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Like I’m in shock. My first one (2023) wasn’t this bad. I had a girl. I actually took more vitamins this one. I’m 5 months postpartum and I’m in shock at how little hair I have. I know it grows out thicker like when it gets to a year, but this is discouraging 😅. I’ve been trying to grow my hair too. I have a goal in mind, but I feel like damn I really do have to cut my hair now cause it’s literally strands at the end. Thicker at the top. It’s gonna be so ugly growing out SIGH…. And yes I took prenatal after and it didn’t do nothing. The amount of hair that came out of my scalp was just so shocking. the shedding has stopped now which I’m grateful for. Any suggestions? I don’t want to cut my hair… like a drastic mom cut.

I’m 31, and at the age of 29 I experienced my first ever cramp. How do I know this? When I kept asking the doctors (while pregnant) what do contractions feel like? And they were like, “oh you’ll know it’s like period cramps but worse!”

I was like ok! I thought I knew what cramps were. I notoriously get big blood clots during all my periods (maybe like once or twice). And when those pass through it’s kinda painful and I start sweating. I always convulse from how sudden it usually is, but it’s usually quick for me cause I do kegels on the toilet to get the blood clot to come out faster. Works like a charm too.

I didn’t even really experience contractions first pregnancy cause I got an epidural. I felt my first real cramp like 2 weeks after. I’ll never forget it, I thought I was dying. I was laying down with my daughter and I felt the most excruciating stabbing pain in my sides. I jolted up so fast. I thought I was having a heart attack. I ran to tell my husband like I was SHOCKED at the pain. I remember stopping and being like wait…. That was a cramp???? Wtf??? My whole life I thought I experienced them, but I never did. Now my body changed. My first pregnancy I still didn’t really experience cramps. My second pregnancy changed everything. I go through the most excruciating cramps that feel like contractions at 7cms. I’m talking about screaming at the top of my lungs. It scares my two kids but I genuinely can’t manage the pain. It’s so incredibly painful that I feel like passing out. The first 2 days I’m in tears from the pain. I have the take some form of advil every 5 hours. I’m 5 months postpartum and the last 2 periods I had make me shudder. It feels like my uterus didn’t shrink properly. It’s so incredibly painful sometimes I think 15 years worth of cramps are attacking me now. I just want to know has anyone else gone through this too?

I feel slightly embarrassed for not realizing I never experienced cramps in my life. Like plz take me back to the feeling of blood clots (that I had the audacity to complain about). What I’m experiencing now feels like birth over and over again….

I just got really annoyed, like extremely angry just thinking about every last neurotypical in my life and how much I actually don’t like about 98% of them. They cant communicate for shit. Conversation with an end goal is an attack. They find life itself as an attack. You live and die. Just like a hi and bye. And they never say bye too. When they don’t even fucking mean it. They’ll say something stupid like, “oh let’s hang out this weekend.” Bitch you don’t mean that. It’s like saying bye is the most uncomfortable thing for them. It’s okay to say bye. Why is it so hard to get that? Is that it? You want to be distracted up until you die? You want to ignore the fact you’re living? Anything that’s not ideal in supplying the delusion of living is an attack. When I ask why? The delusion gets cracked.

At your job when you don’t engage with the culture of the neurotypical. You will be punished. When you want efficiency there is punishment. There’s no beauty in understanding and finishing something. They want to play HOUSE at their jobs. You’re ruining their created reality in the reality. There’s real easy bake oven world building going on in their shitty minds. It’s not hard to understand and it pisses me off. I can play along too (it’s not hard playing along), but then I look up and see a blue sky. I’m already living. I can’t lie. I can’t act, and they can fucking see it too. It’s scary. It’s like a horror movie.

Just like in romantic relationships. Something so simple can be destroyed with lies. I genuinely don’t understand cheating. I literally don’t get it. Sorry. If I don’t want the person. I’m gonna end it? And if you’re a neurodivergent engaging in cheating and deceiving people. It’s literal evil. You cant communicate your literal desires? It’s a lie. It’s something so strong and fragrant. Yet, they rather treat it as something SHAMEFUL than beautiful. They want to hide it and deceive rather than accept the beauty of it. You can do it and not hurt other people’s feelings you fucking turkey burgers.

The neurotypical way of life is evil. It’s capitalism. It’s in our foods. It’s in the trees. It’s in our houses. It’s in everything. It’s everywhere and the realization just consumed me with rage.

I came to a realization a couple of years ago I needed to be careful who I interact with, but just getting to this point isn’t defeat. It makes me want to live even harder, but more alone than ever.

Humans want to naturally tell the truth, but they do it in the shadows. Behind backs. Somewhere where no one’s looking. It’s so fucking depressing.

How horrible the truth has turned into a weapon rather than liberation for not only yourself, but every single person around you…. The truth isn’t only for you, it’s for all. How they treat the truth makes me believe the devil is real. I refuse to act in their play. I refuse to lie.

I just needed this off my chest LOL. Holy shit I can’t stand them. And it’s actually crazy how they clock me so fast. I just laugh now. Back then oh man I used to get so anxious from that LOOK. And it’s ALWAYS from the one person I find hard to interact with. I’ve been masking for years, but still being my self. I started to slowly unmask without even realizing why. I started getting annoyed by their antics, by their ways- by what I can call their fucking culture now. It’s a culture and way of life. Idc what anyone says.

He’s got a 99 percentile head so I’m assuming it’s a lot to carry. He’s been rolling back and forth since 3 months. He’s been lifting his head since like 2.5 months. I have no worries there. He can do tummy time for like an 40 mins max (until he starts whining).

I just noticed today he’s preferring to carry his head on the left side. He can keep it up straight, but at some point he lets it hang to the left side. Should I be worried about that?

He’s already trying to attempt to crawl. It’s nuts. I had a girl before him (2.5 at the moment). It’s insane how different they are with milestones.

He’s 99 percentile in every category. Height, weight, head etc.

I need some reassurance I guess. My 2.5 year old knows a lot of words. She has what seems like maybe a speech impediment (or that’s just how 2.5 years old talk). Sometimes she’ll pronounce the words perfectly and then most days it’s like she takes shortcuts pronouncing words. She understands amazingly. Basically everything I tell her to do she comprehends.

She STILL won’t tell me she’s hungry though. I always beat her too it. And when she is hungry she gets frustrated and waits for ME to tell her and then she repeats what I say and says, “let’s go.”

I did teach her to tell me when she poops (I’m potty training her soon). So she points to her diaper and says, “I pooped. Diaper” and thats her way of telling me to change her diaper. I’ve been spamming, “hey what’s your name?” To her which she repeats and asks us a lot.

She can say, “ I love you,” and “what’s this?” When she points at something. I’ll tell her what it is and from there on out will always know what it is. She’s good at info sticking in her head.

I just feel anxious I guess cause it’s her knowing a lot of words, but not.. talking? If that makes sense. I mean does it count as talking? I guess it seems like she’s busy learning all these words, how do I help her more bring them together?

She talks in a lot of gibberish. She can play pretend amazingly. She loves when I play pretend with her. Lots of gibberish. She’s kinda shy showing her verbal skills to people, but opens up slowly.

I had a baby 4 months ago and I feel like that shifted her progress :( idk if I’m overthinking. I do have a speech therapist coming soon to see her. We already did the evaluation. They were very impressed by her and said she’s very smart. Maybe my expectations are too high? And she’s just progressing differently?

Also what am I gonna expect from here to when she turns 3? She’s never been to daycare and I think she’s ready. She looooooves other kids when she sees them. I think it’ll help her a lot.

She’s my first kid.