinking everyone is trying to poison there food and other delusions. They have been an addict for a long time but with in the last few months this mental health issue has become bad. I keep urging them to seek professional help I’ve taken them to multiple addiction treatment centers but they keep leaving. This person has absolutely deteriorated in the past 6 or so months. I’ve tried everything I could think of to help I’m at the point where I think calling the police while they are holding so they will get arrested is the only hope left. Does anybody have any advice or guidance on what if anything I can do
Has anybody struggled with something like this after drug use?
like even after longer period of abstinence (years) it's hard for you to have a cohesive image of yourself
I was an addict for three years (meth/ Xanax/ pharmaceuticals) and then I got pregnant with this man I fell in love with who was also an addict(shocking) I got sober for my pregnancy, and he is still in active addiction and a sex addict yea we aren’t together go figure. But I keep struggling to get out of bed. I can’t seem to be present of my baby without the use of meth and Xanax combo. I keep throwing it away and rebuying it. Otherwise I wither away in bed wallowing in my depression over a man who dosent care about me or his baby. And I feel pathetic. Has the drugs really re wired me so much that I feel dependent on them to function as a human being? Please I have relapsed a few times. Not daily. But a few and it’s the only time I feel like a functioning mother it’s so fjcking sad I am so sad.
My (21f) boyfriend (21m) is a recovering cocaine addict. He has stopped using since January 2025 and relapsed once in October 2025 at the beginning of our relationship. I have never been around drugs and am quite clueless about the matter hence why I’m asking for advice over here. Yesterday, he got the urge again, he was triggered throughout the day but didn’t let me know and went out in the evening to look for some. We’re long distance and he told me he was going to bed so I didn’t think anything about it. He ended up not finding any and came back home, called me and apologised. I don’t know what to think about it, is recovery truly possible? Will relapses always happen every so often?
I have asked him to quit drinking (which he has already done successfully in the past) and change his phone number (his dealer texted him that evening, which is what pushed him to leave the house) but I don’t know if I should give up on him and if there’s any hope ?
I need to know if the relapses is something that will keep reoccurring or stop happening with time.
Hi all,
I apologize if this isn’t the right place to post this, I just wasn’t sure where else to go where I might get some support, or even just be able to vent.
My (23F) brother (32M) has struggled with addiction for as long as I can remember. He’s been incarcerated and in rehab multiple times over the years. Over the past year and a half, after getting out of prison, he had really been on an uphill climb. He had a steady job, a better car, and was taking much better care of himself and his home.
Recently, after a round of layoffs at his job, he violated his parole due to a failed drug test. I know recovery isn’t a straight path, but it’s still really hard to watch someone you love stumble, especially when they were doing so well.
This also happened right before a major life event for me that I was really hoping he’d be there for. I know he was trying this time, and I feel for him because I can tell he’s disappointed in himself. At the same time, I’m also struggling with my own feelings, grieving the fact that my big brother won’t be there with me for something important.
I wish I could tell him that I see how hard he was trying, and that I still love him and I’m not mad at him.
If anyone here has been on either side of something like this, I’d really appreciate hearing your perspective.
Six years sober from alcohol—what a journey it has been. This year has been a tough one for me. I’m truly blessed to have an amazing support system, and without my village, I think I would be lost somewhere in a bottle.
I sounded the alarm after watching my dad die in front of me back in October. Years of therapy, being in a regeneration program, and my friendships were tested, and I’m very proud to say I’m still sober. One day at a time.
My dad’s boat business is under my management now. At first, I didn’t feel worthy because my dad worked so hard to get to this position. So I reflect back on past versions of myself, and I’m astounded by the growth. I’m living the life I used to dream of, but some things have changed.
Change is definitely possible. Grief hits at the weirdest times, and I’ve grown comfortable expressing my emotions and riding the wave. I still see a professional to this day, and I don’t think I’ll ever phase that out of my life.
I’m still plugged in with the ministry I attended for a regeneration drug program, and I share my stories with the men in the program. My dog has been a huge source of support for me and the men in the program. I try not to be idle. I love taking her to the ministry so she can give furry therapy to the men.
I’m very proud of the person I’m becoming, and I know all my friends who have passed are definitely proud of the life I’m living. From hitting rock bottom, detoxing from alcohol in a private prison, to living the life I dreamed of—
I can’t responsibly indulge in drinking, and I’ve accepted that. I’ve traded my ability to drink alcohol to be a business owner, mentor, and silent supporter of a cat foundation.
I know my old man is watching me, and he celebrates every victory. He’s there for my failures, and I can’t afford to go back down that destructive path. The grass is definitely greener on the other side; it just took going up a hill to reach this amazing view.
I never got to enjoy a cold one with my pops, so one of the snow days we had I decided to walk to his gravesite and pay him a visit.
First year – reintegration back into the world after a small vacation in a private prison
Second year – adopted by an amazing cat and second-year dog dad
Third year – bought a boat with my ex-girlfriend
Fourth year – adopted a bonded pair of cats
Fifth year – separated from a relationship, said goodbye to my three cats, and the death of my father
Let’s see what the sixth year brings! For me, it’s a privilege to work in the shop, to feel stressed about the work I have. I will thrive in this environment.
It's been 4 years since I changed my life through harm reduction, changing habits and behaviors, lots of therapy and support. I use cannabidiol. I've been in those isolated therapeutic farms for a year and four months. I tried support groups and nothing worked. But this has been working for quite some time. One of my friends who was in rehab with me and someone I admire a lot relapsed. She left rehab, went back to practicing medicine, everything seemed fine. She gets in touch to tell me that she's been using 8mg of cocaine, even during shifts. I offer to be her support network. She promises me she'll seek help. Today she called me at 5 am completely drunk and high, she barely made sense of what she was saying. I talked to her for an hour. I listened, I had empathy, but I told her she has a week to seek help or I'll report her to the CRM (Regional Medical Council) and make her lose her license. My entire journey fills me with pride, and today I'm able to offer support, but seeing people we love still trapped in the same cycle of self-destruction is slowly killing me. And I understand how difficult it is, but damn it, I'm tired of supporting her. From now on, I'm going to adopt a stricter stance, and I even feel bad for threatening her profession, but this needs to end. Was I too harsh?
Not much to say other than I'm six months clean today, while its been a month since my best friend relapsed and overdosed. The grief and guilt of losing him has been astronomical and its especially hard to deal with today when he should be here celebrating with me. I never thought I could miss a person this much. He deserved so much better.
Im going to rehab and treatment for 3 months tomorrow. I always overthink things. I have journals from the last 2 years and I also made an trauma timeline once (never looked at it again)
Would it be smart or helpful to bring that with me? For therapeutic meaning or idk🥲
I left rehab early and regret it. Anything helps.
Hello, I am a 25 year old f alcoholic. This was my first time in detox and rehab.
I took so much away from my two weeks. I fell in love with the Steps and AA. But today I went with my will and not Gods.
I made a plan to go home early, drive alllll the way back to my home state and family, leave my boyfriend while he’s on a trip and do it ‘myself.; getting into sober living there.
The second I got out, and then back to our shared apartment, I felt the weight of everything they advised at rehab crashing down on me because they were right.
I moved here to this state a year and a half ago sober but to come live with this boyfriend on a whim. I’d used this relationship to cover up the pain of a breakup and as a new addiction (as we do).
I had no one. I was two years dry sober without a support system. I relapsed. And then he pushed for treatment so I went.
Now he is gone and I sit here unable to leave him a goodbye breakup note, I sit here praying and apologizing to God for going my way and not His, I sit here looking for meetings and most of all I sit here missing my Fellowship and girls I’d been with.
I feel so much shame.
It’s really strange but I’ve never heard this word outside of AA/NA or rehabs. Providing comfort =yes. Comfortable =yes. Being comfortable= yes. Can someone help me understand where this comes from? Thx
OK, I know this sounds kind of pathetic, but I really do feel like I have an addiction to weed and I truly can’t stop. I’m afraid to stop, but my bank account tells me that I spent too much money and I feel so ashamed that’s why I keep going back to it every day because I don’t feel like I’ll ever be able to build up any finances the only thing I have to my name is about 17,000 in my savings and maybe 100 in my checking account I still steal my parents at 30. I have a decent job and don’t have any more friends and feel totally directionless very angry myself and I just want some advice.
Hello, I actually posted about this yesterday! I called the rehab today after realizing my mistake but they are not so sure about available beds at the moment which I understand.
So im still sober, but just nervous if sober living will take me after I AMA’d from a rehab instead of getting coined out. This is my first time in this world so I am newer to how things work. Thanks!
I was on prescribed pain pills for 10 years, I decided to quit due to pressure from my SO. He made me feel like it was ruining me and us, which I know it was contributing to my emotions, anxiety, insecurities and paranoia. Well, due to the pressure I cut back way too quickly and was withdrawing. Someone turned me on to Krotom 7oh. That was a different beast. It about destroyed my life. My anxiety, paranoia and emotions were off the wall, I couldn’t concentrate and I couldn’t even make it through a night of sleep without needing to get up and take some due to the withdrawals causing such bad RLS. After about losing everything and a couple suicide attempts, I decided to go to the ER for help. Their help was Suboxone. I was relieved to find that it did help me, I was for the first time sober from alcohol and pills or 7oh. My Dr. prescribed me 24mgs which I took for about a week then decided to quit because I didn’t want to get addicted to something else and heard this stuff was tough to get off of… I made it 4 days, and I was crying all of the time, mad and sad at my SO and just had no motivation to do anything. I started taking the Suboxone again, but this time I fluctuated between 4 and 8mg trying to go a day or 2 without. I have been on it for 4 weeks now and can’t seem to stop taking the 4mgs. Does anyone know what my withdrawals will be like after only 4 weeks of use? I am so scared, everyone says it’s hell to get off of. I know I need to stop now before it gets worse. I also feel like it is still causing me anxiety and emotional issues though maybe it’s also because I am also 4 weeks sober from the krotom, pain pills and alcohol. I also feel like my Dr. wants me to be a lifer for money because he’s telling me I need to be on it longer… knowing how hard it will be for me to get off. Has anyone had success quitting without feeling like they would rather be dead for 2 weeks? Tapering mgs and length of time between doses? Is it too late for me, am I already trapped?!