I was an addict for three years (meth/ Xanax/ pharmaceuticals) and then I got pregnant with this man I fell in love with who was also an addict(shocking) I got sober for my pregnancy, and he is still in active addiction and a sex addict yea we aren’t together go figure. But I keep struggling to get out of bed. I can’t seem to be present of my baby without the use of meth and Xanax combo. I keep throwing it away and rebuying it. Otherwise I wither away in bed wallowing in my depression over a man who dosent care about me or his baby. And I feel pathetic. Has the drugs really re wired me so much that I feel dependent on them to function as a human being? Please I have relapsed a few times. Not daily. But a few and it’s the only time I feel like a functioning mother it’s so fjcking sad I am so sad. My parents say whenever I am sad over him I take pills & sleep. I love my baby so much I need to be healthy for her. The physical symptoms are destroying me
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I was an addict for three years (meth/ Xanax/ pharmaceuticals) and then I got pregnant with this man I fell in love with who was also an addict(shocking) I got sober for my pregnancy, and he is still in active addiction and a sex addict yea we aren’t together go figure. But I keep struggling to get out of bed. I can’t seem to be present of my baby without the use of meth and Xanax combo. I keep throwing it away and rebuying it. Otherwise I wither away in bed wallowing in my depression over a man who dosent care about me or his baby. And I feel pathetic. Has the drugs really re wired me so much that I feel dependent on them to function as a human being? Please I have relapsed a few times. Not daily. But a few and it’s the only time I feel like a functioning mother it’s so fjcking sad I am so sad.