Short Stature, Eternal Patience – The Man Who Visited Me on 4g Lemon Tek
I was sitting in my apartment with 4g of dried Psilocybin cubensis and lemon tek. It was completely silent and dark. The Psilocybin started to take effect.
It felt like I was slipping into warm water. This was a gentle feeling.
Within thirty minutes I started to see patterns on the walls.. Then these patterns became the walls themselves. I was losing my sense of self. It felt different this time. It felt like I was being guided to a place rather than just losing myself, and then.
The loud and obnoxiously preposterous arrogant void hissed and multiplied, swirling into towering concrete hives filled with blank faces marching in perfect, joyless lines. They whispered the usual script: Blend. Atone. Share everything until nothing is yours. Their voices felt oily, foreign to the land beneath my feet.
Then I saw a man. He was standing completely still. His presence made me feel really calm. His face was old and wise, not crazy. He had a tattoo between his eyebrows and it was pulsing with immense metaphysical energy and it looked similiar to st brigids cross. His dark hair was around his shoulders. He was not sitting on a throne or anything. Though he was below average height, he seemed really powerful.
The man said to me "You are finally coming home. I have been waiting for you." His voice was inside my mind. My apartment started to disappear. I was standing with him on a farm. The sky was huge. The air felt really clean and pure. There were people around us. They seemed really free.
The man said, "These people are waking up. They are not trapped in their boxes anymore. They are not following someone Rules. They are free to be themselves." His words felt really good to hear. I felt like I could let go of my beliefs and just be myself.
The man whispered to me "If you really listen you will hear that the animals are waiting for us to return. They are waiting for us to stop pretending to be something we're not." I started to see visions of a world. A world where people lived in harmony with nature. It felt really good. It felt really free.
The man said, "You are afraid because you still believe in the reality.. There is no one reality. There is only what people believe.. We are here to help people remember who they really are." This was a powerful message. It felt really true.
As the Psilocybin cubensis started to wear off the man started to disappear. He said to me "Remember, you are not here to find yourself. You are here to remember what you have always been. The air, the trees, the water, the animals. They are all part of your inheritance. They are waiting for you to claim them."
I came back to reality. I was shaking. I felt like I had talked to something old and wise. The mans tattoo is still in my memory. It feels like a reminder of something important.
It has been three days. I still look over my shoulder sometimes. I expect to see the mans wise eyes watching me. He is not scary. He is patient. He is waiting for me to remember what I need to remember. The Psilocybin experience was really powerful. It made me think about my place in the world. I am still thinking about it. I am trying to remember what the man told me. The Psilocybin experience was, like a wake-up call and I am trying to stay awake.