My body is starting to give up
Doctor diagnose me with anal tumor or rectal cancer with 0.5cm size. Now i'm preparing for MRI and CT scan to get a full image if my cancer invades. The hardest part of my predicament is the time when i needed to poop. I can't poop properly and i need a whole day just to extract my stool out of my stomach. And the most hellish part is where it hurts so bad at the bottom part of my stomach, like a thousand needles are scratching inside and then a small poop will pop out of my ass. I really hate this moments, to the point that I only ate one meal a day just to prepare myself for the upcoming pooping again in next 3 - 4 days.
I really need to get a progress and proceed to get a chemotherapy, mostly a radiation treatment. Cause I can feel my body are starting to give up and im still my 30's and i still want to experience a good life. Just when everything is starting a proper and good life. I'm really scared.