u/holycrap100

My mental health is being greatly affected by the misogyny I see on Reddit. I was on r/antipornography and like every post is bashing men calling us disgusting , lame , perverted, etc. I'm just tired. Seems like on social media in general , men bash women and vice versa. I love reddit but there is like negativity in every sub. I see people in my city's sub asking for advice on moving there and everything is heavily down voted or people bashing the OP. Anyone else feel the same ? I'm just super addicted and spend most of my free time here because I'm lonely and stressed.

I have always liked fat women. However, porn makes me want to go after women way way older than me . I see ones at the supermarket or just anywhere and I feel like I want to bone everyone of them or at least try to convince them. I tend to find myself only wanting women for their bodies. Will this go away with less porn usage?

Also I look for them to have extremely large breasts and find myself saying to myself "man if that women's chest was bigger I would think she is hot "

Every job i work at people say something like , " wow you look excited to be here " or some similar line that is meant to be sarcastic. It always bothers me every time someone says it, for some reason. I feel like I'm being made fun of. I guess I always look that way because I hate my job to the extreme. I try to fake a smile or look alert but then people always say "dude you laugh/smile too much". I can't win

I am a middle aged man but still struggle this. A lot of people tell me I'm too nice and everywhere I go, whether it's co workers , family or strangers, people try to treat me like shit and run over me. People often make fun of my slow speech pattern and don't take me serious when I say things.

People who are not my boss constantly criticize me or try to tell me what to do and I listen and don't say anything because I want to avoid conflict. This is because usually when I get mad , I literally want to hurt someone or do something even worse. I don't want to be put in a position where I could end up in jail.

Also another example is my father and my mom are still married but my mom has dementia (I live 6 hours away . Thank God ). My dad wants to have his freedom (he is 73) and tries to offer me money to come take care of her so he doesn't have to do it. He wants me to put all my hopes and dreams aside so he can go accomplish his and it is not fair but I don't usually respond to him when he pushes me to do what he wants or make decisions that please him.

How can I stop being weak and stand up to people without fear?

I feel like not a lot of things seem exciting to me when I don't watch porn. I sit around bored or I will go for an errand to get out of my apartment. I also am super stressed out about my finances and job (because my boss hates me and I'm being physically overworked to the point I wake up sore every mornig. From my warehouse job). I was thinking of playing games again because I never was addicted but you can only play so many video games before getting bored.