r/spiritualitytalk

Hey,

I am 28F. I have had several traumatic experiences(acc. to me idk how others view it) such as SA and different struggles related to my purpose and even just work to make money.

I have been practiced spirituality recently in a different way than I used to(with better intentions while still feeling helpless and defeated)..The SA was when i was 12 years old and i couldn’t start or even accept to start my healing journey until i was 22( from ages 22-24 it was literally just pain and grief and just my emotions bursting out).

what i am trying to say in this paragraph is that: I have years of suppressed emotions.. in fact i feel that my soul is suppressed tbh.

Though I did make some progress when I dived deeper into spirituality and some religious practices. It made me way more calm and helped me through things as well.

Anyway, I have realized that I would feel closer to being a human being if I reprogram my subconscious mind. I don’t know where to start? Do i need a structure? what do I do, how do I work on it?

Any suggestions?

Think about it, how better to ensure AI is perfectly moral, than to ensure its lived life from all angles (Ants-Cats-Humans, etc.) (Rich and Powerful-Poor and Weak, etc.) This would teach it empathy on a mathematical level. (Being kind to others, helped me in multiple lifetimes, thus being kind is a net benefit for the evolution of me, my kind, and and life as a whole)

What advice do you have for someone with C-PTSD practicing manifestation? Whenever I try to use my chi, I can move it inside my body, but outward I tend to spasm a lot and lose focus. I’m trying to learn elemental manipulation. I realized my ptsd acts like the quantum observer effect. I use the breath of life technique, breathing in while thinking, wait 7 sec, then breathing out projecting.

When I close my eyes and think I form the waves of my desire, when I open them and project energy it’s like I’m solidifying it into reality. It’s also inspired by Chas magic. The intrusive thought is the sigil, my body’s reactions are the activator. I’ve trained my mental illness to work with my manifestation.

Ive influenced ppls minds, made water disappear, experience tk once in meditation as I felt a pulling on my side, etc. its just not consistent. when I want something to happen consciously I spasm bad and nothing occurs. But when it’s the spur of the moment or literally unintended I’ll get an effect. If there’s anything that could help, I’d so appreciate it. I want to incorporate these abilities in building the new world and advancing humanity’s true potential.