u/Savvyxn

Not even 5 minutes out the door there’s a man walking 2 big dogs mind you I have two little ones. 1 is 2 years the other is 1 years old. Well the 2 year old escaped the harness it snapped off, I always secure it. He runs to the dogs and the man was very sweet about it saying it’s okay my dogs don’t bite.

Look I’m not saying it’s the dogs fault but what in the hell can I do when they stop at every dog during walks and honestly it wasn’t ever this bad. They pull the leash , they don’t know commands and I try reaching them the 2 year old is very shy gets timid easy funny enough he tries to run up on a big dog. He’s actually lucky he did not get mauled Im so anxious I threw up in my hands when I got home.

To make matters worst we have a clear bubble in the fence which basically allows them to bark at people or dogs walking by. They will sit and bark at guests if anyone comes over while keeping a distance. My dad spoils these dogs with treats just for coming in the house I just don’t know anymore. I’m the only one in this house who just doesn’t find this cute .

I’m stressed cause I need a job. I had quit my retail one over a few things and there wasn’t many hrs. Anyone who doesn’t struggle with generalized anxiety or social won’t understand this at all. If you think all I need to do is exposure therapy I’ll happily tell you I do it in stores, I do it in groups and anywhere I can be social honestly. It just sucks no retail places are hiring and fast food is just strict has way higher standards, as well people care for their jobs as they are the ones keeping up with the restaurant. If I apply get hired and do bad it’s just gonna be hell for me. I’m legit scared not because of the people but because I feel like I really will mess up in a fast pace environment like that. I will look like a lost duck going back and fourth or staring to see what to do next and I’m not a idiot it’s just fast pace stresses me out alot where I lose the flow sometimes.

I wish I was on Lexapro again cause it helped so much with everything but I’m waiting for insurance approval. I’m 20F and it sucks feeling this useless . Like when I walk in everyone will likely talk shit behind my back for slowing the place down. I overthink and am hard on myself cause I just know from experience when I had my first fast food job it wasn’t amazing .

Making friends for me isn’t hard although I spent my birthday alone this month. I just can’t get close to them. I’m gonna just stereotype these friends so don’t take this to heart. I just wish I could have friends who meet me in the middle. I have incredibly nerdy friends I mean that in a good way but then life for me starts feeling boring, they notice I don’t wanna hang or call as much or simply the fact I just don’t have nerdy interests to the extreme like them to share about. Then I have party type friends and I favor them more but most of them tend to have an obsession with just drinking or smoking weed and that’s not all I want in my life neither do I enjoy or even play guys I’m not a player just wouldn’t fulfill me.

I wish I just had a friend who was just down for stuff and if they weren’t that’s fine too. But I feel like I’m easily judged in every way if I’m not meeting an expectation and I’ve always been the floater friends for this reason honestly . I’m 19F and idk just I don’t fully ever fit into an actual group .

Realistically I can eat 3x a day maybe 4x if it’s a snack. College/work doesn’t give time so I do preparations. There’s not many bulk ideas online unless it requires eating huge amounts I only have a okay appetite. I live in USA any recommendations on high calorie carbs, meats, snacks,desserts fs even so I can get an idea or make ideas with it. I’ve began making my own protein bars as it gets pricey than I have a weight gain shake that I only drink 3x a week messes up with my stomach since it’s heavy.

It can be ingredients or ideas! Not allergic to anything and got a good tummy to handle heavy foods

Having anxiety where it affects your body is one of the worst or just makes you feel so alone. Even my friends don’t understand why I get so worried. Once my insurance approves I will consider medication again but I’ve been really stressed about things where it leaves me with headaches or just sweating so bad. Working out would be good if I do that more but I’ve also had a horrible sleep schedule and need to eat more plus protein cause I’m underweight so working out a ton isn’t ideal but I should atleast do some to feel better. I find walking my dogs can help sometimes but idk I’m gonna be turning 20 on my birthday and the crippling anxiety of things I haven’t achieved cause of personal reasonings have really gotten to me. I’m at a big age now I’m hitting my 20s I have college to catch up, I have to save for a car and get a full time. I’ve been inconsistent with each and even lost my last new job due to anxiety like fired for first time. As much as I am trying I feel like I need to try harder cause my mind hinders me from doing things. I need to just do it. Even getting my license took a lot longer :(.
Job hunting has been so stressful where I have constant headaches all day. I’m constantly splashing cold water on my face to calm down it helps a bit.

To start off my head is hurting, I’ve been applying at retail places nonstop I have 2 years worth of experience for retail but no interviews yet. Now I’m scared as fuck to go into restaurants cause my anxiety is so bad it makes me dumb like actually. I can’t do fast pace or my brain just stops working istg it’s happened before or I naturally slow down double checking things. Lexapro has helped me a lot in the past but I have no insurance for medication right now and I’m stressing about getting a job. But like if I know a place that’s gonna be replying fast to me it’s restaurants or fast food… it legit might be my only choice but I’m scared cuz like I said it’s like my brain stops working. I keep beating myself up over this like idk what to do.

If anyone has tips help a girl out pls cuz I need a job wtv it might be I just have to do it

I’ve been applying for retail jobs nonstop where it’s hurting my head.

My family always thinks spoiled dogs are cute but I’m tired how reactive they can be on walks (I’m the only who walks them), or if I tell them go outside they’ll stare at me blankly. On walks they don’t even listen to me when I say “treats” they are overly excited by the walk they won’t pay attention to me or the treat. I’m not blaming the dogs ofc it’s us but I have no idea how to really start one is 2 year old, other is 1 year he listens better.

I’ve spent time working on myself lately and it’s a constant reminder I’m behind on life compare to my friends. I’ve been crying all day I can barely eattt. It’d be nice to take my mind off while I do some chores tonight and try to make a new friend :). My time zone is CST if yours is similar feel free to dm!!

I hope everyone reads my post before commenting. I’m looking for anything that can help with my body from rushing adrenaline, deep breathing/high heart rate, when I have any performance. It can be socially or work and my hands will tremble from anxiety.

I’ve tried aswhangda-66, 600mg, L-theanine 200mg don’t see a difference with those .HTP-5 60mg has helped lotss but I might need a slight higher dose, melatonin helps me sleep but I tend to avoid taking as it doesn’t do much for me. I’ve tried Lexapro, Wellbutrin from psychiatrist just didn’t workout for me. It’s like I have low dopamine and serotonin. The htp-5 helps me with my anxiety and stress. I’m thinking l-tyrosine can help a lot with improving my focus and overall motivation. But I know that can also cause anxiety. I’ve been googling over and over I’m hoping anyone has had any similar experience to me what NOOTROPICS have worked for your body anxiety?

Edit: For those commenting and have thank you a ton I’ll try most of these supplements and test out doesn’t hurt to try!!

For the future I will look into beta blockers/medications once I have my insurance that can be suitable but as of now supplements I want to try more before relying on meds.

I want female friendships as a woman, I’m 19F it’s easy to make friends when you had them your whole life in a hometown but what about once you move? I’ve been in this new area for 4 years and in highschool I had group of friends but out of highschool not one ever personally reach out to me, they replaced me with their boyfriends which hurt a lot tbh cause a lot of girls I know tend to find super loyal guys which I’d be happy for them but same time super sad how I’m alone and feels like everyone is trying to find someone and they forget their friends. I’ve never been a relationship girl but nowadays I want one cause like damn I’m so lonely. If I was in college I’m sure it’d help a little but everyone I know I feel like uses me for some sort of connection or I’m always a leader of something never do I get invited to anything. Then I also really attract energy vampire kinda people and it’s like I’m not here for you to vent 24/7 so I’d take space away from those people cause they really aren’t my close friends.

I’m also not super quirky but I’m pretty positive and I just don’t see what the issue is tbh. Maybe I’m not interesting enough but I share my hobbies and such I don’t know why I need to carry the convo all the time.

My issue is it had really good reviews, said it comes fast, and this says LOCAL. I’m fine for how long shipping is but this my first time any item has taken over 4 days to ship tbh. It says in total they give the seller 15 days, and I tried messaging AliExpress or the seller idk who I talked to and they said it’ll for sure come just it might take a little longer.

Not watching is the easiest now it’s more like I can’t orgasm without watching it mostly hardcore stuff that’s just things I wouldn’t even do in person which makes me relapse to watching. It started in quarantine and became worst. Before I was able to with my imagination now it’s just so hard to. I feel guilty cause today I broke that pattern and this is a post I’m probably gonna delete after cause I generally feel shameful talking about this and I don’t want weird people catering my dms cause I won’t answer any at all, But it’s a genuine struggle I feel like I ruined it so much I’m just scared how long it’ll be until I go back to normal. Like I can’t even get off with my boyfriend.

Using the wand for 20 mins hurts my back just bending every time for him, I like to use balls but they often get stuck/lost somewhere but those are good, I was thinking of getting this automatic cat map thing , tried a automatic ball and he doesn’t really like to chase after it just watch. Getting another cat isn’t an option sadly or I know it’d be good. Then I’ve really been considering on trying to walk him starting off the backyard but I’m extremely scared of him wanting to keep going outside/finding more interest outside then indoors. If theres just more stimulating ways or if you guys recommend the longer wands maybe for them? I’ve also don’t wanna get a laser cause I’d feel bad as I hear now they aren’t good for cats nowadays and it gets them confused. Just spending an hour everyday to play with him is fine just gets hard at times when he has so much zoomies even past that.

Also he was a rescue as a kitten and has strong hunting instincts if there’s anything for that as well!