Hi all,
I apologize if this isn’t the right place to post this, I just wasn’t sure where else to go where I might get some support, or even just be able to vent.
My (23F) brother (32M) has struggled with addiction for as long as I can remember. He’s been incarcerated and in rehab multiple times over the years. Over the past year and a half, after getting out of prison, he had really been on an uphill climb. He had a steady job, a better car, and was taking much better care of himself and his home.
Recently, after a round of layoffs at his job, he violated his parole due to a failed drug test. I know recovery isn’t a straight path, but it’s still really hard to watch someone you love stumble, especially when they were doing so well.
This also happened right before a major life event for me that I was really hoping he’d be there for. I know he was trying this time, and I feel for him because I can tell he’s disappointed in himself. At the same time, I’m also struggling with my own feelings, grieving the fact that my big brother won’t be there with me for something important.
I wish I could tell him that I see how hard he was trying, and that I still love him and I’m not mad at him.
If anyone here has been on either side of something like this, I’d really appreciate hearing your perspective.