u/Yaboykitten

The reason I ask this, I have DID and recently one of our alters had popped out, who holds a lot of the trauma we've experienced.

He realized something, that he cannot eat, whenever he attempts to eat he starts violently gagging or throwing up, feeling disgusted with himself not because of body issues or texture issues, but because it reminds him of something horrible but he says he can't remember.

Whenever he attempts to eat any food, but especially when it's warm and soft he starts crying and crying and spits it out and would tell me that he feels horrible about himself, starts rocking himself to self-soothe, and dissociates.

Is it possible to have something like this happen? Your body remembering something you don't?

I feel so stupid, me as an alter, I can't stop associating everything with trauma, it's the most ridiculous things that set me off.

Eating, disgusting, I don't want anything anywhere near my mouth or anyone touching my mouth and even trying to eat is a nightmare and makes me want to cry.

I can't hear kids crying, I'm reminded of when I was crying. I look like an idiot rocking back and forth when I hear kids crying, trying myself to self soothe when it's just a kid having a tantrum from normal kid things like wanting to play longer, wanting a toy, etc, normal things.

Someone saying they want to hold me or that I'm held, I don't want to be held I want to be left alone and no one to ever lay a finger on me.

I feel like these thing shouldn't activate me so much, but I just feel so much disgust and horror that I will be violently shaking and crying and can't stop.

I'm a grown adult, I just want to feel like one.

It is so challenging even with stuff I enjoy to just....enjoy it! (Unless I'm hyperfixating on something because of ADHD as well) I seem to have a hard time just sitting down and picking something.

When I think of an activity, I get this pressure that suddenly it's something I have to do, or if I tell myself I *should* do something, whether it being playing a video game, reading something interesting, or playing a tabletop roleplaying game with friends, I suddenly feel like I can't, I put this pressure of myself or my brain starts to treat something enjoyable like an unfun obligation.

I know logically that of course I just do it, but suddenly transitioning from the prior activity to this other one even if it's going to be enjoyable feels hard or impossible sometimes.

As a result of all this I spend more time than not just sitting, staring at my computer screen or at whatever interesting or fun thing I was going to read or use for an activity.

If I feel that pressure from an external source or internally I just feel no desire to do the thing that I like doing!

What are some ways you can counteract this?

I'm going be playing a zombie werewolf (Skeleton beastkin mechnically) bones oracle and I'm trying to figure out what exactly would motivate him to do good things, he's going to masquerade himself around most people except for the party because he's a shambling undead and whatnot, but what could motivate him to still be good?

The initial thoughts I had regarding him is he was cursed with lycanthropy and struggled to control his beastial urges which then resulted in his death at the hands of townsfolk. Then dumped him in a shallow grave to be forgotten about.

A weak group of necromancers that was a part of the initial townsfolk that heard about it thought they could resurrect him as their own monstrous beast to use against their enemies but their necromancy was subpar, he quickly gains control of himself again and due to a combination of their inept casting skills, his own rot and decay he started out at level 1, kills the weak necromancers and goes on his way to start his adventure.

I wanted his great freedom to come with him becoming a bones oracle, but trying to figure out his personality is a little bit of a challenge, I want him to be a good guy still, maybe atoning for his years as a lycanthrope by being a wandering adventurer, but how could I fill him out more?

I liked the idea of him being stuck in wereform and forced to disguise, through magic or otherwise if that could play a part in it.

So in my friends one shot, we are all playing kinda goofy or cool sounding characters since it's my first time playing pathfinder.

My idea was a werewolf (Skeleton beastkin mechanically) zombie, he's a bones oracle who was raised by lowly weak necromancers that couldn't keep him under control and now with his new unholy powers and his mind as his own he wants to fight against evil foes and enemies, but he's stuck in wereform in his undeath,

We think we might have a city in the one shot and plus I honestly mostly with him and another character I created might just want to use him for a proper campaign.

He's a big tall lithe rotting werewolf, other than draping himself in cloaks and maybe trying to pass himself off as a kitsune, what are some magical options or other things we could do?

My friends are trying to get me into pathfinder as I've played the pathfinder CRPGS on pc and even though I'm still working on them I really enjoy them!

I've been getting to know the pathfinder 2e system and decided to make a character for a campaign that may happen with them and just a character that I wanted to take forward for other campaigns if it makes sense.

The idea was, a resentment patron veil may kholo changeling witch, with his mom being his patron. The idea is, is that despite being worshippers of lamashtu his family rejected him for weakness and being the 'runt' of the litter and being a weak and feeble thing that wouldn't survive alone for more than a day.

So his mom comes in, saves him, begrudgingly decides to raise him, eventually forming a sort of twisted familial love towards her son, believing he needs to become a prodigy of evil and spite like her.

As a result she raises him on the belongings of people she killed, trying to make him adept with witchcraft, and inevitably believes that *she* must be his patron, keeping him safeguarded and trying to turn him into a monster like her, checking in on him every now and then and making sure he is up to no good, maybe scaring him a little bit (An idea from a friend).

Of course this fails however with my kholo who is now instead a complete scaredy cat and prone to cowardice and subservient to a degree where he willing to bad or good things just to gain the approval of others, fearing the consequences of not doing what he's told more than anything.

Could this concept work for pathfinder? Sorry if it's edgy haha, this is my first character.

So my friend wanted to get me into pathfinder and start a campaign as I've played the pathfinder kingmaker and wrath of the righteous video games and already play a lot of DnD, so they recommended I create a character for their one shot and to use in further campaigns with them.

My character is a kholo changeling witch with a blood hag mom, basically the idea is that he was rejected by his birth family/adoptive family and one of the crucial parts of his childhood is his mother is attempting to mold him into just a spiteful and evil creature as she is, taking him under his wing to raise him and attempt to turn him into a villain like her.

However this fails and ultimately results in my chaotic neutral witch with his patron being his own mother helping him gain more power and attempt to become evil on his adventures but failing again and again.

This is all fine and dandy but what could cause a blood hag to readopt their child, as I understand it they are the most likely to be accepted by their fathers birth family? How could this be justified?