r/GenderDysphoria

Important message from God , and one of his Prophets ( Me). Before I get into that , if anyone wants to chat, I am here for you. I am a bit Gender Fluid now, and have both a male and female spirt, but both are very happy. Only with Gods help , who loves us very much. Just as we are, no matter what we do or who we feel we are inside. It took about 4 years before I didn’t feel like crap inside trying to fake being a male , laughing at my attempts, and having others laugh at me , when I wasn’t in face. But I remembered God loves us, as I am, unconditionally and I wasn’t doing it for them, and I did it, to try in faith and see what happened. It was a battle you don’t have to face , unless you ever wondered if you actually be the Gender that matches your body , and like it. I was actually shocked that I was more or just as Happy in time, and God got rid of the dysphoria part. So I could always feel his love and joy. Not after an extremely hard battle that almost ended in Suicide three times. So I don’t really recommend that anyone just try this , lest they are sick of it, or being abused like I was. I had a lot of Bad people who took advantage of me as a Her. But I have a safe place to stay now , and can be whoever I feel like being, when he is there or her. But they still switch sometimes on me. I share this to let you know God loves you, and he has prepared a place for you. One in which he will call you greater than that of his Sons or his Daughters and he will give you a new name , an everlasting name , and one that will never be cut off. God treated me like I was his most special treasure, and precious to him. He only saw the good in me, and who he made me to be. He said I always love you more than you can possibly ever imagine , no matter what you do, never forget that! He told me he may have to come back and to tell Human Beings he isn’t angry with them, but with the Devils who did this to them, and Hell was a place for Demons and not Human Beings. Evil is not from God and that will stay with the Demons, but if you love and want to be loved, then You are of God. Evil enjoys hating anything Human or Innocent, and takes pleasure from it. Like many Bigots who think it’s Gods Will to hurt us. That is from Evil, not God. He actually destroyed Evil, because they did this to me as a child, and forced me into Prostitution and Drug Addiction, when I was no longer welcome at Home. Evil tried to harm all us, and made a Joke about the 6 Million Jews who were killed in Germany , and the 19 Million Christians who were Killed in Russia shortly after. You may note Jesus Died for our Sins in John Chapter 19, and Sodom and Gomorrah in Genesis 19. They had Taken over what was Gods Humans , and the Flood Baptized them and got them back home. And God gave us the Rainbow to remind us he would never destroy the World again with a flood. The next time will be the fire of Holy Spirt , that will put this Evil where it belongs. The Evil one was showing Psychics like myself, 916, and lying to them about it. He suggested to me , his 9 choirs of unholy angels , became Jesus and killed his Christians and me after death. He lied about it Just as the Bible says he Did. And He likes to invert 916 to 619. Like the Six Million Jews and 19 Million Christians he killed in Germany and Russia. A mark of his number (6) and 19 mocks Genesis 3:19 when God told Adam the truth effect Sin would cause on the Earth. Genesis 19 and John 19. As the Bible Says the Antichrist will mock and scoff at the Faith. He is lying is what the Bible says, and this is the Truth. God has you with him in a New Heaven and New Earth , outside of this Universe and infinite where no demon can ever harm you again. Evil did this to mock the Juneteenth Celebrations. Or 6/19. God Declared humanity to be freed, during last years 50th Jubilee Celebration of The Church. And the Devil did this talking about a Saturday Night Live (Evil) 50th year Anniversary, to mock any sinners who thought Jesus could save you or take you to Heaven. Jesus took us all home before he did this to us. And made him die doing it to his own Demon Fallen Angel Army. As God says the fate of the Demons will be like that unto the Humans. We will die , but we will not Perish, and Evil will die trapped in our deaths and in the Hell they wanted us to take for their sick Evil. I wanted to share this , so you know Jesus has your victory already , you are Loved more than you can possibly ever image by God who made you, no matter what you do, and hurting you, was the last mistake Hell and Evil ever made.

Like the title says, I was born and raised female. I have always been considered a “tom-boy” by others. I love participating in both masculine and feminine activities and spending time with men and women, and don’t have a preference for either.

As I’ve gotten older, my style has become fairly androgynous. I normally wear big tshirts, jeans, typically paired with a flannel or other jackets, but I still love to wear dresses and skirts when the time comes. I feel like I have to have my hair long, because I feel like without it there is nothing feminine about me. The few times that I have had short hair, I felt awful, what little confidence that I had was completely gone. The only time I feel okay in makeup is when I do “trad goth” styles; basically painting my whole face white. I like to put on mascara, but whenever I try to do anymore makeup than that, or wear anything super super feminine(I.e. ball gowns/ formalwear) I can’t help but feel like a little boy who’s gotten into my sisters stuff. Distinctly, I feel like a boy.

Often, whenever other girls are around, I cannot help but to compare myself to them. I admire how feminine they are, but can’t help but feel jealous because it feels like I could never achieve the same. I grow to resent them for having what I feel like I could never achieve.

I have been asked if I am a “dyke” more times than I could count(which I didn’t even know people used that word anymore), despite the fact that I am straight. I think that it is people’s only way to make sense of my style.

I am not trans or gay as far as I am aware, and I do not want to be a man, but I cannot shake the feeling of not being a woman. Inadvertently this has effected many areas in my life, but especially my social life, as i feel too insecure to date, or to spend time with most people, both men and women. My self worth is at an all time low, and it has never been high to begin with.

How do I make sense of these feelings, and validate my femininity without changing my style? How do I integrate stuff like makeup into my routine without feeling out of place? I want to feel confident as myself, but can’t help but hate myself and my appearance so much that i don’t feel like I deserve it.