u/slimyclitty

Hiya,

I am looking for someone who would like to message throughout the day, and just check in on each other, what we're up to, how we're getting on, that sorta thing!

I figured it would be nice because it's low commitment, but also, you have someone looking out for you and genuinely interested in how you're doing. Someone you can rebound off, gossip with, or just vent after a frustrsting day.

I am easy to talk to, I don't judge, and I've lived the sorta life where I've really seen it all. I enjoy people who are a little neurodivergent, like myself, but I'm happy to talk to anyone who likes my vibe and thinks we'd get along.

Of course I have a bunch of hobbies & interests we might connect over too, but in the interest of keeping this post short and sweet, please just message to find out more :)

I was born in 1999 and I've noticed over the past 5 years of adulthood a rise in not only my lonliness, but the lonliness of others. What is it about our culture that's causing this and how do I beat it? I talk to friends daily and see as many as I can as often as I can, never say no to any plans, but it isn't enough.

I'm 26 and I first dabbled with psychedelics around 5 years ago. Mushrooms have always been my psychedelic of choice, almost as if they found me, rather than I found them.

I was very adventurous back then, and would do 5-12g doses with friends. They were a lot more intense back then, sometimes I'd even mix it with acid, only to forget who I even am, and to watch the creation of the universe unfold on the top of a blade of grass.

I packed that all in for a year or two, but recently I've been horribly depressed and experiencing anhedonia due to some awful life circumstances, so I grew some mushrooms and I've been dabbling again.

I started small, only a few grams, but soon I found myself playing around with 8-10g lemon teks again...

The high and euphoria from these trips is out of this world. I can feel my brain releasing all the dopamine it possibly can in real time. I'm so full of happiness and joy, that the feelings orgasmic. I lay in the wild grass and I feel as if I could melt away back into the earth, as if my life is complete and I could happily die in that moment.

The issue is, it's always in the back of mind that this euphoria is going to end. Every trip always ends, and no matter how much I chase this enthusiasm for being alive, it always disappeares once the trip ends.

I'm not recieving any long term benefits from what I'm doing, but I feel so hooked on the joy I find myself doing it over and over again. Its the only time I'm happy, and for the rest of my experience, I derive little joy from my daily life.

I'm thinking of jumping back onto Prozac, even though I am worried about my sexual health. Part of me realises that small joy every day is more rewarding over intense joy here and there.

I just need that push to choose the right thing for me, so I'm venting here in the hopes someone who understands my pain could shed some wisdom?

Okay, so I'm not that weird, however I do seem to have a lifestyle that's not super conventional, and it's difficult to find people who are on the same wavelength. In my short time on this earth, I've only met a handful of people I truly understand on a personal level, and I'd really like to try and change that by appealing to people who live life on their own terms and have their own niche interests!

I don't particularly mind what they are. For example, I love calisthenics, yoga, the outdoors; I love hiking and camping when going abroad over just visiting cities. I go to nudist beaches from to time, I like wearing natural fibre cothing, I live and die in my barefoot shoes. That sorta stuff. I like psychedelics, but I spend the majority of my time sober as I do think caring for your mental health is obviously very important.

That's basically it. Not super strange, but also, difficult to find people with similar interests. At the end of the day I also like going to the pub, and seeing friends and family, and spending time with others, so I'm not a recluse, but sometimes I have to do the things I enjoy alone! Which sucks.

I do have a bunch of other intellectual interests, and I'm not spiritual, rather grounded in the world we live in, and just trying to enjoy my time until it's over.

If you fancy a chat please feel free to reach out!