u/cezal

Jesus is not my homeboy

I originally posted this in the exvangelical sub, but I’ve yet to receive a good counter argument to my intentionally controversial claim, specifically, a counter argument to a safe place many progressive ex-Christians float to as peacemakers. When I see candidates like James Tallarico try to reclaim Christ for the left, us ex-Christians applaud…

But I’ve been deep into deconstructing Christianity the past few days, going through a lot of heavy emotions. One conclusion I’ve come to is that, Jesus is the figurehead for the most successful cult ever created, the mascot, the Trump, so to speak, of the first MAGA movement…

…but way more effective, and way more evil.

Jesus is the greatest piece of shit who ever lived.

I was talking to my very atheist friend, who was also an exvie, and somehow my perspective was even too extreme for him. He said, “well I think Paul was worse than Jesus, because Paul really preached the hellfire and brimstone and Jesus not so much. I agree with about 80% of what Jesus said.” and I asked him, so you think 80% is enough? If someone is 80% good but the 20% diddles children, it really doesn’t matter what the 80% was. In fact, someone who is 80% good and does 20% evil is actually more dangerous than someone who’s obviously evil. The wolf in sheep’s clothing. Jesus gave us the image of him as the Shepherd, but he is the wolf, make no mistake.

Jesus and Paul are still feeding you the same toxic bullshit. In Jesus‘s theology, hell exists, and he is the only way to salvation. Jesus is literally quoted saying that you have to forsake your own children for him. Think about it. This is just some random fucking bearded, unwashed, homeless, white guy…the ultimate cult leader, the ultimate lazy, fucking asshole who is blessed with the power of manipulation, who knows how to say the right things to trick vulnerable people into giving him what he wants, always making it about himself…

….the first narcissist. The greatest narcissist.

(Matthew 10:37 NIV): "Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me"….

Guys. A homeless guy said that. Someone actually wrote it down. Not only did they write it down. They believed it, and they spread it to every inch of the world, and they still believe it for over 2000 years.

The reason, my trans sister committed suicide in 2018 was because my father refused to accept her because of his faith in Christianity. He chose Jesus over his son. He obeyed Jesus’s teaching.

Imagine that kind of power? To be a homeless guy from the desert, wander in, say some dumb shit, and 2000+ years later an innocent trans girl kills herself.

Think about all the pain caused in between.

It’s unimaginable.

Jesus H. Christ is the most successful and damaging cult leader, perhaps human being, that has ever lived on earth.

If I was an alien coming to examine all of human history, I would look at it and say, “Well, who did the most damage? Near the top of the list people like Hitler, Genghis Khan, but they all pale in comparison to Jesus, who fucked with people’s minds for 2000 years and counting, billions and billions and billions of people abused by one narcissistic dipshit with a good story.

Trump will never be an ounce of the villian that Jesus was…

…but what about the next guy?
All the next fucking narcissist who applies for the job needs to do is take a page out of Jesus’s playbook…

That person could be 10 times more dangerous than anything we’ve experienced yet…

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u/cezal — 23 hours ago

Jesus is not my homeboy

I’ve been deep into deconstruction the past few days, going through a lot of heavy emotions. One conclusion I’ve come to is that, Jesus, the figurehead for the most successful cult ever created, the mascot, the Trump, so to speak, of the first MAGA movement…

…but way more effective, and way more evil.

Jesus is the greatest piece of shit who ever lived.

I was talking to my very atheist friend, who was also an exvie, and somehow my perspective was even too extreme for him. He said, “well I think Paul was worse than Jesus, because Paul really preached the hellfire and brimstone and Jesus not so much. I agree with about 80% of what Jesus said.” and I asked him, so you think 80% is enough? If someone is 80% good but the 20% diddles children, it really doesn’t matter what the 80% was. In fact, someone who is 80% good and does 20% evil is actually more dangerous than someone who’s obviously evil. The wolf in sheep’s clothing. Jesus gave us the image of him as the Shepherd, but he is the wolf, make no mistake.

Jesus and Paul are still feeding you the same toxic bullshit. In Jesus‘s theology, hell exists, and he is the only way to salvation. Jesus is literally quoted saying that you have to forsake your own children for him. Think about it. This is just some random fucking bearded, unwashed, homeless, white guy…the ultimate cult leader, the ultimate lazy, fucking asshole who is blessed with the power of manipulation, who knows how to say the right things to trick vulnerable people into giving him what he wants, always making it about himself…

….the first narcissist. The greatest narcissist.

(Matthew 10:37 NIV): "Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me"….

Guys. A homeless guy said that. Someone actually wrote it down. Not only did they write it down. They believed it, and they spread it to every inch of the world, and they still believe it for over 2000 years.

The reason, my trans sister committed suicide in 2018 was because my father refused to accept her because of his faith in Christianity. He chose Jesus over his son. He obeyed Jesus’s teaching.

Imagine that kind of power? To be a homeless guy from the desert, wander in, say some dumb shit, and 2000+ years later an innocent trans girl kills herself.

Think about all the pain caused in between.

It’s unimaginable.

Jesus H. Christ is the most successful and damaging cult leader, perhaps human being, that has ever lived on earth.

If I was an alien coming to examine all of human history, I would look at it and say, “Well, who did the most damage? Near the top of the list people like Hitler, Genghis Khan, but they all pale in comparison to Jesus, who fucked with people’s minds for 2000 years and counting, billions and billions and billions of people abused by one narcissistic dipshit with a good story.

Trump will never be an ounce of the villian that Jesus was…

…but what about the next guy?
All the next fucking narcissist who applies for the job needs to do is take a page out of Jesus’s playbook…

That person could be 10 times more dangerous than anything we’ve experienced yet…

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u/cezal — 1 day ago

Having children unlocked my childhood trauma

It took 8 long years after the birth of my first son for me to realize that my parents were gaslighting monsters. My body did all the deciding for me. It was slow at first, being “really overwhelmed” by my love for my children. Being moved to tears by them…but not happy tears…triggered tears. This turned into daily crying sessions when I would drop them off at school, which led to not even being able to look at their pictures because of how cute they are. I realized tonight that I’m just mourning the childhood I never had. The sentimentality I struggled with my entire life? It was always there, I was always a sensitive kid, but I put up tough walls for a long time that having kids…well, biology is an amazing thing. I sure do love them though, and even more so tonight as I watch them sleep, realizing these little nuggets unintentionally helped me finally see the psychological trauma I was being subjected to (subconsciously subjecting myself to through negative self talk and impossible self standards) on a daily basis for my entire life. It was them, and they’ll never even realize they helped me stop the cycle. Tl;dr my life as a father is just a “who rescued who” bumper sticker.

Is this a common thing that happens? Anyone out there experience similar feelings / catalysts for breakthroughs, after having children?

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u/cezal — 1 day ago

How am I doing?

Figuring out my boundaries has been a rough process, a mixture of me pushing them further and further back and them having near amnesia of what I’ve been screaming at them for the past 10 years…

u/cezal — 6 days ago