Just letting everyone here know that my younger brother saw a world history video in his 6th grade class, and exclaimed "this is so weird because I only know him as the pizzamas guy because of your weird shirts..."
Hey all,
Nothing crazy or anything, but I guess seeking peer support. My new psych (My 5th one I think?) doesn't think I'm bipolar, and I think she may be right. I just feel weird about it. I've been seen my so many psychs, and paid for private assessments. All this fucking shit and it's all still so confusing lol? Why must it be this way!!!
Anyways, she wants to put me on SSRIs to see if it'll help my OCD (which she thinks is the main issue), or if it'll make me manic. Lets hope it makes me a bunch better!!
Help??
A year ago, a psychiatrist told me I was just an agsty teenager. Then a new psychiatrist came along, and I was diagnosed with mood disorder NOS.
Then recently I paid 4k for an assessment and was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 w rapid cycling w psychotic features.
Today, I came to the hospital because I felt like shit, and the psychiatrist who saw me said he obviously can't rediagnose me since it's an ER setting, but he's positive I don't have the level of psychotic symptoms needed to reach BP1, and so it's more likely I have BP2 or even cyclothymia, and that my other stuff is better explained by my ADHD, ASD, and OCD diagnoses (which I honestly agree with).
What the fuck. And on top of all of this no psychiatrist in the whole fucking city offers long-term management? I'm just getting new fucking diagnostic impressions every time I go somewhere. What do I do with this shit!?!? I know the treatment is similar, but I'm so confused. I'm just being medicated out of my mind so I feel better I guess? Like what the fuck?
Brought myself to the ER Psych Ward. Wish me luck evil autisms!
After having a week straight of bearable days and absolutely terrible nights, I decided to bring myself to the local ER psych ward. I don't know what they'll do, if anything, but I'm determined to find SOMETHING that helps. I'm hoping they can help me access that.
Autism can be tough, but rapid cycling hasn't been easy either. Even with medication, therapy, psychologist, coping skills... it's unbearable a lot. But I need to find my way through. So, dear future me, I hope you're doing better. I hope you're feeling stable, and I hope you're happy.
Fuck you Bipolar Disorder w Rapid Cycling w Psychotic Features. Not a good fucking vibe. My autism will overpower you one day and I will once again rule my autism kingdom.
After having a week straight of bearable days and absolutely terrible nights, I decided to bring myself to the local ER psych ward. I don't know what they'll do, if anything, but I'm determined to find SOMETHING that helps. I'm hoping they can help me access that.
Rapid cycling hasn't been easy, and it never was. Even with medication, therapy, psychologist, coping skills... it's unbearable a lot. But I need to find my way through. So, dear future me, I hope you're doing better. I hope you're feeling stable, and I hope you're happy.
Fuck you Bipolar Disorder w Rapid Cycling w Psychotic Features. Not a good fucking vibe.
Hey all,
I recently had to take a few days off work on account of getting lice, and I think the routine change triggered a bit of a mixed episode. I feel worse than I have in a long time. The last time I remember feeling this bad was when I was in and out of hospital. I can't sleep, or maybe I just don't want to. I can'r reallt tell. I'm exhausted, but I'm wired. I want nothing more than to overdose, not so I die, but just because I'm so bored and restless that I'm craving something dangerous and terrible. I don't know what to do. Help?
Is this like, even possible?
I'm decently stable right now, and have been ever since getting properly medicated, but like jesus I CANNOT find anyone my age who gets it. I also am diagnosed with Autism and OCD (and ADHD but idgaf about that one lol) which changes stuff. Idk, something about my experiences being in and out of mental hospitals for a year and now being unable to participate in traditional education despite being a very smart person makes it really hard for me to connect with people my age... particularly because so many of them are so focused on using diagnostic language so casually or like it's the root of all their issues. I know so many freaking people who say shit like "my ADHD (self diagnosed) made me forget!!" And they're almost always people under 25. It just peeves me and I physically can't be around them without trying to explain why using language like that can be harmful.
Anyways, help? How do I find the cool people my age? How do I stop being so peeved and feeling ao disconnected from all of them? It makes me feel so lonely.
Hey all! I'm wondering when professionals deem a cluster of diagnostic labels (i.e. 4 or more) to be justifiable? For example, I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder, OCD, ADHD, and Autism. I was diagnosed after a 10hr long assessment with a psychometrist and psychologist. I know therapists aren't diagnostic professionals, but I'm curious as to what you think of clients like myself with lots of labels. Do you meet peoplw for whom they all certainly apply? Thanks!
I know this isn't a hopeful/optimistic thing to think, but I can't help but worry that I have brain damage. I had a decently early onset of bipolar 1 (around 14) and spent 4 years rapid cycling and leaning INTO the episodes before getting diagnosed after doing some truly crazy stuff.
I worry so much that because I spent so much of these important developmental years cycling through episodes that I've got some irreparable brain damage.
My main reason to worry is that ever since going to the hospital, I've been unable to engage in anything musical. I used to be in orchestras, bound to be an educator, and now I can't even write or play something without having an episode...
Anyways, I know that nothing will change whether or not I know if I did have brain damage. That theoretical potential doesn't matter at all, because my life is what I make of it... still. It hurts to think about how close I was to being the best version of myself...
Advice?