u/ghostlymilks

Yo! Looking for a new roleplay and it’s a little different this time.

Looking for someone to roleplay Hellsing with! Now I mainly wanted to roleplay Hellsing to try out Jan Valentine—an underrated, very random character, I know. So I was looking for more CanonxOc or CanonxCanon.

It can be romance, platonic, beyond that, etc. I’m not picky and am open to all sorts of things. We can come up with a plot together.

You gotta be 18 years or older man. Not tryna catch a case.

I’m semi-lit to literate. I can send an example of one of my recent roleplay replies if need be. I just don’t like one liners lmao.

Hit me up if ur interested!

Yo! Looking for a new roleplay and it’s a little different this time.

Looking for someone to roleplay Hellsing with! Now I mainly wanted to roleplay Hellsing to try out Jan Valentine—an underrated, very random character, I know. So I was looking for more CanonxOc or CanonxCanon.

It can be romance, platonic, beyond that, etc. I’m not picky and am open to all sorts of things. We can come up with a plot together.

You gotta be 18 years or older man. Not tryna catch a case.

I’m semi-lit to literate. I can send an example of one of my recent roleplay replies if need be. I just don’t like one liners lmao.

Hit me up if ur interested!

i highkey get dopamine from being called a guy or seen as a guy. (have for a long while) like not just a little dopamine, but A LOT. i have a second account on TT where people think i’m a guy and when me and my friend are on discord servers they all think i’m a guy everytime and it feels great being called a he or treated like a guy. its like that same dopamine i got when i was trans in middle school, especially when my friend plays along and calls me a he in those servers. like why was i SO much more confident when i was in my “trans phase” compared to now? i mean i love doing makeup and being girly and things, but i think about my looks constantly compared to when I was perceived as male. i was confident as fuuuck. the way women treat me when they think im a guy is great too, i get way more attention from them and way less attention from men which just doubles the dopamine. i sometimes wish i was a cis male or wish that i had a machine that i can switch from being a cis male or a cis woman whenever i want. idk, but i think im gonna stay anonymous on my discord and second account because when they call me he on those it feels so good, even though thats probably fucked up to lie like that. and then after my next two cosplays im gonna take off my eyelash extensions and start cosplaying full male characters too without genderbending them. i think that could possibly help a little, we’ll see. ive been feeling like this for a real long time, so i tried going by they/them a long while ago but that doesnt give me the same feeling at all.

something else thats more fucked up? when i think about transitioning to a guy it gets me excited, but then theres a big part of me thats still like “wait… no but i’d miss being a girl.” i mean what the hell? is this even normal?

i highkey get dopamine from being called a guy or seen as a guy. (have for a long while) like not just a little dopamine, but A LOT. i have a second account on TT where people think i’m a guy and when me and my friend are on discord servers they all think i’m a guy everytime and it feels great being called a he or treated like a guy. its like that same dopamine i got when i was trans in middle school, especially when my friend plays along and calls me a he in those servers. like why was i SO much more confident when i was in my “trans phase” compared to now? i mean i love doing makeup and being girly and things, but i think about my looks constantly compared to when I was perceived as male. i was confident as fuuuck. the way women treat me when they think im a guy is great too, i get way more attention from them and way less attention from men which just doubles the dopamine. i sometimes wish i was a cis male or wish that i had a machine that i can switch from being a cis male or a cis woman whenever i want. idk, but i think im gonna stay anonymous on my discord and second account because when they call me he on those it feels so good, even though thats probably fucked up to lie like that. and then after my next two cosplays im gonna take off my eyelash extensions and start cosplaying full male characters too without genderbending them. i think that could possibly help a little, we’ll see. ive been feeling like this for a real long time, so i tried going by they/them a long while ago but that doesnt give me the same feeling at all.

something else thats more fucked up? when i think about transitioning to a guy it gets me excited, but then theres a big part of me thats still like “wait… no but i’d miss being a girl.” i mean what the hell? is this even normal?

i highkey get dopamine from being called a guy or seen as a guy. (have for a long while) like not just a little dopamine, but A LOT. i have a second account on TT where people think i’m a guy and when me and my friend are on discord servers they all think i’m a guy everytime and it feels great being called a he or treated like a guy. its like that same dopamine i got when i was trans in middle school, especially when my friend plays along and calls me a he in those servers. like why was i SO much more confident when i was in my “trans phase” compared to now? i mean i love doing makeup and being girly and things, but i think about my looks constantly compared to when I was perceived as male. i was confident as fuuuck. the way women treat me when they think im a guy is great too, i get way more attention from them and way less attention from men which just doubles the dopamine. i sometimes wish i was a cis male or wish that i had a machine that i can switch from being a cis male or a cis woman whenever i want. idk, but i think im gonna stay anonymous on my discord and second account because when they call me he on those it feels so good, even though thats probably fucked up to lie like that. and then after my next two cosplays im gonna take off my eyelash extensions and start cosplaying full male characters too without genderbending them. i think that could possibly help a little, we’ll see. ive been feeling like this for a real long time, so i tried going by they/them a long while ago but that doesnt give me the same feeling at all.

something else thats more fucked up? when i think about transitioning to a guy it gets me excited, but then theres a big part of me thats still like “wait… no but i’d miss being a girl.” i mean what the hell? is this even normal?

Yo! Recently been interested in getting back into role playing after god knows how long, and am trying to look for a partner

I do M4M or M4F. I do CanonxOC, CanonxCanon or OcxOc, although I may want to most likely play a canon character this time considering theres characters ive been wanting to try out.

Gotta be 18 or older and nothing less! Im not tryna catch a case man.

I like literate or semi-literate. Can’t handle one sentence replies, especially if I send a paragraph and thats all I get back.

I’m looking to roleplay Naruto or Jujutsu Kaisen, no plot in mind yet but i’m down to figure that out with you.

Hmu if you’re interested yo.

Yo! Recently been interested in getting back into role playing after god knows how long, and am trying to look for a partner

I do M4M or M4F. I do CanonxOC, CanonxCanon or OcxOc, although I may want to most likely play a canon character this time considering theres characters ive been wanting to try out.

Gotta be 18 or older and nothing less! Im not tryna catch a case man.

I like literate or semi-literate. Can’t handle one sentence replies, especially if I send a paragraph and thats all I get back.

I’m looking to roleplay Naruto or Jujutsu Kaisen, no plot in mind yet but i’m down to figure that out with you.

Hmu if you’re interested yo.

Do any other alternative people get a little lonely in Utah? I mean there’s an alternative scene I love to frequent—shows, get togethers, pop up shops, even cons but even then they aren’t as often as I want and aren’t as big as other communities are in other states. I don’t mind the bullying much—gotten used to it over the years and they’re just like a fly in my ear at this point, but man I just wish there was MORE regardless of there already being a scene here, y’know? I just want more alternative and cosplay bros.