I’ve heard people say that experiencing psychedelics made them turn into agnostics , atheists or stop believing in any higher power.
If this was your experience, can you explain what happened that made you come to this conclusion?
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So the night before, I did DMT for the first time. It was a lot. Colours I had never seen before, geometric shapes constantly moving and transforming, and a sense of presence that I still cant fully explain. An entity that felt aware of me, that seemed to be showing me different states of mind, maybe almost like levels, from something that felt like heaven down to something that felt like hell. I refused to go to the lowest level and it actually respected that. I came back up to the first level and I cried. It was beautiful, felt as if I was in heaven. It was one of the strangest and most meaningful experiences of my life.
The next day, I took shrooms and for some reason decided to watch Enter the Void as it seemed cool.
That was probably one of the biggest mistakes, of my life.
The jump scares hit me like they were actually happening to me. The "wake up" scene, the car crash, the screaming, it all f* me up. I was terrified and couldn't sleep afterwards, I was that afraid.
But the ending did something else to me entirely. I cried, and I said out loud: I don't want to be reincarnated!! ( mind you, complete atheist). I was begging 'God': When I die, I just want to stop existing. I want to go into the void. And then I realised I had just referenced the title of the film without meaning to and tripped myself even more.
Ive been sitting with that since.
Im highly into philosophy, I already knew so much of this stuff, I do not understand how a movie made me so sure and scared of something I did not even believe hours ago. Im even questioning if I am experiencing psychosis ?
The film is heavily based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead which is a text traditionally read to the dying as a guide through the Bardo, the intermediate states between death and rebirth.
The core teaching is that everything you encounter in those states is a projection of your own mind. So everything from a dmt trip, the frightening things, the entities, the lights, all of it is you. And if you can recognise that, you achieve liberation rather than being pulled back into rebirth through fear or craving.
Whats crazy is how directly my DMT experience mapped onto that framework. Crazy.
But the Buddhist concept of liberation varies across schools though. Different schools disagree. Some say liberation is the cessation of craving and aversion, but a kind of pure awareness remains, not your personality, not a self, just consciousness without a centre. Like the ocean without waves.
Others come closer to saying it's full cessation. The void. Nothing remaining.
The Buddha himself, when asked directly whether the enlightened person exists after death, refused to answer and said the question is silly. Like asking where fire goes when it is blown out, east, west, north, south? He said the question wasn't useful.
I find myself drawn to the second interpretation. Wishful thinking.
And I've been trying to understand why.
I don't think it's because my life has been unbearable exactly. It's been below par in specific ways, because of loneliness mostly, feeling like existence among other humans has cost me more than it gave.
But even setting that aside, even imagining a perfect life like, I'd still feel this way. There's something about the repetition itself, the cycle of wanting and losing and wanting again, that I find exhausting at a fundamental level.
Schopenhauer argued something similar, that existence is driven by a blind, insatiable will, and that suffering isn't incidental to life but structurally built into it.
I didn't expect to arrive at that conclusion through a Gaspar Noé film on psilocybin, but here we are.
What I keep coming back to is that liberation in the Buddhist sense, if it means what I think it means, isn't really a reward or a destination. It's just the end of the wanting. That sounds like enough to me though. But isnt wanting liberation still a form of wanting? Am I going insane?
Why have I watched that movie ?
Has anyone else come out of a psychedelic experience feeling like existence itself, not just this life, but the whole project, is something you're ready to be done with?
Have I unintentionally became a efilist? Which I always thought was quite stupid...
I feel as If Im going a bit insane, and truly wish I have never watched that movie.
I did lsd heroic dose in a bad setting. had a panic attack in the come down. i shouldn't have done this without a proper guide but it's done now. iam a web developer. before lsd, i could work on the computer without any difficult (i could ignore any body signals). Now everytime i sit on the computer, i get this heaviness in the stomach, feels like i am stuck. if I push this feeling, after the stimulation is gone, my mind is stuck on that state and iam constantly thinking about it. and iam showing signs of depression also.
Everyday when I wake up in the morning, i feel sad and depressed. I want to wake up and go and sit infront of the pc and do something productive. but my body is depressed and giving me sadness and hopelessness.
My symptoms are:
working on pc triggers the panic attack
being alone in my room also feels uncomfortable
feel more alone and depressed.
thought of moving away from home on my own also feels scary now.
Can't watch passive content like movies, YouTube videos, etc. Only nature and physical activity seems to pull my attention outwards.
I am wondering would ssri work for some of these symptoms? my doc prescribed me sertraline 25mg. I have been taking it for a week and 3 days, I am seeing overthinking and nothing else much. the neasuea improved and is now almost gone. i can feel the serotonin high slightly but i don't see any consistent improvement in mood.
I've been studying the phenomina of perceiving thoughts and conscious states that resonates with how things were in early childhood. It feels like a return to early cognition. It's almost a primordial feeling. Pre-structured. Perhaps before concepts fully formed.
I've experienced this across Salvia Divinorum, LSD and Psilocybin. I've even felt it with THC (Cannabis) at times.
The strongest marker is a sudden internal recognition. A clear sense of "I remember this". Not a memory of a specific event. But a memory and feeling of how perception itself used to feel. Probably before I even developed language.
Examples:
These states feel deeply familiar. States that I had forgotten I once had.
During these, I dont feel like I've regressed or become a child. I'm still fully aware that I'm an adult. These come through as brief glimpses of how my mind felt or how I perceived things when I was younger.
I'm also not saying that this is how my mind / consciousness was when I was a very young child. It just feels like thats how it was.
Anyone else had anything similar? Like a pre-structured state? Or anyone share any further perceptions or ideas of what this actually is? Is this memory recall, or access to a baseline mode of consciousness? Is it a side effect of being less physically connected as we potentially were when we were very young? Hence stirring up the old memories?
A few days ago I had one of the most intense psychedelic experiences of my life.
I took around 6–7 grams of Enigma mushrooms using the lemon tek method. I’m not new to psychedelics — I’ve had multiple trips before — but this one was on a completely different level.
At some point during the peak, I genuinely felt like I could move through space and time. Not just visually or in imagination… it felt real. Like I could “shift” into different places and moments, almost as if I was traveling across dimensions.
There were moments where my sense of self completely dissolved. It felt like “I” wasn’t really there anymore — just awareness experiencing everything. Time stopped making sense, and reality felt extremely fluid.
It wasn’t a bad trip, but it was definitely overwhelming at times. The intensity was something else. I had to just let go and ride it.
Looking back, it felt less like I was hallucinating and more like I was tapping into something deeper — like reality is way more flexible than we normally perceive.
I’m still trying to process it.
Has anyone else experienced something similar, especially with high doses or Enigma?
I was sitting in my apartment with 4g of dried Psilocybin cubensis and lemon tek. It was completely silent and dark. The Psilocybin started to take effect.
It felt like I was slipping into warm water. This was a gentle feeling.
Within thirty minutes I started to see patterns on the walls.. Then these patterns became the walls themselves. I was losing my sense of self. It felt different this time. It felt like I was being guided to a place rather than just losing myself, and then.
The loud and obnoxiously preposterous arrogant void hissed and multiplied, swirling into towering concrete hives filled with blank faces marching in perfect, joyless lines. They whispered the usual script: Blend. Atone. Share everything until nothing is yours. Their voices felt oily, foreign to the land beneath my feet.
Then I saw a man. He was standing completely still. His presence made me feel really calm. His face was old and wise, not crazy. He had a tattoo between his eyebrows and it was pulsing with immense metaphysical energy and it looked similiar to st brigids cross. His dark hair was around his shoulders. He was not sitting on a throne or anything. Though he was below average height, he seemed really powerful.
The man said to me "You are finally coming home. I have been waiting for you." His voice was inside my mind. My apartment started to disappear. I was standing with him on a farm. The sky was huge. The air felt really clean and pure. There were people around us. They seemed really free.
The man said, "These people are waking up. They are not trapped in their boxes anymore. They are not following someone Rules. They are free to be themselves." His words felt really good to hear. I felt like I could let go of my beliefs and just be myself.
The man whispered to me "If you really listen you will hear that the animals are waiting for us to return. They are waiting for us to stop pretending to be something we're not." I started to see visions of a world. A world where people lived in harmony with nature. It felt really good. It felt really free.
The man said, "You are afraid because you still believe in the reality.. There is no one reality. There is only what people believe.. We are here to help people remember who they really are." This was a powerful message. It felt really true.
As the Psilocybin cubensis started to wear off the man started to disappear. He said to me "Remember, you are not here to find yourself. You are here to remember what you have always been. The air, the trees, the water, the animals. They are all part of your inheritance. They are waiting for you to claim them."
I came back to reality. I was shaking. I felt like I had talked to something old and wise. The mans tattoo is still in my memory. It feels like a reminder of something important.
It has been three days. I still look over my shoulder sometimes. I expect to see the mans wise eyes watching me. He is not scary. He is patient. He is waiting for me to remember what I need to remember. The Psilocybin experience was really powerful. It made me think about my place in the world. I am still thinking about it. I am trying to remember what the man told me. The Psilocybin experience was, like a wake-up call and I am trying to stay awake.
i was sketched out bringing stuff in the car but im trying to trip on vacation, anyone have advice finding someone that can help
Hace unos días consumí hongos (cepa Enigma) con el método lemon tek, aproximadamente 6–7 gramos. A pesar de haber tenido varias experiencias previas, esta fue por mucho la más intensa.
Sentía que podía desplazarme a través del espacio y el tiempo, como si mi conciencia no estuviera limitada a un solo momento. Percibía escenas del pasado y del presente, y por momentos parecía que podía acceder a algo parecido al futuro, aunque me generó miedo profundizar en eso.
Hubo un punto en el que sentí que “despertaba”, como si por un instante pudiera comprender estructuras más profundas de la realidad. Era como si existiera una inteligencia superior o un orden detrás de todo, y se me permitiera percibirlo momentáneamente.
La percepción del tiempo se volvió completamente distinta, similar a lo que muestran en Interstellar. Llegué a sentir que estaba en una especie de “cuarta dimensión”. También tuve momentos donde todo parecía un holograma, como si la realidad no fuera completamente sólida.
En algún momento pensé que ese estado sería permanente, lo cual generó algo de ansiedad, pero eventualmente regresé a la normalidad.
Me interesa saber si alguien ha tenido experiencias similares, especialmente en relación con la percepción del tiempo o esta sensación de “acceso” a algo más profundo.
me and my friend did 2-cb a few weeks back and had a good time we did 5 pills, split 1 and took 2 full 20mg pills each. they were probably under dosed but still got a real good trip visuals and great feeling. we wanna try LSD for the first time now cuz it was a good experience but dont know what dosage would be good to start with that ain't gunna leave us complete vegetables. I know it's hard to compare psycs sometimes and lsd is probably more intense by default but anyone who has experience with both would be good to hear from.
hi. I use the act of real-time creation through the human energy system, as a method of exploring consciousness and the dynamics of reality. art that revolves around the concepts of time, deep self, and the sentient silence behind it all. hope it resonates, and, as another piece of the puzzle, allows us to collectively unfold the innate knowledge lost to the identity crisis of the ages, also known as history. thank you for being [t]here°
absolutely loved cid never a bad experience always found higher amounts to be way more pleasant! havent done it in years though! I have not ever done mushrooms or mescaline how do they compare in intensity? I may try and trip again soon but im debating trying one of those instead of lsd. do you think id like them if i liked acid?
I know there are many channels that discuss these topics, and share advice or insights gathered from previous trips. But I'm talking about a video filmed while still under the influence and saying that upfront. Has anyone seen videos on YouTube where the creator sits down and talks to the camera while high on psychedelics?
Last night I had a beautiful mushroom trip and during the come down, I turned on my phone camera and talked to it for over 2 hours. Some of you may wonder why I would do this, and think it's a strange or boring way to spend a trip. But for me it was a nice chance to speak out loud about what I was experiencing.
Rewatching it later, I was surprised to be see how lucid I sounded. I thought my words would be scattered and occasionally non-sensical. I sometimes feel while tripping that I am overwhelmed by the possibilities of life and can't decide what I want to do or say or experience next. But to my surprise, after watching myself on a trip, I realized that a lot of this is just in my head. This was a beautiful realization!
I feel a desire to share this video publicly.
I think in its own tiny way, it could serve a small role in helping people who haven't taken psychedelics to open their mind to it. It would also help me on some level to stop being ashamed of this part of my identity. I've often felt that certain experiences can only be talked about in whispers between "the initiated". And that showing this side of myself would just lead to judgement and cause others to think that I'm either a burnout or insane.
But there is a part of me, deep inside, that has always admired those who speak openly and without shame about these topics. I would like to join them.
For context:
I don't have a job where I could get fired for this or live somewhere that could lock me up.
My main questions are:
Happy to hear any reflections.
Love to all 🙏
A few days ago I had one of the most intense psychedelic experiences of my life.
I took around 6–7 grams of Enigma mushrooms using the lemon tek method. I’m not new to psychedelics — I’ve had multiple trips before — but this one was on a completely different level.
At some point during the peak, I genuinely felt like I could move through space and time. Not just visually or in imagination… it felt real. Like I could “shift” into different places and moments, almost as if I was traveling across dimensions.
There were moments where my sense of self completely dissolved. It felt like “I” wasn’t really there anymore — just awareness experiencing everything. Time stopped making sense, and reality felt extremely fluid.
It wasn’t a bad trip, but it was definitely overwhelming at times. The intensity was something else. I had to just let go and ride it.
Looking back, it felt less like I was hallucinating and more like I was tapping into something deeper — like reality is way more flexible than we normally perceive.
I’m still trying to process it.
Has anyone else experienced something similar, especially with high doses or Enigma?
Hi, I’ve taken psychedelics many times (20–30), mainly acid, and during my trips I started experiencing weird concepts and mechanisms of psychedelics. The best I can describe it: something like seeing and choosing live possibilities and their places, downloading strange information, certain YouTube videos feeling psychedelically “programmed”, certain club DJ sets feeling psychedelically “programmed” — and most of these concepts are very blurry (besides the “programmed” YouTube videos and live shows), but I’m very interested in exploring this concepts. Do you know any sites or communities, or would you like to discuss these concepts? Leave a comment.